Monday, November 29, 2010

What a big 4 day weekend...life is crazy..but I'm going to make it through- one way or another

Coming clean is never an easy thing to do. But I have come to realization that life isn't always pretty. In order to have a bright future for my little futures & me and my husband I need to clean up my act and quit trying to do it on my own. I don't know why I didn't do this earlier because I think it is for the best... this is just the beginning of my journey that I'm starting...but get ready for a new me...
My 4 days from work was much needed but little sleep was granted. Stuart has been waking up at night because he is so congested and coughing. He doesn't have a fever but has been very irritable.. Last night was the worst. He probably slept one block of 4 hours...beyond that it was up down up down... I'm taking him to the doctor today at 3 because I cannot handle it no more! I think I am going crazy... my best guess is that he has a ear infection. I could and will be wrong. So keep him in your prayers...
on thanks giving me and Jake got to talk to my Grandpa Reffitt and he told us stories about my Dad and some were quite funny. I love listening to his stories and his ways..I feel like I need to make a big effort and actually visit him more and not just on holidays...just because I wasn't close to my Grandma Reffitt...I shouldn't hold it against him...he actually hinted at wanting more company... (thats a big deal for Grandpa)...
My daughter had another bad word moment...I cringe every time a song comes on the radio and now I'm convinced that We can not listen to it no longer with her in the car...it has to be strictly her songs... you know that song that goes do you know any johnny cash..and the band starts to play and blah blah Hell ya play that song... Well as my daughter was at her Grandma & Grandpa Reffitt s sitting in a window playing with a kids nativity scene set I hear her on repeat...blah blah HELL YA play that song!..Hell ya play that song.over and over.. we heard that song in the car maybe a few days earlier... why in the heck did that hook have to stick in her head... I don't know what to do except not listen to the radio... we continue to remind her what are OK words and what are ugly bad words that would warrant a mouth full of soap... I can't fault her when she doesn't know that its bad like mentioned above... i am the one who let her hear that song.. I know that I will never be able to keep her from not hearing those words so I understand she will try to say them but my only job is to show her it is wrong and SHE will not say them even if she hears someone she knows say them....Pray for us... I still have yet to wash her mouth out with Soap...but the day is coming...
What I have been most thankful for this year is my Husband. He has always loved me or so appears... he has not left...but has stuck by my side... he will be my new years resolution to keep him happy...and show him everyday different ways of how much I appreciate and love him...I'm amazed how much love changes us.
Keep me in your prayers, my Son to get better..My daughter to mind her mother and her mouth...and my husband. Also My Grandpa Lawrence isn't feeling good...he has had a rough time lately..and needs extra prayer..

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

Thankful

I am absolutely thankful for the life I was born into. I was born to a stable home where I was brought up in the church. Where later in life I should have known better concerning some of the things I was doing..but I'm thankful for the Lord and his forgiveness. I'm thankful for getting to be a part of a church family. I am thankful God sent me the right man for me. I am thankful especially this year for Stuart. I prayed and hoped for a awful long time for him and when it seemed hopeless- we got good news. I am thankful for my few good lovely friends. I am thankful for my family and their Love. I'm thankful to see my Brother happy again. I never thought it would happen for a long time- and I have never seen him this happy ever. Its intoxicating. I am thankful I have a regular babysitter again. I am thankful she can handle Sondra and her antics. I have seen a serious Change in Sondra and the way she listens. I am thankful for the the Lord helping me this year in trying times. I am thankful for Jake's work for giving him a promotion and raise. I am thankful for our parents who help us throughout the year. I am thankful our home. It may be a small and humble house- but its our home. I am thankful for the memories my Mystery gave me. I am thankful for God giving me the courage to say enough is enough with her and not let her suffer. I am very thankful for the adventures I had with my Grandma and sadly she did pass last December but I am thankful she went with ease in her sleep. I'm thankful she did not have to suffer no more and not feeling like herself being trapped in her chair. I am thankful for the women of my family keeping the Sunday dinner tradition alive. I am thankful for so many things- and I could go on and on...this is just a small part    

Monday, November 22, 2010

Laundry Dry, Big Baby TV, & The Stewie Controversy lol..

