So I've been a bad girl and have not wrote all week...I don't know why... I've been kind of busy at work..I feel like the day flies...like I have no motivation sometimes to get stuff done..but I don't know what I done in that time..lol...I don't know.. I just use to have a lot of free time at work..and at work now...it doesn't feel like that...
Today my cousin Megpie trimmed my hair and gave me bangs...and I swear it looks 100 times better...I needed something different b.c. if I were left alone to do nothing I would have gone to town and had it chopped off which would go against everything I've promised myself...When we were trying to have another baby I told myself I was not going to cut my length off till my 2nd baby's 1st birthday...so seeing Stuart is one 3 months I still got a ways to go..and when it does come time...I'm not sure I'll be ready too..long hair kind of becomes sentimental...if your female and reading this you totally understand...males ..I don't know..
So my Lace has moved to IL and left me behind...lol...husband and free schooling...I would leave anybody behind..b.c. paying school loans blow...anyways..we said we would do skype and I've finally downloaded it... I'm not sure exactly how to use it..but I got it downloaded and found her and nick on it...so its set up and I can see that familiar face anytime I want...i like to everything now and then just text her hi friend..and start talking and we will text half the day just talking...
The baby shower was a hit..and wonderful..cake lady cake and cookies...heaven..it was worth all the work and money to have that cake!... lol...I made a diaper baby for her gift...it was funny...I met some new friends..which is awesome..and ruffled some feathers...that I didn't mind pissin' off but it was certainly not meant to.....oh well :) life is way to short to sweat the small stuff that will be meaningless in years 2 come...try me...
also my little nephew Jude tried coming a month early last night..but good thing Mel got to the doctor and have them give her a shot to stop the contractions...can't wait for that baby to come...as much as I love having my babies..I love spoiling little kids and sending them on their way! :)....can not wait to see that beautiful little boy..keep him and his parents in your prayers...
much love you'll here from me probably on Friday...
Wednesday, September 29, 2010
Thursday, September 23, 2010
I could listen to her Talk to God forever and ever..
This day couldn't come quick enough...I am so ready for the weekend!... I have a busy weekend but I'd rather do that and be with my kids then at work! ;)...
Stuart has started sleeping in his crib this week and I'll be honest..I'm a little sad about this because he outgrew his bassinet! Every night has been good. I was worried last night because Sondra wasn't asleep and I had to threaten her life but I didn't hear a peep out of her after I put him in there.
This Sunday we are having Stuart dedicated in church. This is such a important thing to do in my mind. When we had Sondra dedicated it meant a lot me. Changed me a lot. I already had a relationship with God but after I promised him that I would raise my little girl in church it kind of light me on fire for him. Sometimes I feel like my flame might get dim but somehow he puts me in my place and I get back on track. Like last night I had the baby monitor on in Sondra's room and I was listening to her talk and try to cheer. Then all of a sudden she is singing a mish mosh of Sunday School songs lines from this song to another song..and then she started praying. And every Sunday they sing into my heart and then end it with a prayer. so her singing and then praying at the end I know where she got it. Which, makes me happy!
The kids going to Sunday school is such a important rite of passage for them. It gives me the building blocks they need someday to recognize what is God and what isn't. When they have those times of being lost and not knowing where they are going- they will have this tug at their heart that I had and I could recognize it was God.. I want that for them...I'm a firm believer in Proverbs 22:6 - Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it.
This weekend is Melissa's Baby shower which is going to be fun!...This is the first "shower" my Sister and Sister in law Kayla has done together..we are pretty good planners thus far and Saturday we will finish everything up...and to top it off..we got "cake lady" cake..which I am supper excited!...(and this is why I am fat b.c. with the sound of "cake Lady" cake excites me")
WARNING!!!WARNING!!!
