To you
i have come to the acknowledgement we have grown apart... we are so different...absolutely totally two different paths...and beliefs.. How did this happen? We were best friends...we could not see each other for months or talk..and when we were together...its like we never skipped a beat...what the hell?...how did this happen..I haven't seen you in years... I am a mother..you haven't met my not only my first nor second...apparently we weren't that good of friends..... I always knew you would do big things...you know I did always tell you that... when you said you wanted to do one thing..I encouraged you..and when it changed I still encouraged you... remember that dreadful weekend..you felt so sorry for yourself....wasn't it I who helped you out...and wait a second..encouraged you? i still have that little book you wrote in..always did support you..reach out to you..and now for the past few months..I'm sorry to say...I have given up..if you really wants to know how I was doing or how my kids are...lets face it..you'd email me back...I'm not wanting anything..just wondering out loud.....I guess that is what happens.. people come in your life and out of your life for reasons...they teach you what you need to learn and then unbelievably they leave your circle...and if you do happen to read this...you know who you are... i'm not really mad at all..I just am kind of surprised..I have no intentions to make it right. i have been thinking about you lately...
love- me
forget the above ever happened...just needed to get it out...and be done...
the sleep over went great....Sondra got irritable with all the sharing...but she managed and now whenever she thinks of any of her friends her comment will be: "mommy we should have so an so come over and stay sometime"...its quite funny... and cute...
So Sondra received some money in a card...and like any bad Mommy..instead of saving it...I give her the choice of spending it...so it was 20 bucks...we were going to be in town and so I took it along...I asked her what she wanted to spend it on..and of course first thing..Baby!...but we have a baby ban at our house right now...so I told her she could get baby stuff..but no babies..and then last week..there was one of those Vanity fisher price things sitting along side the road for free in Lafayette and I picked it up for her..she was so happy...and so she decided she needed make up...so she ended up coming home with 2 sets of bottles for her kids..(my grand children)..by the way she tried feeding Stuart with one to be a meanie...and also a big Barbie make up set... well we put it on when we got home... took a bath and sent her to her to bed...well I told her I would hold her make up but she insisted on keeping it on her Vanity...so with great debate...I said OK but if you put this make up on w/out anybody like Mommy/Daddy/Amanda or whoever....I will throw it away..and she just kept looking at me shaking her head yes reassuring me..she understood....well when Jake got home that night...she must not have reassured me enough..b.c. when he went in there to tell her goodnight I told him to try and sneak it out..well he told her her goodnights...and told her he was going to take the make up b.c. he didn't want her to be tempted and play with it w/out grownups and then it would have to be thrown away....and she agreed and told him she did almost play with it and still wants too... well he came out and put it up...and we chuckled to her response and how she agreed and stuff...the next morning... I moved her make up b.c. It was on top of Stu's formula can and I look down...and that little witch did play with it...all the lip gloss was gone.... can you beleive her... I should have checked it when he brought it out... I can't beleive her... she is such a sly fox... what shall I ever do??
Stuart...my favorite child lately...is lovely as ever...he is such a beautiful boy.. he could be a model..he really could...Sondra was a pretty baby...but not like Stuart...is a mother allowed to say that?? Sondra is a beautiful girl ... Stuart..is so much different...he sometimes has Sondra face's...but he is much different...many people that have seen us Reffitt kids grow up...says he has them eyes we all have...he looks more like my side.... which makes me smile b.c. if you know me you have certainly heard me say I'm having one till I get one that looks like me... lol.. is that too much to ask for...I carry the baby for nine months inside me and then carry the kids for lets see Sondra is 3...so 3 years and counting...I'd expect them to resemble me some! lol.. either way...he is growing leaps and bounds he has this little natural fohawk which Jake gets mad when I make it stick up..but i love it..you better beleive it..my Son will have a Mohawk. I'm just as protective over him as Sondra..which I wondered if I would be. I love taking care of him. Sondra growing and showing her personality..I knew from the beginning she really is going to be something... what I have got from Stuart... he is going to be a happy person...who never stops moving. Like Sondra..he will want to be at the center of attention..which is completely opposite as their parents.
also a new feat...Sondra feels like she can just pick Stuart up and walk around with him...it makes me come unglued and I past this smile on my face and calming say..Ok Sondra thank you but lets put him down...b.c. I know she thinks she is being helpful...but I still got to explain to her that she could hurt her brother...
well I have blabbed for far too long... hope it was entertaining...and all..
Later
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