Bittersweet/Reffitt Triplets/HouseProgress News

Wow… a lot has been going on…one of the most exciting things:

Rick & Kayla had their babies! J

Saying that is somewhat of a bittersweet line…

Last Thursday I received a text from my Mom saying that Baby D(Trenna Faith) had died and that the doctors would keep close watch on the other three and Mom would let me know if they decide to deliver the other three.  As soon as I read it I shed a few tears. Why? Why after 29 weeks she wouldn’t make it. Having 2 nurses in my immediate family I have been told and reminded that Baby D might not make it. Or Baby D could have some health problems with the recent problems she was having. But still you don’t believe that. You believe everything will just work out. You do that- b.c. if you think about the “bad” stuff then…its actually true….But in this case it didn’t work. My second thought was: its probably for the best. There had to be reasons that God chose to take her early. Reasons I don’t know what they are but I know I necessarily don’t like them…BUT I don’t know God’s reasoning and I will never understand God’s reasoning. But it is HIS perfect will that is done and not mine. And when I get to heaven- I’ll surely know my Little Niece that left us before she even really got to be her and before I got to spoil her rotten.

One thing though- I’m really proud of Rick & Kayla. In the beginning it was suggested they eliminate baby D ….(BABY KILLIN’ ABORTION)…but they refused. And being a ProLife supporter I’m proud that they put Trenna in God’s hands and not man’s.

On Sunday I was FINALLY able to go see the Babies!...I was so excited…Jake had to keep telling me and Sondra to slow down when we were walking in. I just wanted to see them!!!...as we met Rick in the hallway he said Trenna was in the room… hmm.. My first response was that’s okay!...Not thinking about Sondra’s questions but just thought when she questions we will answer. I know she doesn’t absolutely comprehend death- maybe she could learn something. She wasn’t one bit shy. After I held her for a few minutes Sondra came over and wanted to hold her and she did… Sondra held her a lot. She asked me a few questions..some I could answer..Others I asked her to ask Kayla..Which Kayla answered when she came back from the nicu. I was very surprised at how open and accepting Sondra was to hold her. It was though very hard to explain the whole- this is just her body she is dead- Trenna is in Heaven. Which Thursday when I told Sondra Trenna had died her first response was: Grandma Sondra is probably holding Trenna right now! And burping her! So I know she gets the concept you go to heaven- but on Sunday holding her was a bit confusing but by the end of the day- I think she had a better understanding of it.

Sondra holding Miss. Trenna Faith Reffitt :) 

I’m honestly not sure how exactly I would handle losing a baby. Whether it breathed 1000 breaths or not a single one- I know it would hurt me. I meant I often cry or get teary eyed probably once a month over a horse that I never actually had a conversation with. Mystery was a stinking animal but I still get sad every now and then so I'm not really sure how I would take losing a child.....I think Trenna’s parents are doing fine and they are holding on to 3 precious little babies right now and I feel like they are helping them get through it.

Miss. Braylee Layne Reffitt

Mr. Cohyn Edward Reffitt

Miss. Mataya Kathleen Reffitt

It was so fun going back to the Nicu and seeing the triplets. Touching each one and almost feeling important having Kayla saying you want to touch such and such or take a few pictures first. Hearing each one’s progress and what is going on with them….I just can’t till we get to hold them..and pose them to take pictures lol...    Please keep Rick & Kayla and the babies on your prayer list...this will be a long journey of getting them home!

On too more exciting news but not as exciting as the Reffitt Triplets....the house 

Jake and I are to be blessed with generous jobs... Jake was able to take off Tuesday through Friday off. When he came up to work on Tuesday he said you should think about taking a few days off this week to help get work done at house...So I asked my boss and was able to use 3 days of my vacation. and Let me tell you what...man!...we got a lot done!... I got the Kitchen wood paneling painted..decided upon wallpaper for top part (I am not ripping and chipping of the layers of wallpaper that I tried to paint over and failed b.c. it bubbled up really bad)..Living room- got painted..new windows framed & Stained..I STILL need to paint the trim in the room & carpet still needs to be installed...I'm really putting it off I hate to paint trim... Our bedroom: was painted the closet slash lookey out to living room hole has been covered with paneling..the new window framed and stained..and the second window repainted..I STILL need to paint the trim in that room too and new carpet installed... Upstairs: Stuart's room is painted..I still need to paint his ceiling and his window will need trimed and stained and new carpet installed... Sondra's room- got the painting done plus ceiling too.. Got her chalkboard wall done too..I'm thinking it will need a 3rd coat..and her  window and chalkboard will need stained and trimmed..carpet needs installed also.. The bathroom has the most work to be done it in..they are replumbing everything and replacing everything..that is really our biggest hold up as of right now!... Please pray this moves faster..I'm ready to live there..

welp I have a lot to do!..I must get going! Until next time! 

