1234 Gramps Sundayschool HSYG kids

So many things right now are on my mind... 1 My Grandpa....2 My Sunday School Class...3 the yet start up of a Youth group in our church....4 My love for my Children.

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My Grandpa.. love him... Ever since I can remember he has been a big guy. But a strong guy...but being a big guy gives him a lot of disadvantages...He has trouble breathing and getting enough oxygen..like with his CO2 levels and stuff mixed up he gets very confused and acts not very normal. the next step to help him with his oxygen level- he has said many of a times he won't do it...  But he sees things and all other sorts. He may do things that make people laugh or say things that make them laugh...but sometimes he will see Grandma or talk to her...it only makes sense that he is "seeing" Grandma b.c. I beleive he truly wants to see her. I'd probably be in that same boat- I wouldn't harm myself by any means but I wouldn't be doing any extra stuff to keep me here..I would want to see Jake..I'm not sure if I want to go first or Jake...I would hate that feeling of "left behind" but on the other hand Jake does not do well with change... I would really appreciate it for everyone to pray for God's Will..I don't know what that direction really leads to but I pray whatever it may be to let it happen. My will for him is he could get up and not have a problem breathing or walking...My will would be for him to live many and many more years decades..but that isn't how life goes... I on one hand would love for him to get to see Grandma and meet his heavenly Father which I know will happen eventually... on the other hand I want him to keep going because like Grandma - they kept our family glued together. Every Sunday we met at their house for dinner..and thats where we made a lot memories that forged us all together close... I'm afraid how our family will be redefined after Grandpa is gone...
UPDATE: 04/29 - Grandpa is talking like he might do the next step...we'll wait and see but as long as he does what he feels is right- that only matters.

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My Sunday School class has been kind of a sore subject lately...I haven't had great attendance this quarter and its bothering me..so I'm starting over and doing something totally different..throwing the regular curriculum out the window and doing something new. I've decided we are going to do the ABCs..Each week we will have a Letter. in  a few weeks we will start with A. Theme will be A is for Angel. WE will have preschool worksheets where they are going to learn how to trace the letter A and they will take practice sheets home to practice and we will have a Bible story that corresponds with the Letter. I have not decided yet on all the bible stories but I'm trying to make lessons before next quarter starts... I am hoping more than Sondra is just there..although only one is just as important but I would love to see my class grow..b.c. usually if my class grows that means the people that brought that kid means they are attending a class at HCC and learning and growing in their faith! Which that is our ultimate goal. So also pray for my attendance and for God to work through me.

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Helping Jake start a High School Youth Group at our church.- now this is what I am most nervous about. Our church is lacking a High school group. Mostly because of their schedules our HS groups usually disappear after a few months... its not out of effort on leaders parts- its just the kids today have so much crap shoved down on them and Youth Group isn't a big priority. (Which we really want to change that) Jake has been wanting to start a youth group which in turn I'm on board. If this means a lot to him I am will and ready to help. We still are in the process of figuring this all out. We have never did anything like this on this scale. I'm nervous crazy and just wondering what will unfold. when thinking about helping with youth group many of my short comings pop up. 1. am I really that deep in my faith that people should really trust me with their young adults kid's faith. 2. the things in my past could come back and haunt me. I know I am forgiven from them but what do I do when kids ask me- Well I bet you did it so why can't I? I did some pretty crazy stuff in high school! 3. Jake and I are pulled in many different directions- is this one more we can handle?..... after thinking all that I can only think my truths....I am not perfect nor will I ever be....I also know that when I am involved with my church- I never feel better. As busy as we are doing different things this will be well worth it and we will get a lot out of it from the kids that will "hopefully" come...

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My children. Last night when we came home from Bible study I couldn't help but look at my kids. I love to watch them and their ways. I love to watch them interact with each other. Stuart is a picker. He goes up to Sondra and tries to get whatever she has in her hands... and Sondra is a Mother...like that is surprising... I always have to remind her: You are not Stuart's Mother- I am!! You tell me and I will take care of it.   But no matter what I think about or worry about- they are always on my mind... will that every really change??

Quickie :)...

When will things ever actually slow down..is that when the kids move out??? ... lol... It seems like life is always throwing something at you... nothing is ever perfect and I am ok with that...I just would like some down time. I have got so many things to do these days and not enough daylight to do them..Busy Summer hasn't even really began Jake is always booked up after work to do something... I've resorted to just going home with the kids b.c. its the easiest place to watch them!....anyways...