What a weekend I had...what a weekend...
I found myself Friday night wondering what I was going to do the next morning...everyone was busy except me and the kids... so... Saturday morning rolled around... and I decided we were home until Jake came home from wrestling crap was done... I woke at 830 to feed Stuart and keep him in my bed... and started a load of laundry...got back up at 930 to Sondra in my bed...butt naked...no matter what I put this girl in at night she wakes up with totally different clothes on or nothing on..if she is real excited for the next day she will put her clothes on that we have laid out... she is funny..so we get up I get Sondra breakfast and continue to do laundry... my house has been pretty "tidy" for my standards but needed a little cleaning...I give the kids a bath in between laundry... (common theme= laundry) Jake gets home.. we talk about what we are going to do today...if I ever say lets clean...he always comes up with something else to do..so when I say we don't have nothing..lets just clean up some..he starts..well lets see what my parents are doing today..maybe we will go to Spencerville...I agree...I'll be honest..I'll find any reason not to clean...no such luck..they were in Greenville for the day but after he gets off the phone he says Oh ya My dad called yesterday (i'll explain later)... so I say..Lets just clean up and do laundry..and we'll order pizza in or something or go get dinner...well not long after Jake had to go to my Grandpa's to clean farm stuff...so he was gone for a few hours... I got a lot of laundry done...we ended up folding 8 loads of laundry...and I got my last 2 in the washer/dryer now(catching up from when we didn't have  a working washer & lets be honest...I hate laundry- usually only do what we need)... Our house is clean and I love that.. the only room thats not clean in our bedroom & our back room..I want to move things around I just have to come up with a way to how I want to do it...
so when Jake got off the phone he says his Dad called yesterday and wanted to drop off a free Tv for us which Jake's dad got through work..and I was thinking Yay!.. I have been saying I wanted a new Small TV to hang in our bedroom so we could get rid of the stand...well when he called his parents Saturday to see what they were doing they said they would drop the tv off Sunday..they came over Sunday Mom, Dad, & Zac.....dropping off our new baby...a 55 in. Flat Screen!... I never in my life thought I would own a big TV...but Wow..its nice... so instead of getting a small TV to hang in our room..our med. sized Tv from living is going to our room and our Big Baby is on hanging on our wall right now courtesy of Spencer Jake Zac Chris...while Me the kids..Patty and Rachel watched! Although it looks rather large in our small house I had to live by my motto in life: If its free its for me! It was such a nice pleasant surprise :)
As I look back on the weekend...I think how nice it is just to be home.. yay sure I was busy doing laundry..but its nice not to have anything to do...I really enjoyed it...and next week is the first Wrestling thing...its Spencerville Preview... that should be fun :)...I'm really excited for wrestling now...I'm excited to see the boys do good. I know we got a few good ones & can't wait to see which ones make it to March!!!
Also..this is just matter of factly kind of info...
When I named both of my kids- I never intended to call them a shorter version from the start. Does that mean I'll never call them a "nickname"..no... People always ask me if I call Stuart - Stewie...and I say no I usually call him Stuart...and then they say oh you don't like that..and no that is not it... it does not bother me at all if you call him that....I prefer to let his friends someday give him that nickname. if I call him anything but his name i sometimes call him Stu just b.c. I think its funny b.c. Stu is such a old man name... Or my Favorite...when I was pregnant when we told people what we were naming him they would ask if we were naming him after Stuart Miller from Delphos... lol... and No we didn't... he was a pretty awesome wrestler...but no...Stuart was our favorite S name to follow our SRC tradition of naming our kids... 
Until next time :)
Joie

Friday, November 19, 2010

Happy Friday... miss my Lace...and Retreat Worries...