ANY IF YOUR A MAN OR DON'T WANT TO READ ABOUT GOING TO A GYNO DOC- I ADVISE YOU TO STOP READING NOW~
I gotta get going b.c. I have my Annual Women's Doctor's Appt..which I hate...but funny story...I swore it was Monday..I got this new planner and all a few weeks ago and yet I didn't write it down...i have had this Appt for a while now since my 6 week check up in July...but I leave work early Monday..get there..sign in.. and I'm sitting there...ready to give her my card b.c. I have different insurance..and then I have a balance I want to pay...and...thats when she says.."Mrs. Clum" (which I'm still not use to hearing"..and I say oh ya me... I go up to the window..and she looks at me and smiles and says "You know your not supposed to be here till Thursday right???"...and I smile and I ask if there is any way I could get fit in..b.c I'm mortified to go back to work ...lol.. and she says "no..Medina isn't in today"..and I look at her and say "Its a pap".. and then thinking to myself "is it that hard to do that another doc can't do it or one of your docs in training!!!" lol..and then say "is there anyway one of the other doctors could do it".. but of course not... so I gotta be leaving in a little bit... so I guess I was just so over zealous to go get that done Monday...its was bad I forgot to shave my legs that Sunday night and I woke up Monday in a hurry made Jake get the kids ready while I shaved my legs...b.c. I can not be that lady that has crazy hairy legs to go to her Lady doctor!... i just can't.. its a yearly thing..you would think one day out of the year I could be on top of it..but nope! But one encouraging note.. I shave my legs last night so I was on top of it today!
Much Love
Stuart has started sleeping in his crib this week and I'll be honest..I'm a little sad about this because he outgrew his bassinet! Every night has been good. I was worried last night because Sondra wasn't asleep and I had to threaten her life but I didn't hear a peep out of her after I put him in there.
This Sunday we are having Stuart dedicated in church. This is such a important thing to do in my mind. When we had Sondra dedicated it meant a lot me. Changed me a lot. I already had a relationship with God but after I promised him that I would raise my little girl in church it kind of light me on fire for him. Sometimes I feel like my flame might get dim but somehow he puts me in my place and I get back on track. Like last night I had the baby monitor on in Sondra's room and I was listening to her talk and try to cheer. Then all of a sudden she is singing a mish mosh of Sunday School songs lines from this song to another song..and then she started praying. And every Sunday they sing into my heart and then end it with a prayer. so her singing and then praying at the end I know where she got it. Which, makes me happy!
The kids going to Sunday school is such a important rite of passage for them. It gives me the building blocks they need someday to recognize what is God and what isn't. When they have those times of being lost and not knowing where they are going- they will have this tug at their heart that I had and I could recognize it was God.. I want that for them...I'm a firm believer in Proverbs 22:6 - Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it.
This weekend is Melissa's Baby shower which is going to be fun!...This is the first "shower" my Sister and Sister in law Kayla has done together..we are pretty good planners thus far and Saturday we will finish everything up...and to top it off..we got "cake lady" cake..which I am supper excited!...(and this is why I am fat b.c. with the sound of "cake Lady" cake excites me")
WARNING!!!WARNING!!!
ANY IF YOUR A MAN OR DON'T WANT TO READ ABOUT GOING TO A GYNO DOC- I ADVISE YOU TO STOP READING NOW~
I gotta get going b.c. I have my Annual Women's Doctor's Appt..which I hate...but funny story...I swore it was Monday..I got this new planner and all a few weeks ago and yet I didn't write it down...i have had this Appt for a while now since my 6 week check up in July...but I leave work early Monday..get there..sign in.. and I'm sitting there...ready to give her my card b.c. I have different insurance..and then I have a balance I want to pay...and...thats when she says.."Mrs. Clum" (which I'm still not use to hearing"..and I say oh ya me... I go up to the window..and she looks at me and smiles and says "You know your not supposed to be here till Thursday right???"...and I smile and I ask if there is any way I could get fit in..b.c I'm mortified to go back to work ...lol.. and she says "no..Medina isn't in today"..and I look at her and say "Its a pap".. and then thinking to myself "is it that hard to do that another doc can't do it or one of your docs in training!!!" lol..and then say "is there anyway one of the other doctors could do it".. but of course not... so I gotta be leaving in a little bit... so I guess I was just so over zealous to go get that done Monday...its was bad I forgot to shave my legs that Sunday night and I woke up Monday in a hurry made Jake get the kids ready while I shaved my legs...b.c. I can not be that lady that has crazy hairy legs to go to her Lady doctor!... i just can't.. its a yearly thing..you would think one day out of the year I could be on top of it..but nope! But one encouraging note.. I shave my legs last night so I was on top of it today!
