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just a heads up- You will be getting a update..sorry for the absence... I miss throwing out anything and everything on my mind..Stay Tuned

Photo Dream.. Mothers day.. Driven Life

My Latest Newborn: Sydney Joe Abbey

1st Newborn photoshoot try

One of my somewhat favorite things to do is so look through pictures that I have taken. I like to see how I have grown throughout the few years I have been taking pictures of my children and slowly but surely the pictures I have taken for family and friends. I am most proud to be asked to take pictures. I'm am not charging but just enjoy getting to experiment and try to replicate ideas I have seen. I think someday- after I really understand my camera and it's capabilities (like taking the Apollo class)... then I would like to start a business based on the premise taking Family & Children Portraits at a affordable price. I think it is important to have them. I hate to say it but I sometimes can't remember what Sondra looked like when she was a baby- but I just pull out her pictures and remember again. 

Its been a few weeks since you have heard from me! I have had a great few weeks. The weekend before I had a unusual occurrence... Jake took me out on a date. He arranged for someone to watch the kids and all w/out me even knowing it! Then to top it off- He took me to a movie that I totally loved. It was called October Baby. Its about a girl that finds out her parents actually adopted her after her bio-mother tried aborting her. Amazing story..couldn't keep a dry eye through the whole movie.

The following weekend..Ms. Diva Sydney came into this world. My 2nd niece to be born..I am/so excited! I love nieces & nephews. I am so happy for my Sister and Mike & Colt. She deserves her ever after and Syd completed the picture I think. and get use to hearing about her...she is a doll! and a Diva...but this recent birth has fuel Sondra's fire for a sister... which..somewhat has awakened my desire for a large family but just the few minutes I'm around these newborns each time- I think oh wow I am not ready for this again... I barely stay sane as it is..and that is debatable ... 


Mother's day is this weekend!... Sondra has been working on something special for the special ladies in her life...so it will be fun passing it out to each of them. I love the thought and excitement she gets. I always struggle with special holidays like mother's/father's day b.c. one I don't have hundreds to spend on my or Jake's family... so we do something special homemade. I hope someday I have a shelf full of homemade things from the little hands that I love. Is it selfish of me to hope the kids do something special for me? and when I say kids I mean Jake will have to arrange it or think of something? I won't lie- I like to be told in words my worth sometimes. It helps. Reminds me what I am doing is working, worth it, helping. I always here from guys excuses for not doing something for their wife my personal favorite: well she isn't my mother.. and that is when I want to claw their eyes out! That is your wife- the mother of your children- more than likely the primary caregiver of your children. Let her know you care.


Since the weather warming up- its horse riding season...since Myst being put down..nearly early spring/summer I always shed a few tears... lol.. I know its horrible. You are probably thinking..this girl is still going on about this horse? OMG... but this year I have been pretty busy..have hardly felt that hole in my heart until I was driving and went past horse friend's house and seen the horses out in the pasture and they have/had Mystery's Mom.(not sure if she is still alive)...which they bred her and  have had other babies..but I looked out in the pasture and there she was...Mystery at her prime...it was a sister of Myst but looked exactly like her... i think her name is filly...... just really made me stop and think how much I miss riding... how much I miss my own horse..even right now..I'm getting choked up. Someday when I have time & money I'd like to have a horse again. But I can only hope she is at least half the horse Myst was.

another piece of exciting news is my Brother Rick & Sis in law are expecting a baby like previously said...here is the doosey- its quads! I'm so excited! I'll keep everyone updated! 

Man- last night at bible study was a good one... we talked about helping people... seeing someone in need...listening to them... and actually helping them....another thing someone brought up is- the person who is being helped needs to be able to accept it. It is most hard to help your church family sometimes like its most hard for pastors to get church people up for altar calls. "Church People" don't think nothing is wrong with them. Church people are not broken. But I like how people call a church a "hospital for sinners" its the truth. Listening to my pastor last night talk about how when he shakes hands I do this..and he asks how are you how you doing..replies: oh I'm good..I'm fine... you never hear the I'm doing really bad. I have a horrible debt problem that I can't fix..or me and my husband are on the verge of divorce...people don't want to admit fault.... I'm that same way...its like the week before talking about how we need to be authentic... :)..sigh... I have loved this bible study...I'm excited to see what next we will do... since being a sunday school teacher I really miss out on the adult Sunday school..which really stinks...but going to sunday school or bible study spurs me into reading the bible more and learning and what not..and when I am not going..I tend to not read as much.....

so I must be going!... I got exciting things happening these next few weeks! 

