WeddingOverSTRESS?Dancing King/5YRStrip/Campingout

What a week what a weekend I had...

Last friday after work I got the kids and headed to home to get the kid's baths and head to the church... went through the rehersals a few times..Sondra not walking down the isle...I had my wishful thinking going on and saying she'll do fine for the big day...and then had a lovely meal after ward at my Grandpa Kenny's...and then thats wheen the trimmer began....I'm on my way home and it hits me... Best Man's Toast..Maid of Honor speech/toast?... SHIT!... I guess it hit me b.c. it was the 1st time I really met Al..Like I had seen him in passing... IDK..But my 1st reaction..sweating... lol.. then I text my sister...and ask if AL was doing a speech..and she replies an hour or so later....Yes he has one ready... my reaction.......SHIT SHIT SHIT....that means I'll be expected to do one... eehh... talking...so I get home... outbursts to Jake!..and he says oh you'll be fine...and then I start.... this is at like 11 closer to midnight....so then I'm kind of just writing something...thinking maybe I won't have too..but then confirmation from Jess she texts: "Do you have one ready"....my down right lie... of course... lol..SHIT...at about 1am...I'm on the phone to Lace telling her my speech and asking if it sounds ok..with some confidence from Lace and another reciting to my Sister in Law Kayla..I feel good about it... I'm confident in the speech but me actually me saying it...eeeekk... so now.. we are ready in the back of the church waiting to walk down the isle...Sondra... surprising won't go and grabs hold of my leg and buries her head..almost pulling up my dress to reveal my body armor that is supposed to be worn and not seen lol (girls you know what that means)...but I catch it just in time... I really wanted to hurt her... it gets worse... so this is the 1st time we all are dressed up as a family so I want Misty to take a family picture of us... who doesn't co operate..not my baby boy..but my little bratty girl..I was really mad at her..like contemplating spanking her b.c. she won't look at the camera and smile for us...I was ticked...haven't seen the photos yet..hopefully there is at least one good one in there...so we get to the reception...the DJ.. my uncle Dave says we are going to do the toasts right before everyone eats..so that like what in 2 minutes... aahh.. not feeling real confident... so AL is nervous..I'm nervous...and he is asking if I wanted to go first...and I say well sure! lol... I'm goofy... so all this anticipation you probably think I fell flat......well I didn't... I handled it... maybe its b.c. I took Public Speaking in college...or not Idk...it just scared the pee out of me standing up and talking in front of 500 people..although while speaking I could feel my free hand shaking...or I felt like my voice sounded shaky... but with people's reassurances they said it was great... 

I was happy for the rest of the night.... so happy I was even dancing... lol.. Jake loves to dance...me not so much..but will do for my husband..I'm more willing to dance with a few drinks in me but I decided not to drink anything that night...and let him have a few...so there I was just relieved that I got the speech over with and thought I couldn't humiliate myself any worse so I danced a little and by the end of the night when we were still dancing and people were cleaning up- I decided to continue to dance so I wouldn't have to help clean up lol.... I'm so lazy I know... also of those who seen my hubby dancing... no he wasn't drunk he was feeling good  lol...and if you think that is crazy..you should be at a CLUM wedding and In the Navy Comes on...eehhh 

I was so happy to be home and in bed with the wedding over... we slept in the next day... all of us were grumpy too lol... we opened presents at my grandpa's the next day also... and my last Maid of Honor duty was over..writing down all the crap that I would like to have that the bride received on a piece of paper!.. lol..and I told My Sister..I'M NOT THROWING you your Baby Shower whenever that may be..LOL... I don't think she was offended..

I cannot wait for next weekend... Jake & I's 5 year anniversary is Friday July 22...we are going to a red's game @ 710pm with really good seats Jake got through one of his salesman at work... but taking the day off and going for a tour at the park..and then today we decided going and getting cheap seats for the game on Saturday... man I love my husband... I have a hard time watching Baseball on tv..but I'll manage...it is going to be nice...our hotel is in walking distance to the park... and a nice one..I'm excited to get "away"... 