Much Love
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Mystery unto Bella
So with the weather cooling down I miss my horse Mystery probably the most since she has been gone. I have always felt akward still do..I'm an akward person but when I am with Mystery or was riding Mystery it was right. I didn't think about it. I can't explain it...Having your own horse that you truly put in that work and spend hours, days, years with ---then you would understand... Horses are unlike any other creatures and My Mystery...she was one of those one and a millon horses... she gave me so much confidence as a rider...and handicapped me just the simple fact that I'm not comfortable on other horses...I can not tell you the last time I have rode another horse... its been years.when you ride a horse your putting your life into their hands hoofs :)..horses aren't machines that do things on command..and to be so comfortable and don't think about it..that is trust.and that is what I had with her.. Mystery died May 21, 2010...one month b4 Stuart was born. It always seemed like she always got hurt on special days. And when it happened it was like an out of body experice. Like this sounds bad but when people told me how badly they felt or felt sorry when she died to me I felt some resentmeant when they weren't horse people-I don't know. Like I thought how do they even know how it feels to lose her. I'm still processing it and still have moments that I just get overwhelmed with the fact that she isn't out there in the pasture. And my cousin has a horse that looks a lot like her when she was younger and it kind just takes my breath away when I look out real quick and think there she is..and then go wait thats Takota... Mystery will always have a place in my heart...
I'm trying to do my best though... I'm really trying to work with my new baby Bella- its almost like I'm cheating on Mystery...Bella is real lovely.. hard to catch but once we get her on a lead she is good...she hasn't really made up to me yet..she is going to be harder to then Mystery was...but she is my project and goal... I need to prove to myself that I do have what it takes...I have got the knowledge but got to put in the work...
I'm trying to do my best though... I'm really trying to work with my new baby Bella- its almost like I'm cheating on Mystery...Bella is real lovely.. hard to catch but once we get her on a lead she is good...she hasn't really made up to me yet..she is going to be harder to then Mystery was...but she is my project and goal... I need to prove to myself that I do have what it takes...I have got the knowledge but got to put in the work...
Thursday, September 16, 2010
My Favorite Day Thursday!
Thursday is my favorite day...
1. Its donut day at work!! Yes donut day! Work gets us donuts today....I get paid on Thursday you would think we would call it Payday..nope its "Donut Day"...that never crosses my mind until new employees sometimes laugh at that..
2. Its the day before the longest work day of the week..It seems to go faster I swear and I get giddy for friday b.c. Friday the last day of the week... which means weekend..= I get to be with My Family all weekend... I get to be a Momma all day to my kiddos..as much as I love Amanda watching my kids...I love taking care of my kids....
This week I have been trying to get my house cleaned up and organized and all that.. I've got a good bit of it done but there is just so much flippin' laundry!~... There is so much excess..I think its time to purge the excess out!....
Tonight is Women's Fellowship which I like going to..The women of my Church get together and we have a good time... I'm going batty a bit though just b.c. I've volunteered to put together the Retreat this year which its not until March but ya know.. I want to get things organized and ready so we are not running like crazy people when it does roll around... I have a good group that will be helping and doing things..I just am afraid I"ll forget something and then It will be my fault...my full prof plan is to have meetings every month and discuss what is going on..the meetings start next month!..
Babysitting Tuesday was so much fun! They are such witty & smart kids... I know Kari said they might test me more next week but I think they are nothing I can't handle w/all the experience i have growing up with foster care...I want to do special things each week.. whether its baking something together or anything I don't know..I'm thinking..But somehow I want to impact these kids or leave a impression on them..
I gotta go..Jess just dropped the kids off to me at work..
much love~!
1. Its donut day at work!! Yes donut day! Work gets us donuts today....I get paid on Thursday you would think we would call it Payday..nope its "Donut Day"...that never crosses my mind until new employees sometimes laugh at that..
