Thank you Jesus it is Friday... I don't think I could do another day at work... this whole week I have been waking up at 7am...I leave my house at 730...so with all the time to get ready..you can imagine how nice I look and put together I look...I need to sleep in one of these days..but I'm afraid..it won't be happening this weekend...we are going to the basketball game tonight! I like watching ball! Saturday.. I am going to a Jr. High Tourney..hopefully its not too early...but Sunday I'll get to somewhat sleep in...till 8am at least..b.c. then we have church :)
So Stuart has moved one step out of "infantness" after knowing he weighs 20 pounds.. we went to Walmart last night and bought him a convertible car seat :s... very mixed emotions...my back loved it this morning..but he is getting so big and his baby days are going by fast like Sondra's. I can still hear Sondra calling out "mombey"..the girl could say dozens of words but couldn't say Mommy..it was so funny.. but when I had Stuart..I just looked at him and wondered how I could love another child as much as I loved my first. I couldn't wrap my head around it. but now.. I absolutely understand it and i just have this love for Stuart its not even funny.
i love my kids in different ways. I love Sondra for her free bird spirit. She is a Miss. Independent and I have no fears for her future. She will take care of herself..and probably of me to :). I truly grew up when I had her...my thoughts were..from this day forward..I truly would never be alone ever again..when Stuart was born..I was just amazed. My relationship with Jesus grew immensely when we were trying to have another baby. It wasn't happening just like that like how it was with Sondra..and I questioned.. I read a lot if scripture about children..I prayed and wrote a lot during that tough time..so when he was born...after reading about how precious life is..how much it means to God..how much thought he puts into you even before you are born..it just made me smile to see my blessing....that is much of a lot of reasons why I am so strongly against Abortion. and NO I don't beleive someone should even have a choice either even if I would NEVER chose that option!...and another note..its absolutely amazing that I have 2 healthy kids...b.c. to read about everything that could go wrong during pregnancy..you would be amazed too. You can't say God doesn't have a hand in it.
my only concerns for my Stuart are that I don't the same special things I did with Sondra with him. I'm afraid he won't think I fawned over him enough or took enough pictures of him either..so I always do... I myself love seeing old pictures of me when I was little. I like seeing my history and will like telling my kids and grandkids those stories and having pictures to explain... so I'm trying to capture as much as possible.. every year for all my kid's birthdays I write them a letter... one when I was pregnant and one for each year...I put them in their own folder..and someday..when they are much older.. like maybe for Graduation or something... I'll let them read their love letters from me...and trust me..this is something I started..and will do with every single one of my kids... its special....
also good and bad news about the Garmin...its everything and more...there just isn't a sexy voice...I'm kind of sad...there is a spooky voice and a elf voice I down loaded...but what makes all of it worth switching from TomTom to Garmin...I got a Tri Paint Horse for my "car" on the map..those are my favorites...so its all good in my car world..
I must be going!... see ya soon!
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