Oh What a Long Weekend...
The shopping trip was great..I got some really cute things for Sondra...both kids got build a bears... Stuart a soft puppy... and Sondra a deer from that Rudolph cartoon..her name is Clarice. I can already see it now...Sondra will be setting Clarice around places and pretend to hunt her...the lady that made her asked if she was supposed to be soft or stuffed firm and I said well probably firm b.c she will be hunted by my 3 yr old daughter... lol...its going to be funny..my goal for the shopping trip was to find a new stroller for Sondra's babies..she really wanted one of those mini Graco strollers..the real one where the car seat hooks into like at Kari's... but I couldn't find it and on E bay and those places it was way too expensive..they must not make them no more...anyways..it was a big dilemma...she plays with her umbrella ones but she says she wants a "real" one..hmm... I finally settled for one I found at Target... its a pram one...decent on the price and looks "sturdy"... hopefully... I was able to get Sondra done..and most of my people done..It was such a fun time...my Sister and Sister in Laws are always a great time...and a new addition to the trip was my brother's girlfriend..which I loved..it was a great way of getting to know her :)... when my Mom said we were picking her up at her Dorm I thought this girl is insane..who would want to go shopping w/your boyfriends Sisters, and in laws, and his mother....no pressure or anything lol..---my favorite purchases from the trip would have to be the kid's hats...Stuart got a Mohawk hat..and Sondra got a Donkey hat! :) Both are too precious.>!
Saturday Morning..i woke up late..which I was mad at myself for b.c. I had Candy making... I got the kids their baths and dressed and then up to the church..I had to keep the kids contained while I helped make over 100 pounds of candy...fun :)..to my surprise...when I showed up at the church 15mins. late I find My Aunt Barb and Aunt Deb and My Mom there to make candy...lol.. I had moment of doubt of are we going to get this done...and then instantly I started texting people...my sis in law said she would be up there after she got home from town and my Aunt Denise was working but said she would be up too... and thats it... no one else... as we put in long hours..I thought to myself if everyone just came up for a few hours it wouldn't take so long...and what not..and then I thought maybe we shouldn't do this next year or if we do..people will sign up to be there or maybe groups will be in charge of the different candies b.c. its not fair or right that 6 people put in all the work..its disappointing that people just assume the candy will just make itself
While we were at the church my MIL came over from JR Wrestling meet to pick Sondra up and Sondra wasn't having it...i didn't think it would bother her to leave me but it did... Friday night she came and slept w/me and all day Saturday and Sunday..she was close by my side...so my MIL stayed for a little while and kept the kids entertained..and while she was there Sondra was playing with a toy and she looks up and was like "What the Hell is that??"... I snapped my head and pulled her to the bathroom and got some Vanilla...I put it into her mouth she spit it out..I didn't it again and made her drink it...she bauled...heh..I told her you don't say that..and asked where you said that..and she seriously says..Momma..You say that....I was about to commit murder in the house of God!!!..lol.. it just makes me so mad!...Not that I have never cussed or don't cuss...but I certainly do not do it in front of her...or at her or around her..I know she picks it up..ever since Oct..I don't even say Piss...we don't listen to the radio...we really try to keep her away from regular Tv...I just want to scream...and those funny questions of "where did she hear that Joie & Jake"...really we don't hardly ever talk like that...around her to boot!...so I think I may be sticking with Vanilla..she really didn't like that...i just thought...thanks Sondra use "what the hell is that" so naturally in front of My Mom and Jake's Mom...great!.. and then accuse me of saying it!...and people who think Vanilla would be sweet its not...it smells really sweet but actually is very bitter to taste!
Sunday she behaved so badly!...all day she was very moody..and ready to spar... she was ticked at the world. She was probably spanked multiple times..she even peed her pants..well really didn't get to the potty in time and I put a diaper on her and she tells me to get it off and that her butt was too big for the diaper.... on the way home from my parents she told us her old parents didn't spank her and she liked them better. We said we are her only parents and she says she wants to go live with her old parents...lol...my is my Angel...what can I say...people tell me that it only gets worse...lol.. great...
I know God would never give me something I can't handle..but sometimes I wonder out loud to God and ask why he trusts me so much with this little girl with such a big personality...and although Sondra makes me questions myself as a mother...I know being a Mom isn't supposed to be easy....if it was..everyone would be a great mother...
another thing that has been happening is Sondra has been having Night Terrors..not nightmares... She don't even wake up but she just screams....I can't get her woke up and all I think about is Nightmare on Elm St (thats my most scary movie to me) ...and when she talks it doesn't make sense. It makes me sick...I just pick her up and take her to my bed..and she doesn't sleep well for the rest of the night...she'll sit there and just moan or whimper...or the worst of all..she grinds her teeth..I absolutely don't know what to do...everyone says you can't do anything...but lord...I don't sleep when she has them..and to hear her..it breaks my heart...the only thing I have found out about them online...is it may be caused from not getting enough sleep... or a break in a routine...(me leaving for 2 days)..but she has had them before my trip also...
Also.. I talked about Sondra the whole time Stuart has been a little Angel...He is my Mellow Baby Chill.. he is energetic but mellow if that makes sense..when I walked into the door friday night he was in his vibrating chair and he sees me...gives me a big smile and starts moving and bouncing for me to pick him up out of his seat...that melted my heart!...I love it when he just smiles at me..I know he loves me:)...
So there you have it. this is me :)
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