Coming clean is never an easy thing to do. But I have come to realization that life isn't always pretty. In order to have a bright future for my little futures & me and my husband I need to clean up my act and quit trying to do it on my own. I don't know why I didn't do this earlier because I think it is for the best... this is just the beginning of my journey that I'm starting...but get ready for a new me...
My 4 days from work was much needed but little sleep was granted. Stuart has been waking up at night because he is so congested and coughing. He doesn't have a fever but has been very irritable.. Last night was the worst. He probably slept one block of 4 hours...beyond that it was up down up down... I'm taking him to the doctor today at 3 because I cannot handle it no more! I think I am going crazy... my best guess is that he has a ear infection. I could and will be wrong. So keep him in your prayers...
on thanks giving me and Jake got to talk to my Grandpa Reffitt and he told us stories about my Dad and some were quite funny. I love listening to his stories and his ways..I feel like I need to make a big effort and actually visit him more and not just on holidays...just because I wasn't close to my Grandma Reffitt...I shouldn't hold it against him...he actually hinted at wanting more company... (thats a big deal for Grandpa)...
My daughter had another bad word moment...I cringe every time a song comes on the radio and now I'm convinced that We can not listen to it no longer with her in the car...it has to be strictly her songs... you know that song that goes do you know any johnny cash..and the band starts to play and blah blah Hell ya play that song... Well as my daughter was at her Grandma & Grandpa Reffitt s sitting in a window playing with a kids nativity scene set I hear her on repeat...blah blah HELL YA play that song!..Hell ya play that song.over and over.. we heard that song in the car maybe a few days earlier... why in the heck did that hook have to stick in her head... I don't know what to do except not listen to the radio... we continue to remind her what are OK words and what are ugly bad words that would warrant a mouth full of soap... I can't fault her when she doesn't know that its bad like mentioned above... i am the one who let her hear that song.. I know that I will never be able to keep her from not hearing those words so I understand she will try to say them but my only job is to show her it is wrong and SHE will not say them even if she hears someone she knows say them....Pray for us... I still have yet to wash her mouth out with Soap...but the day is coming...
What I have been most thankful for this year is my Husband. He has always loved me or so appears... he has not left...but has stuck by my side... he will be my new years resolution to keep him happy...and show him everyday different ways of how much I appreciate and love him...I'm amazed how much love changes us.
Keep me in your prayers, my Son to get better..My daughter to mind her mother and her mouth...and my husband. Also My Grandpa Lawrence isn't feeling good...he has had a rough time lately..and needs extra prayer..
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