My Spirits are Lifted today!... its Friday.. I miss my little baby boy so much today...I love me some Sondra... but I know she can function without me...she tells me about her days and her feelings and all that..but Stu can't... so I miss seeing him and knowing what he is doing...I can't beleive how many people always say what a happy baby he is or asks me if he is always like this...and actually he is..I was blessed with such a happy fellow...not that he doesn't cry...but he is happy the majority of the time..and he is so stinkin' pretty... Jake says I'm partial..but he is beautiful...
seeing my Lace last Friday makes me miss her more...everything Thursday we use to watch greys...so on Thursdays I think of her too...just bout everything I do-- I think of some funny memory...man I"m talking like we use to date or something... lol... we had some of my family fooled :) ..I'm so lame... I can't wait till she moves back b.c. then I will get to see her..and then she'll be having babies...but I secretly pray they have a oops anyway while they are away...lol bahaha
I have really been trying to get the Women's Retreat for my Women's Fellowship group figured out. I do not know why I volunteered to get it put together...I was pretty ambitious that night... I must been on one of my high positive moods!... getting the hotel finalized as to where...got to go look at one tonight... our Catered meal is pretty much covered... but our Guest speaker not so much...our theme is "A Women After God's Own Heart" and we have a book to pass out and all..but who should I have speak..any ideas?...Please get with me... Crafts won't be too hard..and I a lot of help...its just we still need to come together to talk about it all..I'm very excited... I want to do something totally different..and be somewhat organized and not seem like it was just thrown together...there has already been a lot of thought put into this and all....but I just want to get things done...

Well I need to be going...

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Wednesday..how I despise you!

Man I'm ready for a dinner, a hot bath, and doing nothing...I am so tired... tire...my body is screaming for some rest!...Stuart slept on his way home from Kari's last night...so when we got home..he was re-energized..alls I remember is feeding him at 12:45...man it was a early morning....
I got a Sunday School meeting to go to tonight at 6. Hopefully I get everything I need to get done before then.
This Saturday is our first wedding outing.... we are going to hobby lobby to look at flowers...hopefully its successful trip :)  well I'm off...

Monday, November 15, 2010

The Case of The Mondays...

OH Lord..its only Monday and I can't wait for Thurs/Friday..I'm in a dire need for a vacation. When I was pregnant I really looked forward to my maternity leave...and thinking about it...I don't even remember it..the 4 weeks felt more like a long weekend... thats sad... I'm really looking forward to retirement..lol... i do not wish for life to fly by...but I can't wait for a time where I wake up and have nothing to do... I long to wake up and not thinking about how I have to spend 8 hours somewhere other than w/my little family..
also.. when you have a disagreement with someone...and they continually get catty and rude... and at the end say "I don't want to fight".....which I guess if you want let someone know their actions came across the wrong way about something...i guess thats fighting... yet they are catty, unreasonable, rude about the matter... it doesn't solve anything... just means as much as I'd like to tell you what I really think..I'm just going to smile b.c you guessed it... it was rude...but not worth it.. just wanted to let them know.

Sondra this morning at 4am... woke me up to tell me she peed the bed... oh how I love her... so then when I got her all settled... and then back up at 730....she was not a happy camper...when I dropped her off at Amanda's.. she was so mad at me she wouldn't even tell me bye..hopefully when I go to pick her up...she will be happy... I just want to get home and make some food and be with my kiddies... We have to clean up tonight..and also Clean the kid's room... and finally... I'm slowly but surely ... catching up on my laundry...

Well getting close to 4pm.. I'll be back later this week...please pray for me... I need this week to go by~!

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

This is me and Stu..he is my darling.

