Take away my mother licence b4 its revoked

DISCLAIMER: THIS IS MY WEAK MOMENT- I DON'T NEED SOMEONE TELLING ME I SHOULD BE THANKFUL I HAVE CHILDREN OR ANY OF THAT- TRUST ME I AM SO THANKFUL TO BE ABLE TO BE THEIR MOTHER I JUST AM SHARING A WEAK MOMENT I'M THINKING/GUESSING EVERY WORKING BUSY MOTHER HAS HAD.

so people just days after I said I try and live the best I can and I take it day by day..I had a total melt down moment...I laugh now..but man was I upset... So as many hay makes know its been hay making season...so for Jake & my brother they have been busy...all last week Jake did not get home till after 11pm except for Wednesday night he got home 20 till 10. That means= I'm with our kiddos. Thursday morning he took our kids to their Aunt Mel's for the day then he went to work for a little while- and then left with his boss and some salesmen to go to a reds game to sit in the Diamond Seats(another story in itself)...and he would return home sometime Friday afternoon but had more hay duties to do after work..so another night with my wonderful angels lol :). so- Thursday at about 3pm..it just all came down on me...I had father Son banquet looming down on me- tons of running I needed to do..and I hadn't heard from Jake all day..and he calls me on his way home and I ask him  a few things...and when I got off the phone... lol..wait for it....I cried because i had to go pick my kids up and not have Jake there... I just..man...I was just upset...we hadn't seen him all week really.. the kids were really missing him...especially Stu.. He cries almost every morning when he sees his Dad leave to go to work... and Friday..just felt like they don't want to see me..they want their Daddy! They have a wonderful Daddy that they love to be around..he is fun..silly...adventurous...To Sondra Daddy does the fun stuff like helps her ride her pony plays with the sheep..all the farm stuff..while Mommy is usually watching her brother... anyways..you get it...I'm the constant boring one..Daddy is the shiny object that is like a vacation to them..

So then that night...I get the kids in bed after much drama with a biting incident that left a mark on my poor Stuart. I get a bath started... I lay back and I immediately cry because I realize what horrible mother I am to cry because I had to pick my children up. What mother does that? ...  that is all I got... I do want to add...My husband totally deserved to go on a little "manacation" but like I told him..I was just a bit jealous and had a very weak moment

I am very much stress free today with father Son banquet over but just wanted to share this funny/sad story with you real quick...stay tuned :)

My Lovelys