Love,

Me

P.S.

I have never had a problem w/ my last name until I as doing laundry the other day and the L was hanging of so I tore the  the one shred holding it on and started folding it and realizing OMG>. guess I can't wear that no more....Jake must not got the Memo we don't wear it no more lol... 

  

Sondra & Sydney

Stu still not toning down his cheese face

  

LotsOfNews/Retreat/PicLady/Sitters

Hey ya all! I’m back! I think I kind of like these little breaks whether they are forced because I have not enough time to update you or on the weekends late at night as I watch tv and go back and forth if I should write a blog or not because I feel a little boring… Well today won’t be I think.

A lot has been happening over the past 2 weeks. We welcome Dane into the world Via Jonas/Mel’s new Son Jude’s “little bother” he will I’m sure call him someday like Sondra does about Stuart…

Which if Dane is here that means the kids are at a new babysitter for the time being...and let me tell you they are enjoying it! My cousin Megan so very nicely offered to watch them. Originally they were going to go to a wrestler’s mom who babysits- but after much thought & price I thought what is a few extra miles when its family. The con to family watching them is potential to ruin the relationship. This is always tough. You would think it would be easy to talk your family but when you involve money or provide constructive criticism sometimes that can hurt feelings. I always think is it really worth it? Thankfully Megpie parents like I do. Laidback but will put the smack down on when appropriate! Lol.. I have been waiting to get a call or a report of bad behavior but none so far or really nothing out of the ordinary…but hey when she first watched Sondra she says oh gosh Joie..She is a female version of Kyle…lol…but you can definitely tell she is hanging with boys more… she is telling me some sword she really wants to get at Wal-Mart!

  

Last weekend was our Women’s Fellowship Weekend Retreat. And if you missed it I’m sorry you did! What I love most about the yearly retreat is that we the women of the church get away from everything and just gib gab away and strengthen our bonds as a “sisterhood”. We make crafts have our meeting- have a chance to do a little shopping- (this year Sara H. did a 31 party that she graciously donated all profit back to us)…we watched the movie Courageous which was amazing…and then Sunday morning for our service Jacqi Bradley came and shared with us her testimony and message. This is my 3^rd retreat that I Have been too..and Jacqi blown me away. It touched me and I felt like she was there just speaking to me. She talked about the story of the good Samaritan.  (http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Parable_of_the_Good_Samaritan)  How she always liked to think that out of the characters in the story that she was most like the “good Samaritan”. But after her grease fire accident she realized that she had been all the characters at one time in her life in that story. That she was once like the priest & also the levite  who went to the other side of the road and wouldn’t help the beaten up traveler and most recently had become the helpless traveler who needed to be taken care of. If you don’t know Jacqi Bradley she recently had a cooking accident and ended up having severe burns to her hands and feet. Her story is amazing I feel to hear about the healing process and how she coped with it all.  I just feel very blessed to have had spent the weekend with my “sisters” and hear such a great message.

The weeks leading up to the retreat have been some rocky ones. That I for once in my life have decided I  will start living a purpose driven one. Our bible study is reading that A Purpose Driven Life and have classes over it(it is just the second week tonight..you can catch up come join us! Babysitter provided)… but  I’m excited for the changes that I am going to make- everyday changes and spiritually. I’m ready. 