2. Its the day before the longest work day of the week..It seems to go faster I swear and I get giddy for friday b.c. Friday the last day of the week... which means weekend..= I get to be with My Family all weekend... I get to be a Momma all day to my kiddos..as much as I love Amanda watching my kids...I love taking care of my kids....
This week I have been trying to get my house cleaned up and organized and all that.. I've got a good bit of it done but there is just so much flippin' laundry!~... There is so much excess..I think its time to purge the excess out!....
Tonight is Women's Fellowship which I like going to..The women of my Church get together and we have a good time... I'm going batty a bit though just b.c. I've volunteered to put together the Retreat this year which its not until March but ya know.. I want to get things organized and ready so we are not running like crazy people when it does roll around... I have a good group that will be helping and doing things..I just am afraid I"ll forget something and then It will be my fault...my full prof plan is to have meetings every month and discuss what is going on..the meetings start next month!..
Babysitting Tuesday was so much fun! They are such witty & smart kids... I know Kari said they might test me more next week but I think they are nothing I can't handle w/all the experience i have growing up with foster care...I want to do special things each week.. whether its baking something together or anything I don't know..I'm thinking..But somehow I want to impact these kids or leave a impression on them..
I gotta go..Jess just dropped the kids off to me at work..
much love~!
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
Modern Day Mary Poppins ;)
Weekend was really great. Stuart's first Friday Night Football and Mustangs Won! Happy Happy Joy Joy.. Saturday was spent in town & then watched the Bucks w/Andrea, Joel, & Andy..much fun....Sunday went good too.. although I could use more kids in my class it is still worth it even if it just one kid I'm teaching..
Tonight after I get off work I'm going and babysitting 5 kids plus my own...so much fun...this should last 12 weeks...I'm excited. I'm going to use the money to buy myself a iPod Touch... I want one!.. Bad... You can just call me a modern day Mary Poppins! ...
Stuart rolled over yesterday for the first time.. I am so proud of him..He is such a little talker.. I'm so in love with him like I am with Sondra...When he was first born I just looked at this baby and thought how will I ever have as much love for him as I do for my girl. But I do..Your heart when a second baby comes along with out a doubt does grow.. I'm in love with this little man and I can't handle it..I love to hold him and cuddle with him... and he just smiles and laughs at me. He is such a precious gift from God.. and totally worth the wait...
Gotta get going... Much Love..
Tonight after I get off work I'm going and babysitting 5 kids plus my own...so much fun...this should last 12 weeks...I'm excited. I'm going to use the money to buy myself a iPod Touch... I want one!.. Bad... You can just call me a modern day Mary Poppins! ...
Stuart rolled over yesterday for the first time.. I am so proud of him..He is such a little talker.. I'm so in love with him like I am with Sondra...When he was first born I just looked at this baby and thought how will I ever have as much love for him as I do for my girl. But I do..Your heart when a second baby comes along with out a doubt does grow.. I'm in love with this little man and I can't handle it..I love to hold him and cuddle with him... and he just smiles and laughs at me. He is such a precious gift from God.. and totally worth the wait...
Gotta get going... Much Love..
Friday, September 10, 2010
I'm not quiting~ Still going Strong..heh
I'm so thankful for family. I was over at a Aunts house and she is done babysitting kids and she was getting rid of all her baby stuff. I got some really good stuff that I will be able use so I'm really happy..anyways as I was walking out I seen a picture of a cousin thats no longer with us.. she wasn't with us for long but long enough to remember.. whenever I think of her I miss her. I barely even remember her but when I think of her I have a longing for her. I think of what she may look like now, her personality, what dynamic she would of brought to the family, and what she left behind when she passed. My first thought of what my Grandma might be doing in Heaven was easy she was holding Ali and to think about it some more Grandma probably won't let her feet ever touch heaven's floor again. When I get to heaven I'll surely know her too.