Love, 

Me.. 

HelloSTranger,HouseNews,LearningTree,SCHOOL,HairStress

Hey How are you? Thank you for stopping by and reading my blog. My Name is Joie and I write about the story of my life..what moves me..pisses me off...all kinds of stuff.......(I'm re-introducing myself)...It feels like it has been that long!... I should go read my last post so I know what I left you guys with...take Five

Prayer Request!..Please pray for my Brother Rick and Sister In Law Kayla and their Babies..she is on bed rest in Columbus...Carrying Quads is a high risk pregnancy so they could use all the prayers you got! :)

okay okay!... last blog was filled with house news... welp... we have been working.....Let me rephrase that... we all have been working on it!.. Parents..friends...cousins aunts uncles... and somethings are changing!!!...First Change: my kitchen cabinets

Before: a salmon & Aqua 

Here are the cabinets primed to paint :) 

After: Cinnamon Sugar on frames and "Down Comforter" Beige/Cream for the doors

So this.. was a lot of work!?..... I thought ya..I'll redo the cabinets... that all entailed taking off all the doors..scrub/clean every surface...prime everything...we primed the inside of the cabinets and drawers just so we had a "fresh/clean" surface...Then we painted the frames... then the doors...then I got a idea from p interest to use chalk board paint on the inside of the top doors..which I did a few on the bottom..and now my after thought is I'm going to do all bottoms... we got all the doors back up..and now have to do touch ups on the cabinets...which I promise I'll get done this weekend..and will post photos...

So I took off the wallpaper too..it all came down very easily ..except the border above cabinets..still gotta do something with that

Jake in the meantime has been working on the bathroom with much help from his Dad...when we seen the condition of the bathroom I said straight up...Tub needs replace... toilet, and vanity and sink... it just did!.. I almost always take a bath..so do my kids.... there is no way..I was going to sit in a tub that left a house looking the way it did before the cleaning came in and cleaned up before we got it... So the whole bathroom is Gutted!!!!! so when you come over to see the house...the bathroom will be the finale room lol... 

The Windows... instead of going with a company to replace all our windows we are having our neighbor in Lafayette do it! Much cheaper!!!! this helps with the house budget.... :) I'm so excited for windows. I think it will do a world of difference. 

Tuesday Night we went to menards and did some shopping..we wanted to get some of our big expenses out of the way.. we bought: Tub & the sides that go on the wall..which I'm exited..b.c. the sides have two shelves...We bought a new sink and Vanity for bathroom :  

I went with white oh and we got that same mirror/medicine cabinet too :) 

We got a new Sink for the kitchen! 2 bowls and its a biscuit color...  which after pricing stuff out yesterday we are going to get some new counter tops too :)... talked about those kits for redoing them..but the type of counters we have..quality... it wouldn't be very cost effective... so I'm excited about that!... oh and a garbage disposal...one of those too... and all the fixtures that go with Sinks and tubs...that was pretty easy for me..I wasn't too picky there... As long as finish matched..I was good.....hmm..oh and a new Toilet....hmm..is that it?? ...i think so!... which the next purchases I"m most excited for are counters..and getting a quote for carpet for Living room, our bedroom, and upstairs..and stairs probably too! :)
Things are really shaping up!... I can't believe how fast this is going... once windows are in then comes the painting!... then... move in... wow~!!!! I'm so excited...I really am...dreams are coming true! 