To share a praise with you also- You guys know that my biggest fear lately has been being stuck in our tiny house in Lafayette. Well good news has arrived. We are not out of it yet- but we have talked to the bank about financing about a particular place we want to get. I can’t share much more than that- but please pray that things work out. Pray that we are able to get it & that we will be able to move into it soon! lol…I’m ready for a bigger house… I can count on 2 fingers the days we stayed home after work for the past 2 weeks… we lately just go right to my parents just to be outside..Stuart loves to be outside on his toys..And as you know Sondra loves to ride her pony…I just can’t wait to be able to yell at the kids- GET OUTSIDE and out of my hair! lol... with new house to me talk..I have been on Pinterest looking at my dream home board and looking at the things that I dreamed of doing and hoping once we see the inside of this place hopefully I will be able to do some of those things…I’m so excited for this adventure..Just pray for God’s will and that His will involves this place…

And probably some of the most exciting news yet- MY SISTERINLAW KAYLA & BROTHER RICK ARE EXPECTING A BABY or could be babies!!!! I’m so super excited for them!!! In the coming weeks they will have their first ultrasound! Please pray that he/she or they are healthy and things are looking good! I’m so super excited they will be such awesome parents! I’m going to try something different and say I don’t care what it is..I’m just happy they are expecting! Which lol…this will be a BABY GALORE shower!!!....

Here is the Daddy To Be Rick :) w/Sondra &Stuart

 I loved hearing Kayla talk about how she couldn’t wait to have all the symptoms and morning sickness that she waited for it and she wants it all! She wants to really experience pregnancy! I think being pregnant is a gift from God. Go on girls…wouldn’t you get a little jealous if your man was the one that carried the baby. That he was attached to “your” guy’s baby even before you??? I would be..I loved the connection the kicks and all. And also- not every woman can get pregnant..I remember trying for Stuart and I seriously thought something was wrong with me…like I was depressed because my one thing I knew I was made for- wasn’t happening. So Mommas to be- try and be more thankful for the gift God gave you!

Also I want to share- Here is someone I am so thankful for: I don’t say it enough or I gripe about him a lot but he really is a good guy..great guy and wonderful Dad..just look at the picture look how much his kiddies love him! I really very much thank God for bringing me to a christian husband. 

Last but not least uploading the above picture made me think about it- I took some pictures of the kids and threw Dad in there too... I love my camera!... I was a bit hesitant in taking them b.c. I thought- what if they are not any better than the previous ones..would that mean I wasted my money... but no... the pics I took was very improv and the image quality turned out so much better- and when I was looking at them my first thought was; and this is why we needed this camera...I carry my camera with me almost always when I am outside on the farm and the kid's outfits were just what they wore that day.. Sondra had a dress on that my mom made when she was learning to sew(which Sondra picked out to wear to church- I was at the retreat so Jake let her wear it) and Stu had some bibs on from goodwill lol...anyways...I had noticed a rock pile behind my parents house and thought that would look cute for the kids to sit on...and what do you know it did!.. I love taking their pictures and am excited to take others too... Kayla newly pregnant has asked me to take some Maternity photos of her when its time to do that...and before she was pregnant when I first started taking pictures of my kids- that I will have to take pics of her kids..which I gladly accept....also.. thinking about future picture taking days...Syd will be born soon...I can't wait to take some pictures of her :)...some exciting times.... I always remember- pictures are priceless...you get to freeze moments in time and have a keepsake a image that you will never have to forget b.c. when you do..you can pull it out and see it again. I wish I would have taken more pictures or Videos of certain people in my life that have passed away...ALSO I want to create a tag/name or something to put on my pictures. Just so- you give credit where credit is due if that makes sense even though- I diddled with Memorie's Layne Photo...b.c. my middle name is Layne and I think that is neat...but googling there are different Memory Layne or similar ones with that spelling...any ideas..comment here or on Facebook if you want to share please!..

I must be going :) .... Have a great rest of the week or next week too if I don't update you later.

    

GPAGMA Time/School TimeTears/TheAUNTS

Hey ya'all --- So sorry I didn't update last week...time just got past me and I honestly had one of those weeks where I was down about something- and I just thought I better not say something I can not take back. Because trust me- I wanted to scream the injustice- but the more i think about it..I'm gonna bitch about it and not have happy thoughts..but its just not worth it....Lesson Learned..I'm moving on.... or so I think

What has happened these last 2 weeks? I'll Fill You In...

hmm..Nothing I can really think and think about..lol...Last weekend on Friday I met my MIL (mom in law) and dropped the kids of to her...Me & Jake needed a night and day w/out them..plus..they needed their Gma & Gpa time...which they came back with some great stories... which My Parents and Jake's parents are opposite ...His parents live in town mine live on a farm. So they get to have different experiences when they stay the night...I loved holding over Sondra's head all week..if you don't straighten up I'm calling Grandma Clum and telling her you can't come!...lol.. Growing up for me I loved staying at "Grandma's House"... the excitement and fun...and I'm so glad my kids especially Sondra is old enough to have that excitement....

