So many things right now are on my mind... 1 My Grandpa....2 My Sunday School Class...3 the yet start up of a Youth group in our church....4 My love for my Children.
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My Grandpa.. love him... Ever since I can remember he has been a big guy. But a strong guy...but being a big guy gives him a lot of disadvantages...He has trouble breathing and getting enough oxygen..like with his CO2 levels and stuff mixed up he gets very confused and acts not very normal. the next step to help him with his oxygen level- he has said many of a times he won't do it... But he sees things and all other sorts. He may do things that make people laugh or say things that make them laugh...but sometimes he will see Grandma or talk to her...it only makes sense that he is "seeing" Grandma b.c. I beleive he truly wants to see her. I'd probably be in that same boat- I wouldn't harm myself by any means but I wouldn't be doing any extra stuff to keep me here..I would want to see Jake..I'm not sure if I want to go first or Jake...I would hate that feeling of "left behind" but on the other hand Jake does not do well with change... I would really appreciate it for everyone to pray for God's Will..I don't know what that direction really leads to but I pray whatever it may be to let it happen. My will for him is he could get up and not have a problem breathing or walking...My will would be for him to live many and many more years decades..but that isn't how life goes... I on one hand would love for him to get to see Grandma and meet his heavenly Father which I know will happen eventually... on the other hand I want him to keep going because like Grandma - they kept our family glued together. Every Sunday we met at their house for dinner..and thats where we made a lot memories that forged us all together close... I'm afraid how our family will be redefined after Grandpa is gone...
UPDATE: 04/29 - Grandpa is talking like he might do the next step...we'll wait and see but as long as he does what he feels is right- that only matters.
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My Sunday School class has been kind of a sore subject lately...I haven't had great attendance this quarter and its bothering me..so I'm starting over and doing something totally different..throwing the regular curriculum out the window and doing something new. I've decided we are going to do the ABCs..Each week we will have a Letter. in a few weeks we will start with A. Theme will be A is for Angel. WE will have preschool worksheets where they are going to learn how to trace the letter A and they will take practice sheets home to practice and we will have a Bible story that corresponds with the Letter. I have not decided yet on all the bible stories but I'm trying to make lessons before next quarter starts... I am hoping more than Sondra is just there..although only one is just as important but I would love to see my class grow..b.c. usually if my class grows that means the people that brought that kid means they are attending a class at HCC and learning and growing in their faith! Which that is our ultimate goal. So also pray for my attendance and for God to work through me.
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Helping Jake start a High School Youth Group at our church.- now this is what I am most nervous about. Our church is lacking a High school group. Mostly because of their schedules our HS groups usually disappear after a few months... its not out of effort on leaders parts- its just the kids today have so much crap shoved down on them and Youth Group isn't a big priority. (Which we really want to change that) Jake has been wanting to start a youth group which in turn I'm on board. If this means a lot to him I am will and ready to help. We still are in the process of figuring this all out. We have never did anything like this on this scale. I'm nervous crazy and just wondering what will unfold. when thinking about helping with youth group many of my short comings pop up. 1. am I really that deep in my faith that people should really trust me with their young adults kid's faith. 2. the things in my past could come back and haunt me. I know I am forgiven from them but what do I do when kids ask me- Well I bet you did it so why can't I? I did some pretty crazy stuff in high school! 3. Jake and I are pulled in many different directions- is this one more we can handle?..... after thinking all that I can only think my truths....I am not perfect nor will I ever be....I also know that when I am involved with my church- I never feel better. As busy as we are doing different things this will be well worth it and we will get a lot out of it from the kids that will "hopefully" come...
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My children. Last night when we came home from Bible study I couldn't help but look at my kids. I love to watch them and their ways. I love to watch them interact with each other. Stuart is a picker. He goes up to Sondra and tries to get whatever she has in her hands... and Sondra is a Mother...like that is surprising... I always have to remind her: You are not Stuart's Mother- I am!! You tell me and I will take care of it. But no matter what I think about or worry about- they are always on my mind... will that every really change??
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