Easter was a wonderful holiday except for the fact my Grandpa wasn't there to celebrate with us. He was stuck in the hospital trying to get his CO2 under control...Sondra woke up and she assumed she didn't get nothing in her Easter Basket...she didn't even look in it until I made her and Stuart didn't have anything for his easter basket and the night before I remembered oh wait I'm gonna take pictures so I got out a pair of Sandels he will be able to wear this summer when he starts walking and put them in his basket lol..he loved chewing on the plastic grass in his basket though so I could have been ok with just the basket and grass.lol.Sondra was so excited to get her portable DVD player...normally she wouldn't get something so pricey but after my nephew got one and we have borrowed it a few times for long car trips- we decided it could be "our" Easter present to ourselves lol... we ended up going to Greenville and not one peep there or from Greenville from Sondra... :) It was really nice seeing the Greenville Clum's... I just wish we all lived closer...it was pretty awesome too..on our way to Greenville we were talking about how we will need to get another deep freezer and what did we do?..we came home with one...his Grandma Clum was getting rid of hers and we were able to take it... answered prayers

as far as Easter... it was a little bit special for us... b.c... this was the first time we got the "kids" picture taken in the morning.. I loved saying to Sondra- "Now scoot closer to your brother w/your baskets"...or getting their photos w/their easter eggs which was even more funny. Stuart kept trying to pick up his eggs and Sondra kept putting them back.. well as she was putting an egg back she dropped all her eggs on the floor and they all cracked...we had to lie to her and say oh they are fine!!! lol.. in the picture she closed her box so no one would be able to see them... memories made :)

Well..I felt so bad I had not wrote all last week... so I wanted to post something quick as if anybody cares lol..its for myself really I guess...but I will write later and have a few funny Sondra moments... <3

Malltastic Time-Bunny Costume & Everything Else~

Lets start off and say Hello All! :)

So my week is going OK...right now although don't happen very often I'm good and bad but not either. With me My Highs are High and my Lows are low...but this week..its been good but a little bad but mostly good... I'd rather have splendid weeks all the time..but I guess being mellow is probably good for me b.c if I hear my husband say I need to get that natural stuff "Serenity" one more time to help me calm down...I may just go to the doc and tell him I need some Prozac!... :)... 

Last Friday I went to the mall and got some new shoes... I got shox again for my everyday shoes..they are black and all leather..although I think they are shaped funny at the toe and I am still adjusting to wearing something other than mesh fabric like my old shox- my toes feel like they are in a prison! lol... but I'm getting use to it... I have not wore all leather tennis like this probably since I played basketball in Jr. High...maybe that is why I can't handle wearing them...also..I splurged and got some great lip gloss from bath and body the mint stuff.. i love and hand sanitizer...a got a few new shirts from old navy clearance...for a second while i was walking around I felt like I was in high school again spending money on myself :)...then I was slapped back into reality when Stuart was pissed off b.c. he had sat in his stroller for 2 hours straight! lol.. it was good while it lasted and I had fun with my bud Andrea and her little angels..oh ya Joel was there too :) so when I got done with that I get a call from Sondra telling me hi..instantly the guilt trip is on full swing...I talk to Jake and they are headed to Menard's to get wood for his/Jordan's hay wagon..so I tell them I will meet them there... we had fun..and I got my PAINT!..I'm so excited! I've never really been very specific in our house of what I really want like colors I just go with what would look "good"..but this I started thinking about it b.c. Jake doesn't like the Lavender and came up with it!...One wall will be a turquoise and the other 3 will be a med. dark brown..and I know your not supposed to paint small bedrooms dark colors..but who cares!..I want to escape to my room and love it...not go in and be like yup this is it...

I have such worries for Sondra...what little kid have you ever known that didn't like to color..so I have all these homework pages that she does and whenever coloring is involved she says no Mommy you color it for me...she knows what it should be but she doesn't want to color...or my favorite when I tell her you should color it yourself it is your homework...she then scribbles the whole page one color...and also..I need to figure out what is the best way to teach her how to hold her pencil! We have been working with Tracing her first and last name..she gets half way through and says well I'm done.. lol.. funny!... I try not to pressure her so I reluctantly say alright we'll try again tomorrow.. I guess I am bit worried b.c. she won't be attending "pre-school" and looking at the requirements children should know going into kindergartner are over whelming.. oh well....I know she'll be fine but we will keep up the "homework"... she thinks she is such a big girl!..

The kid's easter pics turned out really good...it was so nice just worrying about getting their outfits ready. Sondra of course was scared of the bunny. I have realized I took the wrong approach to it though...as soon as the bunny came out she was scared didn't cry but she wasn't happy...when we got into the car I say what happened lady?..and she says..that wasn't a real bunny that was a costume!!! lol.. then a few moments of silence she says- I'd rather be with Santa!... lol  so maybe next year If we take them with a bunny I'll ask the bunny to take his head off and show her he is a stand in "helper" for Easter bunny.... Although seeing the photographer studio and his camera and all that I want to know the next step as in better camera... I love to take the kid's pictures but when I am every asked by people to take pictures for them I always decline b.c. one who am I to show up with a little Kodak 12 mp camera..I can see the difference in quality of photos that I take and he takes..and I don't want his big ole camera I just want to know what next step would be good and something to save for.. 