There was a time that I physically would get sick thinking of anybody having my baby/babies....it wasn't that I didn't trust my family or Jake's...but I have slowly learned the kids need it and I some what dealt with the issues I have within me and its bearable and sometimes even enjoyable and when family members take the kids off my hands..I think to myself when I am kidless..Why the hell did I wait so long to do this?

Saturday night we had a cook out at my parents... there we met my brother's fiance's parents which I see where she gets her good looks :)...and that is when my In Laws dropped off the kids and stayed awhile and my friends came and brought their kids which Sondra totally flipped out..she loves seeing Cara...Uncle Scott trimmed a few of the horses' feet..which a few days earlier Scott trimmed Sondra's pony's feet and as he started Sondra told him to be careful with her lol....and when Dasiey Bob started moving around Scott said whoa Bud...(a very G rated name to what I am use to hearing him call some problem horses) and Sondra has the nerve to get mad and say HEY She is a girl!!! 

Also Last week...this is really big... Sondra attended Allen East's Kindergarten Screening...I had no intention of even taking her because I was under the assumption that they still wasn't offering a 2 year program. Sondra has a summer birthday- so I didn't want to send her when she really could go but didn't have to b.c. I didn't want her to be the "young-in" of her class.  If you graduated from AE you all know that you were the year olders that   took 2 year kindergarten or you were youngers a full year younger then most kids...
so..a while ago me and Mr. Talked about it and it was agreed not that we didn't think Sondra was smart enough to go to school..she clearly is a clever girl..but we wanted her to be more mature...so after a few texts from friends that Sondra's friends were going to screening at various schools..and explaining to them..Sondra was staying home another year I was feeling a bit bad for her..b.c. she wants to go to school or preschool or something and she wasn't getting too... so one friend inparticular took her kid to screening at AE and he was selected to be in a new 2 year program they just passed the Tuesday before at a school board meeting...but thank goodness She texted me and let me know or Sondra would have missed the chance...but I called the school right away and was able to take her up there that day!... so Sondra is going to school after all and after seeing the cirriculaum I think she would need a 2 year program either way...State is putting new standards on the kindergartners which by the time she is in 2nd grade I'll probably need a tutor myself to help with homework...
Everything seemed so Surreal... lol..sad right... like when Mr. Altenburger was giving a tour of the school..I just smiled lol...that's my old Bball coach... now he is a principal? ...he is so much more humorous than I remember? When did that happen?...Call me Larry~!...my reply..oh no you are not Larry to me Mr. Altenburger... lol...and I know I am not some oddity but felt so funny..I was the youngest one there that is for sure..one of the kid's parents was a teacher when I was in school...lol..made me chuckle...but Sondra was a bit nervous about this whole thing...she was excited but "scared" she said.. but thank goodness when we walked into the office we see her friend from church Jack Stark!..which they made each other real comfortalbe and they were behaving like wild children..and it was nice for me to have another Mom there to calm my nerves~!...we both agreed that it was going to be nice to have something to hang with at school functions now! :)

It just..Since that day of walking out and Sondra so nonchalantly slipping on her bright pink star shades her teacher..lol teacher gave her...my heart broke a little bit every second since.she had this smile pasted on her face and just looking at her you could tell how exited happy overjoyed she was..in the car we called Daddy and she told him all proud....what the hell??.. where has time gone..as much as I thought I was holding on to her so tightly...she seems like has pried my fingers from her and is growing up...  I know I have many more years of being her Mommy and her depending on me..but still this is the first step of being Miss Independent...