Welp... I have to be going...I'm off Camping this weekend with the horses... it should be good...a weekend of doing nothing sitting around a fire and riding in a wagon.. can't wait! There is just something about that noise from the horses feet hitting the grounding... 

Walmart Hate Stu's Advice weddingwkend babysitterdelight

I'm going to say this now..I hate Walmart. I can't stand it and their pharmacy. They come in handy when you have grocery shopping to do..but I am pretty close to just driving cross town to Meijer to do my shopping. The money I spent in Gas would probably be worth it then waiting in line for so long and waiting so long for the pharmacy. They just really annoy me..

As far as Stuart... when I took him to the doctor he wanted to do another Chest Xray and blood work... his chest xray showed he has a respiratory infection. So he is on antibiotics and we go back to doc next Friday and there he says we'll probably get him on a decongestant medicine to help with all his congestion... I hate when he is coughing and hacking and all along I have just gotten use to it.. He is my little Wheeze Box...I have talked to many mothers and all of them said he will grow out of it... both Jordan and Jonas was the same way... I've had people tell me its b.c. they are c-section babies and not everything was squeezed out of them how normal babies are born... I have had people say its allergies..I've had people tell me its asthma... and all the suggestions I have got I beleive them all...I like to hear people's advice... I got a little tired of it when Sondra was a baby b.c. I heard so much of it....but I just let it go in one ear and grabbed on to what I agreed with and let the rest go out...but ultimately I have learned when hearing advice is no matter how crazy it may seem there could be some helpfulness to it... no matter what you read in a book or hear a doctor tell you what they think you should do...is much different then a parent that has been through it. As my doctor's nurse is telling me he has a infection I said I'm such a bad mother!..and her reply is.."you were doing what you should have been doing.  You said he didn't have a fever and eating normally, and not cranky...how would you know when he is always congested and wheezing."...I thought to myself well I guess you are right...the only time I felt a little like he was getting sick was Saturday and Sunday... at his well baby check up I told them I was concerned about his wheezing and breathing...then he got his 1 year shots...and then Saturday and Sunday he was warm but nothing over 100 and I knew that didn't warrant a visit to the ER...so I was just doing what I knew to do.....but still hearing today he needed antibiotics still wasn't fun!... I'm glad he is going to get to feeling better...hmm..IDK..I guess after rambling all about this--- I guess what I am saying is I won't ever turn down advice and if you give it..know I will at least try it once for your benefit if I don't think it will harm my child :).

Tonight is Jess & Mike's rehearsal dinner and tomorrow their Wedding! I love weddings..I love weddings I watch not so much like being in them... I'm excited for Sondra b.c. she is a flower girl and this time she'll actually do the flower thing...  she has been pretty excited and always wants to practice with her flower petals. So she is really looking forward to these next 2 days maybe even more than Jess is.. lol... Stuart will be dressed to the nines in a little 5 pc tux... We'll all be dressed up to impress..I'm excited!..family , friends, good food, and wedding cake...yummy!.

I'm happy to report I have found a baby sitter for the kiddies!... I'm excited for my Sister In law Melissa to watch them!..Sondra & Stu are going to have a great time playing with Jude. Now I just got to figure out how much earlier I need to leave my house. to be on time for work. The kids last day with Amanda is July 29th. Man Sondra is gonna miss her and the kids. and I'm sure Stuart will miss Amanda too. probably not the twins so much b.c. they pick on him.. lol.. well they try to be helpful.. lol..

I must be going..I got things to do!!>..Later pray for a nice wedding...

  

Epic Day/Wedding Party/oh Weekend/IwasYourHappyEverAfter..Too Late

After Much consideration I am ready to share that yesterday was a epic day...maybe not EPIC EPIC...but it was pretty epic for me. I registered for college classes at Rhodes. Does it mean I'm gonna be going...no..it means I have the intentions to going...as long as financially we can do it...I would like to... for some strange crazy reason I qualify for part of the Pell Grant. I don't know whether to thank my Stu  for being another dependent and making us eligible.. or Mr Obama?.wanting USA to pay for everyone's college....I'm reluctant to share this and put it out there b.c. I don't know if I really will be able to attend or not... but I'm hoping all of this will work out...