I just can't believe all the support we are getting from friends and family. People asking how it is coming a long and feeling like they really care.. even my church family... which it doesn't surprise me..but it was so nice  to get a call saying there was a present at the church for me and to pick it up anytime or at church...(sadly I had to be called b.c. I had not been there due to fair and such) but summer usually gets me...but me and my cousin Tate stopped by there last Sunday...and I couldn't contain my  excitement... I can't remember the last time we/I had gotten a gift that I didn't know what it was...and boy was I surpised what it was!!!!: 

MY BELOVED KEURIG COFFEE MAKER! If you are a avid reader you guys know my love for this type of coffee maker...I am a religious coffee drinker...and have plotted how I was going to get my coffee maker... lol... but this is not what I was expected when I opened my gift that was signed "Your Church Family".... wow.. I pretty much showed Tatey how uncool I was b.c. this was like big news...like a high light of my year big.. lol :) which it is... but to a High schooler...a coffee maker? Ok? ... lol... but Thank you! This will be put to good use..and even Jake the Non coffee drinker will be able to use it with the raspberry ice tea we got..that his is favorite tea...I think he is just thankful he doesn't have to listen to me talk about how I really want one and how perfect the single cup one would be perfect... and how now that we have enough counter space "we" should think about buying one! lol...

Also just friends and family stopping and helping for a few hours..I didn't have to ask them..they showed up when they knew we were there and just started...I'm thankful... oh really thankful to my Mom and Mom In Law for watching the kids while I worked... its not that I can't work..but its hard to work when You are worrying about what you 2 year old is doing or where he is going!... Sondra not so much but Stu...he is Stu to begin with..but man oh man.. he is all boy and can really get himself in trouble... Also.. a friend of the family that has a good furnace that they no longer need...instead of putting in our one furnace that has been underwater and would do but not sure the longevity...we will have one that is reliable...so we don't have to worry if and when we will have to replace it...  I'm not writing all this to brag about good fortune..but really without everyone else...we wouldn't be able to do what we are doing..and I'm so thankful for everybody!  

Next Topic of Discussion: The Learning Tree (Sondra & Stu's Daycare) 

Wow... a lot of anxitety about them starting...but wow...I am so happy now... Sondra the first day was very timid and didn't want me to leave... She wasn't crying but she held on to my arm...I left her standing my a empty chair by her friend Jack from church...my last look of her lost little face...poor little thing new daycare and starting school all on the same day...  Stuart the first day didn't cry..I told him bye...and as I was walking out I hear: "Mommy???"... Second Day: Sondra no anxiety of me leaving her.... she was A OK... Stuart not so much. As I told him Bye he tried holding on and his teacher thankfully quickly picked him up and as I was walking out after dropping off Sondra was holding his blanket sitting on his teacher's lap... Now day 3 (today)... we are walking in...and approach his classroom... he cries... I don't know what else to do?...I know it is a adjustment..which there were days he would cry being dropped off to Aunt Mel & uncle Jonas house..he almost always wails when his Daddy leaves..even being left with me...So I know it will calm down... and eventually maybe he won't cry at all :) ... 

Stuart's teacher said his first day he cried off and on some..took a nap but mostly a cheerful day... the second day she said he did even better no off and on crying... so that is nice!..I like I get a piece of paper each day..telling me how he acted each day...and a personal note from his teacher... they almost always bring something home they made colored scribbled over...and seeing the calendar of events..they are always doing something...he is going to flourish and I suspect start talking more and more and BETTER... 

Lets See... after her first day.. she acted too cool.... I ask so how was school???... No fun she says! lol...I was a little indifferent about her responses....I almost think she felt indifferent or something... I asked if she sat by Jack on the Bus..and she said no I sat a lone... lol..aw...  my little loner... but yesterday when we were walking out of the learning tree she says : Mom someone actually sat with me on the bus... lol awww.. my heart melts...I ask who.."a Boy named TJ"... lol.. a boy???... she talked about how all the kids were laughing b.c. TJ was writing in her princess tablet she takes a long with her... and she had to tell them all "get a hold of yourself" b.c. of all the laughing... lol... so today when I dropped her off..I ask her so is TJ here??? as We look in the room  a little boy turns around a looks at Sondra and smiles and waves..Her reply to me.. that's him in the orange shirt....Sondra made her first friend all by herself... wow... its so funny though...I mean I shouldn't expect anything less from her..she is a tomboy....her friends will probably be boys... 