also in other heart breaking news- Stuart has moved over to a Toddler Bed... lol...now you know why I should be falling into pieces...One week Sondra is signed up for school the second week Stuart is in a big boy bed... I should be in a puddle...I really don't know how I have been functioning.. So Stuart slept in a crib for maybe a few month...but after we redid our floor in the house they took it down...I told Jake just not to even put it back up..it took up a lot of space and it was broken and after Stuart was able to climb it would just be too dangerous..so we decided to use our pack and play for a bed....I wasn't about to go spend a few hundred dollars on a new crib when we wouldn't be needing one again till we are in a new house... so the pack and play did great for him..except he was really good at climbing in and out of it..so after he climbs out of it we would scare him back into bed and he would stay there... well after buying him bedding Saturday night was the first night...great~...did awesome..Sunday night...he did great...Monday good too...Tuesday night and Last night..it is like he got a new confidence and he doesn't want to stay in bed..that turd..he stays in his room he just bothers Sondra and then Sondra eggs him on..I have heard them cackling both last 2 nights...the falling asleep thing is getting to be a problem...which..I am sure it will pass....

Today Dane (My brother Jonas's son) will be making his Debut today)....... I love more and more babies are coming in the family... Its going to be a big day for Big Brother Jude whose life is about to change drastically lol... its probably for the best for him..he is pretty attached to his Momma as she is to him...I'll post baby pictures next week on my next blog...I guess Sondra went to the Jonas & Mel's yesterday and told Melissa "You have a very BIG day tomorrow!"...lol.. so funny... also..Sondra isn't happy Dane is a boy...she doesn't want NO MORE boys..she only wants Girl cousins... so Ainsley(Jake's sister Rachel's Girl) plays heavy on our talking topics and regular checks of Rachel's Facebook to see new pictures..and so is Sydney(My Sister Jess's Diva) ..who hasn't even been born yet... but it will be a fun night tonight~..after work "The Aunts" Me, Jessy, Kayla, Brittany(Jordan's Fiance) & my kids are going to ride up to the hospital together to see Dane!... I love the term "The Aunts"... lol.

also on Saturday one of the lambs had the most little babies ever...after a few days of bottle feeding they both died! it was so sad!... Sondra took it very well... she told me we could just go over to Andy's house and take his baby lambs lol... that is stealing Sondra!

Well I must really be going

I'll try and not skip a week- but I may do it more often when I don't feel like I don't have share worthy news for you... I sometimes feel like I may be a bit of a bore...

Shower/Puddles/Cryptic/

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Man..its a long day!...today we had a small baby shower in Findlay at Mike's parent's house for Jess...it was so fun seeing all the girly diva clothes...from the beginning I've said this little baby will be a diva...so it was only fitting she received a bunch of animal print clothes and even a onsie that had Diva written on it! so cute...I can't wait till that little Diva arrives..

the Kid's Relaxing in the barn

Somebody Must have told him NO! lol..he can cry on command

man the weather this week has been so nice...we have been out at the ranch working outside nearly everyday... its fun...seeing the kids running wild... Stuart is such a boy... you give him a pair of rubber boots and he knows exactly what to do..he goes splashes in the puddles... I really have to keep an extra eye on him b.c. he roams to wherever he wants to go...I was inside cooking or something and I look out the window and I see him walking into the horse pasture..I see my Mom and Jake busy doing something..and I think to myself..theres them 2..and then stuart roaming in the pasture...then I see them look up...Mom running to get him...lol.... good one...

We had the wrestling banquet Tuesday night...which was great...really good food :)...a little bittersweet though- John is done wrestling!...man he was so much fun to watch... I can't believe what he done in 4 years. Only four years wrestling..from the first year he started to making it to State 2 times...wow.. I know he didn't place..but just making it is a big accomplishment... Very proud...and when he looks back on it..he much to be proud of too.. Jake received some gifts too...lol..the seniors got him 5 cans of chew and a box of toothpics lol..very practical gifts....and a nice shirt he can wear next year... Carla Oberly made him a really great picture..has the kid's pics on it and a poem...

One Gripe this week is people's "cryptic" facebook status... like they want to say so much more..but they don't..and leave you wondering what really are they talking about? lol... I think it is funny... its like JUST SAY IT!...What is a status even for...I don't think its for airing Dirty Laundry...or leaving Cryptic messages for people to wonder...