So this week exciting... Jake is going with a couple of my brothers & Dad and they are going to kentucky where my Grandpa Reffit is from... they talked to some cousins and they are going to check out a coal mine I think on their property. So exciting.. a guys trip..I know they are going friday but they might stay the night and be home Saturday depends on how much time they need there...

So that means.. Me and Kayla have a trip planned to Findlay to one of her favorite stores and i need to go to Wish upon a child.. everyone comments on how tall Sondra is getting..and I realize when I have to choose which shirt for her to wear when one looks like a belly shirt or this other shirt that just barely shows her belly! lol..so I need to get some good quality stuff for a fair price!... so hopefully I find it...

Tomorrow I go to the eye doctor..I really can't wait!... we signed up for eye insurance so I'll be able to go to the eye doctor and not worry about how much it costs..to me eye doctor is low on the list but with this weird eye thing I have I really should go every year.. anyways..I'm thinking I am going back to contacts...when I see myself without glasses I don't think I look like myself but you know what... glasses can be bothersome sometimes..I like to wear makeup but I don't always do b.c. what is the point. when you have glasses covering up your eyes and I can't put a whole bunch of mascara b.c. it makes my lens dirty...so... I'm going to go into my Appt. being open to anything..and if the price is right I probably should get an extra pair of glasses too...its pretty good eye insurance so I'm happy~...

alright and last but not least I have a Sondra story... this happened a few weeks ago when we were taking stuff over to the Young Farmers Sale...we are driving along the road and Sondra was playing with her door and I said Stop it Sondra if that door opens up you will fly out and get very hurt and probably die and we don't want that..and her reply..Well Jesus will heal me!..lol.. wow TY Sondra..

Prayers PhotoOpp Teeth MR Abe Lincoln Clum

can't the weather just warm up and stay warm?..I don't like this in between crap. 1st off- I'm putting in my requests now- 1. Pray for my Grandpa Kenny. He is still in hospital but doing much much better... 2. My Grandpa Reffitt...still going through a tough time- but pray for his heart to soften and be willing to accept Jesus. 3. Pray for Cousin Eric on my Dad's side. He lost a little baby girl a few days ago she was only 2 1/2 months old. She leaves a older sister and two older brothers. I can't not and don't ever want to imagine losing a child. Pray for the Lord's Healing touch. 4. and I am going to be selfish... pray for me!... I am going wary on my WW..haven't tracked for a few weeks and haven't been to a meeting in 2...eeehh...not only concerning WW but I have fallen into old bad habits...and need prayers to help me get back on track and put my eye on the prize!... please and thank you...

Now on to much lighter things...Stuart & Sondra are getting Easter photos done this Sunday. I'm really excited because #1 the price! Get this $30 for 4 4x6 photos and a disk with images on it from a very talented photographer Chad Hughes! We graduated together. I have been prepping Sondra all week. I downloaded a picture of the bunny that will be there so hopefully she doesn't flip out when the time comes to take the picture! She has her dress but she needs shoes, socks or tights, and gloves for pictures and easter. Stuart has the dress pants- but he needs a shirt to match Sondra's dress which the same color theme I want a pink or purple dress shirts and then he needs a vest or a blazer to go over it. and if I can find a adorable hat...I'll get that too... Girls are so much more enjoyable to buy clothes for...and boys..its a job! lol...its not fair...also while I am at the mall I am getting me a new pair of tennis shoes! So excited..I have shox but I have worn them for a year straight and they look pretty ratty... I'm so sold on them but I hate that the back shox are starting to come apart... granted I have worn them no Joke almost everyday...when I am at work I have my tennis shoes on...so any ideas on shoes...the Shox have been the most comfy shoes I have ever worn..anybody have any better ones?? Let me know... also.. I am going to get the paint for my bedroom... I'm excited..hopefully Jake likes to paint..b.c. the idea of painting don't bother me...but when it comes down to it...I don't want to do it... lol... I am so excited!

things have finally calmed down... my boredom bliss weekend was everything that i had hoped for :)... I got the most wonderful letter in the mail yesterday and it picked me up... and I think it will be a wallet keeper that I can pull out when I am down....

I am also proud to report Mr. Stuman had his first tooth pop through yesterday or sometime..but I noticed it yesterday! lol..in Mommy News that is really exciting!...he is growing so fast and his birthday will be here before you know it...so scary! lol... I want to enjoy him like I got to with Sondra..so the more I think about when the next one will come and its not going to be for a while..we always said that we would be done when Jake turns 30...but...I hate to put a deadline on it....I don't want to even think about trying till Stu is 3 years old...the Age gap between Sondra & Stuart is so enjoyable...its a little hectic right now..but I felt like I really got to see Sondra grow up and like with Stu although it is moving fast I really am enjoying him..I couldn't imagine if I was pregnant right now or anything..Sondra gets to have so much extra "special" time with Jake while me and Stu run around or hang out ourselves...and thats good for all of us...