UPDATE ON SCHOOL:..... I'm thinking it will be put on hold for now.. I will revisit this in a year when some funds have freed up. Although I am awarded some of the pell grant it just isn't doable right now... money and time...wish I had a lot of both...I'm not entirely upset..I'm a big girl.. I have a family that needs me and the reason why I was wanting to go back to school is so I could find a job that paid more so I could put my kid's in daycare...and wouldn't have to pay someone half my paycheck to watch my kids... TGIF.... I'm ready for a nice long weekend...

Jess & Mike's Wedding is getting closer and closer...I like going to other people's weddings..I don't like going to  immediate families weddings b.c. that entails work..and a whole bunch of stuff leading up to that day lol....don't tell you disagree b.c. you know what I mean... this weekend is her bachorlette party... is it sad that I know we are going to Thristy's and I'm more excited about maybe eating pizza there then even drinking..which I don't plan on doing..its just not worth the pain the next day...maybe I"ll practice self control and just bring a girly drink for the party before we go to thristys...

I'm very excited for the 3 day weekend...it will be so nice not being busy..and just doing whatever... well I gotta get going Stu needs picked up to go to his 1 Yr check up!..He is gonna get his shots..and hopefully the doctor will be able to help his Congestedness and wheezeyinees... who knows.. I'll update later...

One funny Sondra Story...
So I ended up having to take the kids with me to Rhodes because I had to pick some papers up or something I don't know... it was a little bit kind of weird to begin with..weird feelings..anyway..we made it about half way up there and Sondra says... Mamma I'm tired..I need a break...lol ...I said Girl you need to get in shape we are going to go to school and we gotta be able to walk!....

also as we are walking out I have my mohawk baby on my hip and holdin Sondra's hand... and I run into an old boyfriend...and he politely says Hi and me too..and I think to myself.. that's right...look what you missed :)... lol.I don't blame him..... I'd always wanted a serious boyfriend....but I was not always looking for a good guy in the right places....hmm... even Jake the good guy wasn't a intentional choice..he looked like a crazy bad boy...but came out totally different... He was a nice surprise... :)

Welp! I'll talk to you later!

I have Survived!

I could not in good conscious not post a blog this week.,...I have had a blast teaching at bible school..I have heard the funniest things... thoughtful things... and just darn cute things.... My favorite this week would have to be a from a boy named Gabe...he colored me a picture of a cow...but colored it black and brown..and told me that this cow would give me Chocolate Milk...this little boy was so sweet....I had at least 9 to 11 first and second graders in my class everyday..at times I was teetering on out of control..and when I arrived at work around noon time each day...that is when I exhaled and relaxed. I am honored I was able to participate in sharing the good news to children. They are our future and that is the best time to plant the seed...I had one little girl that stuck to me like glue..and she called me "teacher" although she knew my name- but a little boy kept throwing his pencil and hitting the ceiling and she looks at him and says stop that- this is God's House and he don't want you to mess it up!....lol... very cute... I'm amazed at what little souls already know. I know where this little girl lives and where she comes from and only hope she starts coming to Sunday school like her older sister has been doing for about a year now I think...
I have so much stuff going on this weekend that I wish I could just fast forward and it be Sunday night and me and Jake are just falling asleep in bed... I have Rachel's Baby Shower tomorrow.. I went shopping getting everything last night...and hopefully got it all...and then I have Sondra & Stuart's birthday dinner Sunday night....Sondra really wanted a party so I'm excited for her...She has been wanting the "belle" princess dress up dress at Walmart and that is what I got her... all of her birthday money she receives we are going to pick out a bike with training wheels and the whole nine yards..we've decided on a 18'' bike..its the best fit but most of them are not sold with training wheels so we will have to buy those and she just doesn't understand that...so wish us luck when we go...
Welp I got to get going! :) Upadate more later!