Also... You know those agenda books...ya I forgot to sign hers the first night lol..what a bad mom..I even looked at it to make sure there was nothing I had to do... lol.. so lastnight I remembered the whole signing thing...left a the teacher a note saying I'm still learning lol..and realized...Damn it ..I signed and wrote a note on Thursday not Wednesday lol.... dang... I have lots to learn... and I think once we move I won't feel so frazzled... I mean..it gets taxing working every night after you get off work..this week though I have been pretty lax... I have to abide by the kid's bedtimes especially since school starting.... 

a funny...the first day after Sondra's school..she is looking in the fridge..and I say hey what are you doing???... "Mom I'm packing my lunch tomorrow that stuff is disgusting" lol... get use to it kid..its school food! lol... for once I was already prepared and bought lunch containers for when she would want to pack her lunch. So I think we will look at the menu and decide day by day... she is all excited for chicken nuggets tomorrow... but honestly looking at the menu..its not the menu we had...every friday was school pizza..and usually chicken nuggets once a week too...I don't know what it looks like but they have "wheat pizza"..yuck...all too much for me...Feel bad for the kids...so to ensure a good mood I"m going to let her pack here and there.... 

Pinterest crazy!... Lastnight I got a little crazy and did some recipes from that addicting site! 

As follows: 

Not Sure of Name if have one..It had one line of potatoes, a row of chicken breasts, and supposed to have a row of green beans...and then a dry packet of Italian seasoning and a cup of melted butter ..out comes goodness :) http://pinterest.com/pin/32088216065884295/

 This.... It looked so easy...It was good...Sondra was too cracked up on the all seasoning..but I paid 1 something on the packet so I was going to use it all! lol... but it was good with or without the seasoning..b.c. I had to wipe off every piece of Sondra's...Stu like the chicken and potatoes..I wasn't able to make it with green beans b.c. my kids drove me crazy at Walmart and it slipped my mind to get any when they were clearly on my list...rrrrrr... but!.. anyways.. throw 2 or 3 ingredients with some seasoning and butter and cover and let it cook and you get a supper with sides...why not try?? lol... Jake's first rating was its good..but then this morning..he swears it made him feel sick... grr.. there isn't nothing I can cook without getting comments from the peanut gallery...rrrrrrrr...I tell him a lot.to thank God you have a wife that DOES cook! I don't ever blame a girl that says she don't have time to cook...or...never have had to cook...but to hear a wife say I hate to cook... makes my heart shrink a few sizes lol.... as you all know..I'm not a chef by any means...but man...there is never more pure satisfaction than sitting down to a meal you prepared with your hands... I think that is why I like canning so much..I get to see the process from the beginning...its just pureness.

Breakfast Burritos http://pinterest.com/pin/32088216064858655/ 

I hate to brag but one of these this morning was so excellent..>I was pretty proud of myself..2 minutes in the microwave a wha la....I'm betty freaking homemaker! :) ...I put in them Potatoes (leftover from supper, eggs, cheese, bacon, & sausage)..the possibilities are endless..Jake even liked it this morning and very filling!!!

Rollo Turtles  http://pinterest.com/pin/32088216065793808/ I used chopped pecans in stead of whole...much cheaper

I blame my mother for these... she loves turtle Sundays...so whenever I got to ice cream places if I'm unsure..I always go with a turtle sundae...well then I started on Turtle Cyclones/blasters/shloppie/avalance whatever!...and have made it a mission this summer to find the best one around (which I still say the delphos creamery but dairy barn is a close 2nd)...but so I have been craving a turtle blaster....and these little bites of goodness help deter it.... I hope they do...lol....

Sondra's Haircut! 

So like I have been saying a long about Sondra needing a haircut...Jake & Sondra finally relented...after a wake up call of MR Mom you will doing her hair every morning not me....they came to the light... My wonderfully expecting beautiful cousin Meg cut it...She loves it I love it...took me 2 minutes to comb it & put it half way up this morning- hair always grows...I'm glad she could let it go more easily than I did... 

 BEFORE

AFTER

GROWN UP! :) 

And I'll leave you with this! :) ...Yago I think enjoyed his cage getting bigger... I sometimes find him sleeping on his back just like this frequently>..He can't wait to move too.. more freedom..he usually stays a few night a week at ranch!