With this nice weather I have been taking a storm of pictures of the kids...I'm planning on doing a nice "photo shoot" with the kids...I love my camera...so happy we got it.. it makes even everyday photos so wonderful..

soo... here is a crazy.. I cleaned my car out...lol... sad ya know... Sondra told me she wanted to ride in the very back in the third row...so I said Okay?...lets get all of you and your brother's junk out of here...I am serious....I took probably 5 blankets in the house...plus a big bag of the kid's toys...yes there was trash..but seriously a lot of it was the kid's stuff..socks!!!..lol.. and sippy cups... man!... it was nuts..so its all cleaned out and stu a little ticked off about not being able to see his sister in the car... I may have to put his seat in the back...lol... I hate losing the extra room in the back..but its ok if she is happy... the princess...or she thinks..the Queen...lol She is bad...

So I stopped at Gifts of Joy this week and found this...So going to use this in my Sunday School Class to do some lessons on Heaven..

Welp I must be going :)

Personal Fav... he seriously played with this for hours...he loves his stroller pushes it al
l around the farm thanks Maddi :) 

Just a Update

This week has been a pretty good week... Its the first week of No wrestling..so it has been nice actually seeing my hubby... the kids have I loved it :). Also- Deb is back to work half days..which it is nice seeing her there. Friday was supposed to be date night for me and Jake--we were going to go see the Vow... but that got missed b.c. Jake had to work late- so perhaps another night. 

My friday night was spent at my parents while Jake was at work...Sondra loved it b.c. Jordan and more importantly his fiance Brittany was there...she loves her...all up in her business: 

Sondra being goofy :) 

Today was a nice day...the kids played out side..Sondra had some extra time with Dad- doing sheep work.. it was cute..

Taking Hay to the horses

One intersting fact...last friday took stu to the doc b.c. of his spots on his leg...orginally the doctor thought they were chicken pox...well they never blistered & turned into pox..which surprised me..and didn't..b.c. I didn't bleive he had them..but really I just didn't know..but I guess I am happy he didn't have them..but still he has bumps...but they don't bother him..so the doc said to not worry unless they do. Maybe we will know more once he goes back for a check up and also..hopefully we will get some answers after he is tested for "selective IGA deffiencey" the thing Jake has. either way he  is still the same crazy little guy... 

The build a bear trip was a success. The kids..Sondra had lots of fun...and she built herself a cute little rainbow rabbitt she named butterscotch. Of course she picked out the 2 essentials every bunny needs: a Bikini and a blue and white cheer leading outfit. Stu made a Monkey that he has lovely took a long with him here and there this week. 

I feel like I have had some what of a blah week...don't feel like I do not have nothing to tell you.....

This morning me and the kids went to ToysRus and got the babies to be born gifts. Which was fun :) but not fun..every parent knows it stinks taking kids into that store...they want everything...No Sondra- that costs $50...you don't have that much money and she asks how much do I have then? holding out her hand of pennies and nickels... 

One cool thing happened this week...at the All Star Wrestling Meet..My Hubby was awarded Assistant Wrestling Coach of the year! :) So proud of him... as much as I gripe about wrestling and how it takes up a lot of time for Jake..I am happy he is in those kids lives. He could be doing worse things...and I am happy if some how some way he is impacted those young men's life for good. in any extra circular activity for school or anything..you always seem to learn something more than what the task is at hand. When he came home that night he showed me his award...and then showed me this photo frame a parent of one of the wrestler's mother made for him. And the wrestler wrote a nice note included in the frame. This wrestler ended up winning 1st place at state and on it the wrestler thanked him. This wrestler was part of the group Jake wrestled with on Sundays...as much as I hate him going and wrestling on Sundays in a wrestling family's barn- I understand that wrestling is a full time sport- that if you want to be the best you need to push yourself 7 days a week. 

I am wore out people... I gotta get going.. Please keep Tell in your prayers...pray that he is able to get his breathing tube out tomorrow. Pray for all families in recovery.... Recovery is the longest road... 