Another thing is...Sondra's Pony Daisy Bob had her baby!!!... its a boy...and his name is Abe Lincoln Clum. How the name Abe came about... So we go over there...and she gets into the pin with Jordan and they are asking her what will she wants to name him... well...Jordan says what about Abe? and she says no...well a little passes by...and she wanted me to get a brush b.c. he pony needed some brushing..I get her one and she says to Jordan..Brush my pony!.. lol.. she is a diva... so Jordan says I will brush your horse if you agree to name the baby Abe...and she agrees....she is so bad..passing things off to other people and making deals ...lol... its funny...who knows if the name sticks...I think it will need to be approved my Grandma Reffitt... Also she learned a few things that day... 1st off a few days before the pony was born she asked me who was going to cut the baby out...(Sondra only knows that is how babies come, she watched the Duggar episode when Josie was born and she asked if that is how she was born and I said yes they pulled you out by your head and she knew that is how Stuart would be born..and her cousin Jude was born by C/S also)...So she is in her pony's pin talking to her Grandpa and she asks...Grandpa who cut the baby out..and he is looking around Huh Huh..came out of the back end Sondra... lol she says ok... lol.. then...I told her get beside Abe and pet him..and she had seen him nursing and she looks at me and goes NO! He was eating his mom's butt!...lol... So then we had to explain no he was nursing from his mom's boobs like all babies..and she goes nuhuh...Stuart eats formula..lol..so we had to have somewhat of explanations with her...so funny!..
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Love Fest Friday Session"Scan-a-thon with Kindle"-Oh Grandpas!-Bedroom Dreams of Colors

Man i love Friday... Fridays are Freedom..when 4 o'clock rings I'm out the door..I'm excited for this weekend for many reasons...I don't got a thing going on..I get all the Mom & kiddies time I can take... tonight we are going over to wapak to check out the stuff at the young farmers sale..then going to Bob Evans for dinner with the kids...Sondra at 730 am was already exciting asking me If I had ever tried the stack of pancakes from there lol..I said oh no maybe I'll get that tonight... lol she says well you need to get sausage and eggs and you can try the bacon...I am going to eat all that Mommy...and I say maybe I'll get potatoes too and she replies..Mommy that is not what you eat for breakfast... lol..so funny..

Today I have been a scanning queen...scanning and scanning MSDS..which are Material Safety Data Sheet...we have to have one for all the different chemicals we clean on file...so lucky me gets to keep track of them..and sadly I have let them go..so I have been scanning away and much to my delight I read my kindle while they scan... I have found a new author that I like..her name is Kerrelyn Sparks..i downloaded her first book because I was getting close to be done with that George bush book and just went through and downloaded a whole bunch of free books..and that was one of them..as I was going through the other day b.c. I had just finished another I seen that one...it was called "how to marry a millionaire vampire"...it was supposed to be a funny one..well it turned out really good..so now I am on my second one...and don't get excited its nothing like twilight..but it still is good... these books are all the same people but each new book are new characters... its good... this kindle has got me reading more and more...I love it b.c. there are so many free books that you can try and a lot of times i'm a fan on FB and a lot of times authors or companies sponsor books so you can get books for free that usually aren't free....I love to read...I was one of those weirdos who liked to read in school too...

Both my Grandpa's need prayer... My Grandpa Kenny is in the hospital with pneumonia.. and My Grandpa Reffitt is going through a tough time...I wouldn't want to be in either of their situations...I can't imagine being married to someone so long and then they pass away... and your left here... they both were married to their wives longer than they lived unmarried...I can't hardly imagine not having Jake already..

So.. I have my dream bedroom decorating... I want one wall to be painted turquoise and then the rest tan.I'm not normally a turquoise fan but I guess hanging around my Sister in law it just has rubbed off on me b.c. she likes teal/Turquoise/aqua colors... .and I want to hang up my paint Horse pictures in my bedroom...and have a turquoise and brown bedspread ...I think that would be so pretty :) it would give Jake his "manly" feel but yet feminine...but the only problem I have been having a rough time even finding one anywhere online..I like to amuse myself and think I could try sewing one... hmm.... i use to sew but I'm embarrassed to say I don't even think I remember how to put thread in a sewing machine anymore...I loved to sew... maybe I'll try and start doing that again I should just for the plain fact my Grandma was talented at sewing - she taught all of us girls....i miss those days..

Well... I shall be going..and I will enjoy my weekend of no obligations and boredom bliss! :)..