Hopefully Next week I'll show you the finished cabients and the progress of the bathroom! :) Untill next time 

BLISS

Much Better Mood than last update! :) I'm almost Blissful

Holy Crap its fair time!!! Jake & Sondra will be staying at fair all week and me & Stu will go home at night..so he can sleep in his own bed...and me too lol... I'd rather much have it that way....oh and to take care of the dog...

so... I AM SO HAPPY TO TELL YOU we closed on the house  last Tuesday. SO so happy... I'm glad to really start seeing ideas and getting stuff fixed. Last night  we met with a window company to quote us to replace windows... this Tuesday we will meet with 2 more.  I've already got ideas and colors for each room. Jake & I's bedroom: Brown & Turquoise/ Kitchen: Pumpkin Fall Bathroom:..Hmmmm/ Sondra's Bedroom: Purple & Beach Sparkle (extra paint from work from my cubby) /Stuart's Bedroom- On the fence still (Sports or Farm/Tractors) Living Room: Something Neutral... My most excited room...the Kitchen! I always thought it was nutty when I seen people have their whole kitchen decorated in Apples...but it dawned on me why!>..I love pumpkins lol... Forealz... lol... and even you look on my pinterest boards..I got all kinds of different pumpkin stuff...I love fall..and all the colors..the leaves...so..there we go..I get why people decorate their kitchens in Apples...I just have that same affection but towards pumpkins lol... :) ... I'm excited to find stuff here and there...and piece it together.. the only room I'm not sure on color is the living room.... I'll think though...I'm really excited about getting a china cabinet from a friend...I'm very elated to see how much support my family has... so many people have messaged me saying how happy they are or excited to see what we do..and offer help or furniture they were getting rid of and thought of us....I'm just thankful they are thinking of us!....I can't wait till we move..but one thing is... I'm a little clueless on how to move...I'm seriously thinking where is Lacey...she knows this stuff...I remember before or right after  I got married we went shopping to get my kitchen in order and fill my cabinets..I was a little bit flabbergasted or lost and she took control...we got back to the house.....and she rearranged my kitchen lol.... :).... surely though I'm a big girl..and I can learn to move and set up house by myself... just a very daunting task...I've packed 2 boxes and they are still sitting out...man I need to get some motivation...its just what do you start with first? lol...

Also another exciting thing!... I took Rick & Kayla's Maternity Pictures...all a long we have been taking progression photos...but we actually had pictures with Rick too... I think they turned out really cute...there were a few poses that I really wanted to try...and they turned out lovely...My all time favorite:

Love it! 

on Wednesday when I was printing off pictures of poses that I had to do..b.c. there are certain set of poses picture peeps always do or customers want and I somehow came across this one..and thought well that is different... I love it... Definitely a keeper.. which also.. my sister came along and she commented you really need to start a binder with all your photos... which...why yes that is a good Idear! ....I'm going to work on that too...

This next week will be so nice! I'm off work all week! :)... Its much needed time away..hopefully we enjoy the fair and get stuff done at the house! :).....So many great things ahead!

Once school starts and things get into a schedule..I want to take pictures for more people..so hopefully I can bank a little money and buy extra things..like my dream coffee maker: A keurig...I don't even care what kind it is..I just want one... b.c. it all would make sense for me...When I first thought about this house... the first thing popped into my mind... Coffee Dates...not with my husband..but my gals..sitting around enjoying coffee and gossiping(fact sharing)...First order of business once we get  moved in and settled... A 31 Party!..you let me know if you want invited! :) ... 

Well I must be going! :) I Shall Return :) 

Love, 

Me 

Closing...

As it seems...not closing on the house this week...dang I'm disappointed... I just want to start our future there... I want to get it livable... so I can get moved in...I can't wait to move...

So I'm asking! Please pray for all documents to get through and whatever is holding them up- Please pray everything goes through quickly...