This Sunday is another week I'll be teaching Sunday school. I like it. Hopefully more kids come though. Last week there were two kids and Sondra was one of them. I text-ed a few Kid's Moms that go to our church that I know would be in my class letting them know I was the new teacher and I'd love to see them there...so hopefully that works! I wish for Sunday school to have a lot kids like I knew when I was little. It is such a fond memory I have growing up. Learning songs, doing plays dressed up in costumes.
Its Friday Night Football against Jake's old high school. I always talk crap to him and his family..lets hope the Mustangs succeed :)...I always hate talking a lot of crap and we lose.. lol.. Saturday is Andy Day I declare..He is a friend from fair. We are going to hang there and watch the OSU Game... can't wait to see friends and laugh and make fun of one another... lol.. I'll update later..Gotta get some stuff done today!
This Sunday is another week I'll be teaching Sunday school. I like it. Hopefully more kids come though. Last week there were two kids and Sondra was one of them. I text-ed a few Kid's Moms that go to our church that I know would be in my class letting them know I was the new teacher and I'd love to see them there...so hopefully that works! I wish for Sunday school to have a lot kids like I knew when I was little. It is such a fond memory I have growing up. Learning songs, doing plays dressed up in costumes.
Its Friday Night Football against Jake's old high school. I always talk crap to him and his family..lets hope the Mustangs succeed :)...I always hate talking a lot of crap and we lose.. lol.. Saturday is Andy Day I declare..He is a friend from fair. We are going to hang there and watch the OSU Game... can't wait to see friends and laugh and make fun of one another... lol.. I'll update later..Gotta get some stuff done today!
Tuesday, September 7, 2010
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I Seen her..
This weekend at Camp Out I seen Grandma many times...I seen her in my Aunts helping out her Grandchildren...
I seen her in the people that were already planning for the next year with Ideas on what we can make for dinners...
I seen her in the stories that everyone told about her... Such good stories about well Grandma did this and Grandma did that... or my Favorite YOUR Grandma one time.....
Camp Out meant so much to her..because family meant so much to her...its a 30 something year tradition that she planned all year for with her sister...she never would let die--...and that is why it was important to still do it this year on the weekend we have always did it... and I seen her there..her memory is alive and well in all of us..
it was fun seeing the kids in their different age groups run around the camp & woods..and the kids "trying" to sleep in the woods..but they always came back to the camp with reasons of why they were not staying back there...
Sondra ran around with the same little girls that she did the year before and will continue to do the following year..its so much fun to see the kids grow each year..
We had 75 1/2(the half is Jude) family members in and out of there this weekend..and thats a just a small portion of us..
Just to sum it up... "Great Weekend"... brunches, cousins, dinner, family, camp fires, and cookies....nothing much better than that!
I seen her in the people that were already planning for the next year with Ideas on what we can make for dinners...
I seen her in the stories that everyone told about her... Such good stories about well Grandma did this and Grandma did that... or my Favorite YOUR Grandma one time.....
Camp Out meant so much to her..because family meant so much to her...its a 30 something year tradition that she planned all year for with her sister...she never would let die--...and that is why it was important to still do it this year on the weekend we have always did it... and I seen her there..her memory is alive and well in all of us..
it was fun seeing the kids in their different age groups run around the camp & woods..and the kids "trying" to sleep in the woods..but they always came back to the camp with reasons of why they were not staying back there...
Sondra ran around with the same little girls that she did the year before and will continue to do the following year..its so much fun to see the kids grow each year..
We had 75 1/2(the half is Jude) family members in and out of there this weekend..and thats a just a small portion of us..
Just to sum it up... "Great Weekend"... brunches, cousins, dinner, family, camp fires, and cookies....nothing much better than that!
Friday, September 3, 2010
Thank God for Fridays :) Camp Out Weekend :)
Fridays... so long.. as much as I love Friday..the work day always goes so slow. I could be busy as heck with work but yet the minutes and hours literally are longer...
This weekend is Camp Out Weekend:)... its really not "camp out" b.c. most of the family will not be there..but we are camping there anyways...I'm excited though...I have so many memories of Camp Out with my cousins having fun.. getting in fights..making forts... just everything... My Grandma loved Camp Out... Each year we would have a theme... and the whole camp out would be planned out around the theme...we have had Flintstones, wild west, jail, pirates, zoo, Union/confederate army... the list goes on.. anyways.. I'm glad my Sondra will start to make some memories from camp out..