My Little Stuart outside...by the time we went into the house his jeans were drench from mud puddles :)  such a boy

Fascination/PoxOutBreak/InfectBuildABear/Tell/State

I often wondered growing up who would I become? What would I be? What will I do? Who will I meet? I'd think about my life and how it would look years down the road. And now I don't. I have lived in the moment since the day i got married. Even more so when I became a mother. I sometimes fault myself because I don't like to look into the future. I just try to enjoy each little moment I have with whoever I may be with. Usually my kids; I love to just stare at them and watch how they hold themselves. Maybe its a look into their future. I love when Stu lays in Jake's spot in the bed. He will lay his head back and have his arms behind his head and he will have this stern serious face as he watches tv....what is going on his that boy's head I wonder to myself?.... Or Sondra...I love to listen to her singing..it is so funny and so sweet. She is into the music from tangled. So much I made her a CD tonight b.c. I want to hear her sing all the time. I hope she is in choir someday and sings like her uncles did. That would make me proud. I love how every night before bed I tell Stu to tell Jake & Sondra goodnight..He goes around kissing and hugging...so cute :) My children truly fascinate me. I May live a small life..but my children make me feel 10 feet tall...they make me believe I'm doing something great. They may be down right monsters- but my goodness- they are perfect.

So....Stu all of a sudden has these red splotches/bumps on his thigh....I was thinking goodness no- not another skin infection..what was it going to be this time: impateigo, hand foot and mouth, 5ths diease...what else could it be this time..I swear... if it is out there..Stu gets it... I don't get it...Sondra had maybe one or 2 skin infections..this kid..oh nope.. so I take him to the doctor b.c. it was close to the weekend and if anything concerning him always progressively gets worse at about friday around 6ish..so I was going to get a head of the game... I had good results with the uti drama the week before..I take him tell the nurse and doctor what was going on...and he looks at me and says... it's chicken pox...lol..whooa wait a second? Kids still get chicken pox lol.... are you sure???...and he pulls up pictures on his laptop of early stages..and sure enough they were but still I asked are you sure?? He says; Joie I'm almost positive..we'll know in 24 hours but I'm positive... lol..wow..ok?... sooooo.... that means as the world stopped for a second..all the family that would watch my kids are in Columbus...shit... soooo..that meant... I really wasn't going to work tomorrow...and there are piles of work on my desk that I would really like to finish...SHIT i hate this... how is it...I don't like bringing my job home with me but yet..I'm stressed b.c. I am not going to get what i wanted to get done tomorrow at work... so after the doc we went to walmart and got the essentials for chicken pox..got a few things to do tomorrow... hmm... stuck in a house with my kids tonight, tomorrow..and possible Saturday...shit...

well we have had planned for a few weeks doing something special while Daddy was at State... we decided on gong to build a bear b.c. its so much more fun with the kids there ...but stu having Chicken pox would probably derail that b.c. Kayla was going to drive us b.c. me I'm too scared to drive that far...so I texted her and after a call we decided who cares... we are going anyway... ya my infectious son may infect some unsuspecting kids..but who cares.. .lol... did you know kids that get the chicken pox vaccine that 15-20% of people end up getting chicken pox..Stuart why did you have to be in that 15-20...rrrr.... anyways... our reasoning though is all kids are vaccinated for them..so its not really a big deal...plus..the doctor said since he has had the vaccine his pox will be less severe.... as long as his face isn't covered in pox...the plan will be in action... and also if you are one of those people that don't believe in vaccinating your children all together b.c. it causes autism... just listen to yourself...that just doesn't make sense at least to me...

So the prayer list today/tonight when you have a minute...Quinntel Jr (son of a foster kid parents had a long time ago and we have became a surrogate family to him) was burnt badly in a grease fire...please pray for his recovery... its going to be a very long painful journey... pray for his father and his mother... pray they are what they need to be. I don't like questioning God..or getting mad at him..but this week I did...Why the innocent little kid has to go through this... its not like he was being a irresponsible doing something stupid..he is 4 years old..innocent hasn't ever lived a normal life to begin with..why this too?...anyways..after much thought- I'm done...and I just want you to pray for this little guy...he is a sweet heart :)

also..I'm dying at home while Colt & John are wrestling in State...I'm not going to miss another year if one of our guys are down there... I hate this...I'm here waiting on texts....people better be texting me details! :)