Thank you
Love
Me

IndifferenceINsharing/Surprise3rdBaby/schoolnewbeginings/MyGirl

I can not tell you how many unpublished blogs I have started these last few weeks....many countless ones that begin with Why? What is wrong with me? Why wouldn't you trust me? Or God is this really for us? You are not going to present this and then let us fail... Can I do this..Can We? What am I doing? Am I really making a difference? Why can't she see me for who I am? all these thoughts that I don't know how to share..with really anyone..

as you are going to probably from this blog...I don't exactly have my happy face on... People piss me off in general..I don't always show it or you don't always here my commentary about it but. when people I love hurt me..pisses me off even more... I have these big dilemmas and games of what ifs..and talk extensively about it to Jake(which he just LOVES..hint hint sarcasm).. or my Mom or Jess...then talk to my best friends and ask for wisdom.. prayer... and then I get to a point where I'm just plain unchristian... I don't give a shit.. there are only a few things that can make me that way...and it feels like people have been pushing those precious buttons a few time here lately..I don't know what to say?... I'm not apologetic....Just maybe Pray for me and my sanity.

What is New??? Hmm...

Welll I'm not lying to you this post or nor was I trying to my last post..but We SHOULD be closing on our house this week! :) Makes me happy excited and ready! I wanna see what needs fixing and get it done and get to moving... Moving to this house will be so much better!

Our Yago

With all this moving we had been looking for a puppy... much to our dismay any pups we wanted was far too much... We want a pup I wanted a Australian shepherd Jake wanted a border Collie... and from all the breeders you are looking at least 500 for either breed....wow? SO then we expanded our serach on the county classifieds..which some how I got to Petfinder.com...We found this Border Collie/Aussie Shep Mix...it was a female and looked just like a Collie..We called and she already had a few applications...  She sugguested we come and see what puppies are left and which ones have less applications...so I found all the puppies on line...and wrote down a few of the names I liked...there were 7 in the litter...when we got to the shelter last saturday..the one we had chance of getting..Yago!...which we was my first pick...lol.... which after filling out the application and putting references lol..I know right... very intruding...but for the price...I was willing to do it..and this place wasn't as bad as some places..some places required home visits lol... bahahahahaha.... for a freaking dog!!! lol..I'm all about making sure they are okay people..but a home visit??? wow...anyways...the following week on Wednesday we got news we were approved!!!! How great!...so that night we planned on to go get him... well on the way there we decided if we were going to change his name we had to figure it out now.... Jake wanted Shadow and Sondra wanted Spot...how original..they are so much a like.. its scary...they wouldn't go for any of my names...which at one point Sondra says: "Mom- none of your ideas are making sense to me"..with Jake's reply"Sondra I think that all the time"...lol..so we all agreed just to leave his name.. Yago!...lol..Its up to debate how to pronounce it..but I say "Yay-go"...where Sondra says "Yey GO"...lol... my family has jokes he is a liberal dog since he comes from a Privately Owned Shelter in Columbus... lol... I've quickly realized I've missed having a dog... I talk about him constantly and the funny things he has done... I find myself while I"m outside taking pictures..>I snap of few of him lol..how sad...I'm that crazy Dog Lady... He is so cute... and seriously...minds better than my kids..and has been a breeze to potty train..he isn't fully trained but very minimal mistakes..and rather its been my fault! .... so who knows... I've come to the realization...this is my 3rd child for now :) and I'm a little surprised how much I like him


School is fast approaching...Sondra first full day is September 4th..but the prior week there are 2 days that we have to go there...with School starting a very significant change will be happening... The kids will be going to the Learning Tree Daycare... wow.. it frightens me but in a good way...I'm glad there are a whole bunch of Allen east people that work there so its not like I"m leaving Stu or Sondra with Strangers...it will be just so nice... Sondra will be in the latch key program where they take her to and from School and any delays cancellations she is able to stay there... Stuart will be with a whole bunch of kids which I suspect he may talk more... I'm excited to hear what he is doing who he is making friends with..and the trouble he is making... :)... Even though we will be paying more than what we do now..it will be worth it..I drop them off in morning pick them up after work...perfect location... a business relationship....  Its something Jake & I have been talking about for some time...what started it all was... by chance when I was testifying for a good friend in a custody hearing started talking to one of the directors(she was there to testify for her too) and she was just telling me a little about the place.. and how much it would be..what that included...and just everything..and I thought man I can do that...... so..I'm so excited....scared nervous...but hey...if I find I'm not comfortable with this place...I can find a alternative... Finding childcare is a hard thing...so much factors into it...I hate that someone else spends 8 plus hours a day with my kid- when I am at work..but you know what... I want more... and in order to get the things Jake & I want for our life and family..I"m going to have to work... and sometimes..as little time I have with them..I think that is why I take pictures and smile at the small things they do... I may kid and joke about how much trouble or a bother they are..but I do cherish them and their smiles and the joy they have brought to me and Jake... sometimes we can be in the shittest moods toward each other..but one of the kids just does something or Sondra says something and we just look at each other with a big ole smile and I think to myself...yup .. that's our love right there...