Sunday I start teaching Sunday School to preschool/kindergarten school kids... I'm a bit nervous..but excited at the same time...I'll be helping build the building blocks of their faith... so hey.. if your looking for a church. Sunday school to attend on Sundays come to the the Harrod Christian church. Sunday School 930 Church is 1030. Its such a great church family...come join us.. classes for all ages..adults too!..
I sent out my sister in laws invites for her baby shower... I've had only 2 RSVP...so looks like I'll be doing a lot of calling the week of the shower..and if your reading this and your invited and are coming... just give me a text..my number is on the invite..
Well I'm going to enjoy my weekend...
1 highlight today... it hasn't happened yet..but I am going shopping tonight with one one baby.. Jake & Sondra are going to the football game with my family..and I'm headed to town with Stuart.. its going to be a peaceful night tonight ;)
Wednesday, September 1, 2010
Birthday Girl :)
Today I turned 23 years old. How odd...23. I could ramble off the generic sentiment of man I never imagined I would be doing this when I was 2o something...but thats not true... I knew what I wanted. Yes, there were times in middle school when I said I'm gonna leave this place..but as I got to High school and starting dating Jake.
I knew what I wanted. I wanted that simple life. Who chooses that on purpose?.. Me...call it "safe" or whatever..but I love that. I love the security I have with my husband and the security I have given my kids. My life consists of this get up in the morning go to work from 8-4 M-F.. Wednesday supper b4 bible study at my Grandpas & Sisters... bible study(i have really slacked off this summer w/bible study)..Friday this fall..football games...Sunday Church and then Sunday Dinner with my whole family..Sunday is family day at my parents...and through that week we have me and Jake disagreeing on about everything.. changing diapers feeding Stuart and trying to control Sondra. Watching the Reds (Jake's obsession) and me anything reality as far as TV watching for us.. cleaning our messy house that never seems to get clean or stay clean or the clothes never caught up..but don't worry Jake swears he will be ready to help me clean after this week and hay season is over...I won't hold my breath on that though..you don't either..My life is so abundantly full of ordinary things..yet its not ordinary at all...
I have this beautiful family ... great church family & Friends...a roof over my head..me and Jake have good jobs.. we are healthy and able bodied people... with healthy children...and i can thank God for all that...he supplied all that..
So If I'm called "small town" or considered having a small life..go right ahead..I'm happy..I'm not perfect and struggle daily with my issues...but who doesn't... I could never say I'm not happy with all the blessings I have in my life...
P.S. -3 High lights of my Birthday Day: 1. My "cousin in law" had her little boy today on my birthday here is the kicker- My Sondra was born on her birthday...we must be destined to be together..watch out Jake.i may pack up and leave you for her..lol.
2.My Dad!...he was close to my work and he stopped in and brought me a Chocolate Ice cream bar and told me happy birthday.. (food wins me over every time- which we can discuss body issues another time)...
3 -over 40 friends on FB wished me a happy birthday..makes me feel a bit special that many people would take a minute out of their day and wish me happy bday...and if you find that sad.. get over it... we can discuss later about how my general self esteem is about as high as you could throw Oprah during one of her fat phases.. (which I might add shes in one right now)
Much Love and hope to get back with you again ;)
Intoroduction
I have decided to write a blog.. I've always been a lurker looking at friends blogs and stuff..so I'm going to try to do it.. I love to write....... I'll write M-F probably..well maybe 2 or 3 times a week..I don't want to get too ambitious..I'll start off by saying I'm not the best speller and yes I know there is spell check but I don't always do that..sometimes my brain goes faster than my lips and fingers ..so don't correct me... I may give you a lashing..lol..who am I kidding..if you do correct me I may just be happy that someone read it...but don't make it a regular thing.. some days might be very light and other days could be heavy..some days maybe a poem and thats it..or an interesting thought or a link and me saying something..who knows.. this could be like my journal.... alright.. buckle up and get ready...
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