VBShereicome NastyWife RaininBabiesBdays funny story!

I have so much going on lately... its absolutely nuts...
1st off- with the help/encouragement from my Grandpa I'm going to teach at bible school. I am very nervous. I'm teaching 1st and 2nd grade! I have been excited all along but now really really excited b.c. I'm going to be apart of bible school! I'm reading the lessons and figuring stuff out.

2nd- this Sunday is Father's Day... hmm... yes.. My original plans were not to make anything of it... here is a confession... this year for mother's day I told Jake not to worry about doing anything..that he and Sondra could make me a dinner... well Mother's day rolled around and no special dinner...a few days after I nudged them to do it..and I felt a little... short changed... like...why wouldn't he do at least something???... or pick something small up..or whatever...well..I've learned to get what you want...you have to tell him What you want exactly!... anyways..well my original plans were to not do anything... just let the day go by and when he complained  or if he would complain say well its just like mother's day... lol.. I am so nasty...you don't need to tell me really. Anyways...my conscious got the best of me. I hate it sometimes. We ended up making a "homemade" gift..I can't say I don't want to spoil it.... but I love the sentimental factor over the Money factor... to me..I don't want some expensive thing that I originally really didn't want or need... But home made/handmade over $$$ any day...and sorry in advance to any family members that I must disappoint during the holidays...

3rd- Baby Shower "Busy"ness- I can't even begin to explain to you what I need to do for the shower to what I don't need to to do..Its just thrown in my brain and is always a looming cloud in my brain...I'm slowly getting my RSVPs from people... Friday... I will be running places getting stuff for the shower....

4th- My Kid's Birthdays.. and yes I am a idiot and having a little "family" bday party the day after Rachel's baby Shower.... I am such a crazy person and take on so much that I just plain stupid.. lol... so I went back and forth about having a party..b.c. its going to be such a crazy butt weekend...and so I settled on at least having the aunts uncles and grandparents for dinner b.c. we threw Sondra a 1st bday party..and well we got to for Stuart for his 1st bday...we gotta have a cake smash..and everything! what makes me settled down about this is... My sister in law Melissa volunteered to do the cakes...thank you thank you..I'm just going to make a dinner..that is easy for me to do...  no worries there..and I think we are going to go all out..since its just us family..I'm gonna let Sondra pick out decorations and then pick a set out for Stuart...and decorate one end of the table one way and the other end the other way.. also their pcitures are finished!!!! I will be getting them printed friday!..Now I will have to finish their Birthday letters!... Wish me luck..that may be the weekend project... :)Here are the Collages I made of their photos..I'll send these out to aunts uncles and family friends..

5th- IDK ..I can't think of anything right at this moment.. oh lordy its 2:45pm already... I gotta go to the church and help decorate for Bible School...Stuart has been worrying me a lot lately...he just can't seem to shake this cough and wheezing business..I'm so sick of congested kids! lol.. just when Sondra seems to be growing out of it...Stuart seems constantly stuffed up or hacking it up... i tell Jake its his inferior genes lol...

A Sondra story.... So last weekend was Coolie's graduation party and Sondra is out playing with a couple little boys we know that are family friends..and the little boy is lead into the house holding his nose bleeding and crying....hhmm.....I ask what happened and my aunt tells me..Sondra hit him in the face with her shovel...OMG... this cannot be my daughter lol...so I go and find her and I get my mean mug on and I look at her and say Sondra did you hit Gabe with a shovel in the face...she looks at me innocent..."yes?"... I ask why?..her reply "Gabe was going to tackle me so I hit him"... lol.. well She is a resourceful little girl..I'll give her that..
So- more exciting news...Stu is getting his haircut this weekend! :) Very excited...and sad too..this will shed all his im a "bitty little" baby.. oh well..its part of life...his new tricks since I last wrote...he says Uh Oh...and when you say I love you or blow him a kiss  he takes his hand and pats his mouth like he is blowing a kiss..its so sweet... :)...Since Jake has been so busy this week with hay stuff he doesn't get home till past 10pm and so I'm then I have to put Stu to bed and the last 3 night I have fed him and he falls asleep in my arms...so adorale. I've been just sitting after he falls asleep and watch him sleep..I can't stand it.. sooner than I would like he is going to grow up behind my back like Sondra did..I'm so amazed to look at her and remember like it was yesterday when she was born.. These past 4 years have flown by as super power speed...I hurt b.c. I can't seem to remember the last time I rocked her to sleep. like Sondra's years...Stuart's 1st year has flown too...I'm trying my best at "holding on"
Alrighty!.. I gotta get going..I'm off to get the kids...make something quick to eat and then to church to decorate!