So- with the house was supposed to be closing this week....of all weeks.. Wagon Train Week...we decided to stay home... one to help not spend money..and 2 hopefully we would be closing...well- Sondra talks about Wagon Train year round..so I asked my parents if she could come for the week with them and they said of course...my plans were to send her and see her when she came back...with the house not closing on Wednesday... I am jumping ship and riding with my sister to pick Colt on "funday".... where they stay in camp and plan games and have a catered meal... I just couldn't resist...I've missed that little snot....Its been so funny seeing Stu entertain himself..I put him to bed last night and he puts his hands up and goes "SIS? SIS?" looking over to her bed....aww...he misses her..how cute...I miss her too... especially when Yago wants to potty...lol...

well I must be going!!! Talk to you later!~
Love- ME

HouseNews,Pictures,KnowMe, Mushiness sorry!

What am I doing??? Woe... I have so much going on..and not a whole lot I can actually share...gosh..many weightly issues...
Here is what I can share-

WE GOT THE HOUSE! we will probably be closing next week and if not then no later than the 26th. As we finalized our loan to on Monday- Jake tells me he is tingling... hhmm... his nerves.... more debt... to me this is good debt though which he knows that. To be able to purchase 2 acres with a well and septic already dug...is great... granted we don't know how well the plumping is...or the well.. But I mean people lived there just a few months ago... if that is any indication of things atleast working then I can or will chance it. Paying 17,900 for the property ...its a chance I'm willing to take. Hopefully- all this pays off in the end... but one thing I surely know is... I have prayed long and hard for this opportunity. Like a year ago when this wasn't even in our sites...I was praying asking to let us be ready to get out of the current house so I don't have to worry about not being able to expand our family when we wanted.>I don't want to have to wait on our housing situation..so.. this wasn't no lucky thing...like it just fell in our laps... I remember one Sunday we seen the house up for sheriff Sale...I thought oh my gosh! This is would amazing... My hopes were let down when Jake says 9 out 10 times the bank will buy the house. I said you are at least going to go right? No, Why would I go when we don't have the funds to big right now. Lets just have the bank buy it and go through the Realtor. (I was pretty upset/pissed/disappointed)... Well all that happened. Jake started calling seeing who had the house what Realtor he would need to contact. I do give him props..he did stay on top of it when I didn't beleive he was. And b.c. we were the first ones to contact the Realtor she wanted to give us first chance to bid and wanted to work with us to get this property. Its been so fun and amazing knowing that we could and should be living in a new home by school time! That is our goal... Some specific prayer request though. Pray that when we turn on the electric that the plumbing and everything works and no major fixes! Thank you!

My Very 1st Box Packed!

With this new move and talks of expanding the family or really potential now.... I don't see it till Stu is potty trained or Stuart is 3 of starting on the next one..but feelings of adoption have came up again. Before we were married we had talked about adoption. I myself have always seen me adopting at least once! I'm not sure if it is because my family has done foster care or having a adoptive brother..I just don't know..but its a dream of mine... I really would like to do it in the middle of my children...not adopt our last one b.c. I don't know the child to not have the memories of becoming a "big" sister/brother...or the children not having memories growing up ya know.. Like my brother he was much older when he was adopted...I'd like for them all to have memories growing up as children. Well.. I started looking into again....and just right now- its not plausible. I'm open to adopt from anywhere- but I'm thinking... which not this baby but our 4th baby will be adopted. And my favorite idea is to do a snowflake adoption... Which is the result of couple that went through invitro and had left over fertilized eggs. The parents do not want to destroy them because they are preborn babies but do not want any more kids. So they adopt them out.  SO you adopt a embryo/s and you have a doc implant them and you carry the baby/babies to term. How freaking neat is that??? Its not as expensive as you think either!  http://www.nightlight.org/snowflake-embryo-adoption/  check it out! SO I am hoping that is the adoption route we do take.. 

