Man- Kids can make you so weak..and all the little things that they do just make you so immensely happy. I can be such a blubbering fool about something so small..they have softened me and made me feel more vulnerable then than anybody ever has...at times I hate this trait...like when Sondra fell and cut her eyebrow and we went to the ER...I was so upset I could barely talk to Jake on phone..we went to ER and I was ok..my eyes were red from crying but I was "dried" up...lol..but the nurse made some silly comment about me being more upset than Sondra actually being hurt..and I just cried once more..lol..but what I like is that I'm able to be open and show both the kids true love and when I see that love come back to me...It is truly amazing...Kids are a Blessed Gift
this July we will be married 5 years...wow 5 years... I know that not very long..but its our first "big one"... one of my favorites told me that the first 5 years is the hardest..and he went on to tell me some things about marriage- although he did not necessarily believe I should have been getting married young..he must of been giving me everything that he thought might help Me and Jake get through life and those hard first 5 years... marriage and children have suited me just well... these first few years have flown by...probably though b.c. we have had 2 kids to keep us busy..and wrestling and hay making... and horses and life in general.
today is D day...I'm hoping the whole light as a feather thought will work when I get on that scale today..lol..no?...I didn't think so either..but I can always try.. I just had my "last supper" lunch..lol.. oh well.. i'll get through this and I am anxious to begin this journey...I know it won't be a short or easy one..but I am excited to begin and make progress and be on a program with structure...I wonder what you do in a meeting...I wonder a lot of things and tonight..I'll find out... I'll introduce myself..Hello My name is Jonelle and I'm Fat Girl... lol..ok so I won't do that.. but sometimes humor helps...more than likely I'll need to go grocery shopping tonight or tomorrow night to get good choices to eat...hmm..wish me luck for tonight.. and if anybody is in WW and have some good recipes....message me them please!..on Facebook or jakejoieclum@hotmail.com...thank you
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