can't think straight...heres a big mess of my thoughts for you to figure out lol

I am loving this summer weather. I for one this year want to attempt to get a "tan" or some color this year without having to buy a tanning package. Everyday I put shorts on after work and head outside. Whether a walk to Lafayette park or outside to my parents. So far not doing too hot..but oh well... I'll give it a try..

Many things have been happening lately... I have been trying to actually decide on Rachel's baby shower food and little party favors which are necessary but i like little things like that..but I'm pretty much well decided and can't wait...Her friends that offered to help are doing great and have great ideas too.. Its great...

So then on to my next todo...Sondra's birthday pictures... I have this cute idea...and then I am thinking I want pictures with her pony too.. how could you not..she is in love with this thing... almost everyday I pick her up from Amanda's and she asks: "Mommy is it horse riding day?"..its so cute!..

Soooooooo... I'm currently filling out my FASA and stuff... going to look into seeing how much it would be to go back to school....you can always dream right .. I figure if I have to work I might as well like what I am doing.. we'll see..very primal but still want to check and see if time...cost...and everything else is worth it..

I didn't get everything I wanted accomplished today...well there is always tomorrow.. we'll see!~..
I'll write another time..got a lot going on~ ... love me

oh 3 day weekend-miss you..kindle sadness..JuneBugs Pictures

After having that 3 day weekend...I could get use to that! makes you week go a little bit faster! So Monday Jake started cutting hay. So that means me & the kids are on our own in the evenings which it wouldn't be as bad but he is usually busy on weekends too doing "man stuff"..whatever..work outside at my parents farm..so I'm living the single momma life lately..which it isn't bad right now..my parents have a family friend's 2 kids for the week so we have been going over there in the evening letting them run wild... its fun to watch them interact and play! It sometimes really sucks like when he is stressed out b.c. his baler isn't working right and doesn't get home till 10pm at night and I talk to him more on the phone then I do in person..but him and this hay business my brother and him have...will help us buy our forever home..so I'll push through and try not to complain too much...

I am in utter sadness lately...i stare at my kindle and have nothing to read...the series that I read through really fast is done till September... that won't come soon enough..so if you have any good authors let me know...I haven't had any book really trip my trigger lately...entertain me... 

Sondra & Stuart's birthdays are coming up. Why would I be so blessed to have two kid's birthdays in the same month..let a lone days apart! Their pictures have begun. I started the first try lastnight with Stu..and let me tell you what...he isn't as easy as Sondra was when she turned one but as depressing as I thought of a job I was doing..I actually got some good ones..Sondra is next...and then Stuart will be again when I think..IDK.. i want to do the messy cake one..but can't think of where to do it b.c. I can't do it in doors b.c. I can't really figure out good lighting the pictures always looks weird... either way... I'm trying to get the pictures done early before their bdays so I can mail them out~!... also reminds me I need to get their birthday letters done too..Stuarts will be easy..mostly facts about what he did when he did... Sondra's..who am i kidding will be easy..its so easy to write  a letter....especially to your kids..little humans you look at and see your whole future in their eyes..its just finding the actual time to do it. I will get it done and get the letters in their folders by their birthdays..you just watch!...

I am so ready for the weekend..nothing too big planned..but just being with my Babies and hubby... Sondra has a birthday party... and a grad. party on Sunday... wohoo! 

Stuart's Good Pic :)

They have the funniest faces :)... Stu was getting mad at Sondra!