Here is another thing that struck me this week... I consider being call opinionated as a insult.. the person didn't mean to insult me or didn't mean it that way....but why is it any strong woman that knows what she believes or isn't afraid to tell you show she feels about something is considered "opinionated" .If you thinka bout it every person whether boy or girl has a opinion- so why does the girl get the bad rap.....when I think of  that saying of oh she is a pretty opinionated woman... I think of a big old loud bitch that shoves her views down people throats...that doesn't know when to shut up.. lol....that isn't me right? ... ohhh.. whatever..I know who I am and what I am... 

This is Syd..we probably took a million pictures there was maybe  6 good ones..oh the trying times we will have taking her pictures I can already tell! lol 

This Monday I'm taking pictures of my friend's baby boy Aiden! :)...Little nervous lol..why??? ... IDK...I know she will be understanding and she knows I'm not a professional!... I just need to think about exactly what I want and location location location! lol..I love this opportunity she is giving me!stay tuned this week..also! I could have had a 100th b day party to take pictures at on Saturday but i'm already busy..wish I could have done that too!... I'm just happy or makes me feel good people are thinking of me and asking!

making life decisions here lately makes me sentimental..like reminds me of how much me and Jake have changed and evolved..and how long we have been together.... He is surely not the same boy I met at wrestling districts however many years ago..but boy did we fall hard and fast...exihibt A.: click on it and read it...its almost too mushy to share but I don't even care..who really reads this anyways... but note the date OCT 2004 we met at the earliest end of FEB/first week of March 2004..how many months later I"m writing this on the back of my picture and putting it in a frame to give to him...... (which I did this alot gave him pictures and wrote notes on them to see if he would find it) ...

found while packing first box

man what are my plans for tonight???.. hmm... well tonight is canning pickles lol..first time! I'm excited!~.... Saturday finishing up canning pickles..then off to my cousin's wedding at the AE community center!..which- it will be  a kid free night..My MIL & FIL are taking the kids in the morning! ..oh what a lovely night! :) ... welp!..I gotta get going!... Have a wonderful night..and keep me and my family in your prayers!..

Until next time.. Love you 

Love,
Me :)

Sick to my Tummy (No I'm not w/child) lol

I feel like I could just about puke right now! So... last Monday the house/property went on the market!..The Realtor met us there in the afternoon and we walked through the house.... My first reaction was put my nose up I can't live in there...but I had to stop myself.....its very livable... granted..we tear out the carpet and replace it with something else...the upstairs is alright...the kitchen floor looks somewhat new...the bathroom needs some major TLC...but on a bright note...I love the color of the bathroom lol :)..its like Aqua!... this house is very livable..and after awhile then we can really do some remodeling and add on. So... yesterday was the first chance we were able to put a offer in..and we did... our Realtor says that we are the first ones. So the bank will either accept or deny our offer. We offered what the house was listed at. Why wouldn't they accept it? Well she said we should know last night or today sometime...man this is a long wait!... I've been dying..my tummy uneasy...this is my "forever" home...my goodness..I'm carrying my future someday 3rd child's crib in the back of my rondevous b.c. I don't want to unload it one place and then to the next and then to the new house... I snapped the crib up after seeing a church friend wanting to get rid of it on facebook! My monsters Stuart & Sondra broke our first one. Anyways..Jake is supposed to call me as soon as the Realtor calls him with any news...I'm dying though... I really want this property. And shockingly I want to live in the house that when I was little I would call our neighbors' place "the Slimely Slones"...No I am not proud..but if you have ever been to my parents you would understand and not think so ill of me like you are now..   anyways.. as much as me and Jake have talked about this lately...we are excited..excited for the adventure of finally feeling like we can settle down...at our house now..its our home..but we always have in the back of our mind... we are not staying here...might as well not paint this or invest too much in it either..so finally having a place we plan on staying at makes me happy... I love the location...its in front of my parents property which means.. when the kids are nasty..I'll say..hey..why don't you go check on your sheep/pony/pigs..w/e/... or I thought I heard your grandparents calling your name! Go see what they want... lol...SSOOOO... please keep us in your prayers concerning this!

The Aftermath of Stu's first time playing outside at our HOPEFULLY new place :) 

I've got a slow weekend...I am not complaining!....I'll update again this weekend I imagine! :)

Love you