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Start Serious..forget it..and then my usual

To you
i have come to the acknowledgement we have grown apart... we are so different...absolutely totally two different paths...and beliefs.. How did this happen? We were best friends...we could not see each other for months or talk..and when we were together...its like we never skipped a beat...what the hell?...how did this happen..I haven't seen you in years... I am a mother..you haven't met my not only my first nor second...apparently we weren't that good of friends..... I always knew you would do big things...you know I did always tell you that... when you said you wanted to do one thing..I encouraged you..and when it changed I still encouraged you... remember that dreadful weekend..you felt so sorry for yourself....wasn't it I who helped you out...and wait a second..encouraged you? i still have that little book you wrote in..always did support you..reach out to you..and now for the past few months..I'm sorry to say...I have given up..if you really wants to know how I was doing or how my kids are...lets face it..you'd email me back...I'm not wanting anything..just wondering out loud.....I guess that is what happens.. people come in your life and out of your life for reasons...they teach you what you  need to learn and then unbelievably they leave your circle...and if you do happen to read this...you know who you are... i'm not really mad at all..I just am kind of surprised..I have no intentions to make it right. i have been thinking about you lately...
love- me

Friday, November 5, 2010

Sleep has found me.gray tooth 101.sleep over...and generous family thrown in:)

HE SLEPT ALL NIGHT...Stuart finally gave in and did it...and I'm pretty sure its him sleeping too much in evening.. yesterday..when he had his bottle when he got home we gave him a nap so he wouldn't be so tired in the evening..and then 20 min before 10 he fell asleep and I let him sleep and woke him up and fed him is bottle at 10 and laid him down when he finished...he slept clear till 7am... thank you Jesus..
.So happy it is Friday! Sondra is having two friends stay the night...she has been asking for weeks and now asking all week what day it was they are coming....I don't know if they will ever fall asleep tonight...but I'm gonna put them in sleeping bags on the floor and hope for the best ;).. .
Our Washer has been making the strangest noises...and now it is leaking..bad..its a goner....its done a real good job for the past 5 or so years... but I was totally bummed yesterday when Jake said its time for a new one.... but thank God.. My wonderful Beautiful cousin Meg-pie offered an extra one she has sitting in her garage..I'm so thankful for first. Family..and 2ND... generous family!..I'm excited..and very happy..i owe you bunches...
On a negative note...Sondra's one tooth is looking a little gray... so I have researched it online...and it says 2 things can happen...it could just be the blood in the tooth discoloring it from when it was injured (courtesy of her dance moves).but it will go away after a few weeks and if it doesn't then....it could be that the tooth is dying...and when that happens..if she doesn't complain that it doesn't hurt..then let it be...the tooth will be gray until it falls out.... but if really concerned call dentist... hmm... great..i have a bad feeling...I'm going to fail my one goal for her pretty little smile...
I am so ready for this weekend...I need a break for the daily crap....
and beware its likely Miss.Sondra Ray will be getting her mouth washed out w/soap..she has said a far worse word...where I have not a clue who she has heard it from.. I'm really starting to get mad now...

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Whats a Momma go to do?

If I have every had a doubt in my abilities...its now.. this is the second week for Stuart waking up around 430 to 5...sometimes he isn't even hungry..and others he could wait but I feed him so he'll go back to bed... I played with the idea maybe he is ready for cereal. I have been putting it in his bottle every night since...last weekend...the night I did it he slept till 8am the next morning.. but the following night and after nights...its so inconsistent..and beleive me when I say..I don't want to start feeding him anything besides formula..my theory is if he is sleeping through the night there is no reason to start cereal or anything else for that matter b.c. formula provides your baby with what he needs for the 1st year. doctor thinks he maybe teething...but he isn't uncomfortable you know.. I think he may be sleeping too much in the evening so I'm going to try to keep him up more in the evenings.....so does anyone have any other suggestions?.. .
one accomplishment is: Sondra/Stuart's Room is clean..well for the time being... we cleaned out some of her toys and have agreed to give a few to certain friends that she knows...but she goes back and forth on it..I got to get them out of the house before she really renigs on the deal...She has one toy box and one box for babies & baby stuff...and whatever does not fit in those 2 things...goodbye!...so more stuff will be going...toys bother me... there are things that she loves to play with all the time..and others..she'll play with every so often..but not everyday..but I look at it and think...what do i do?..I'm excited this year b.c. 2 years ago she got a doll house that she loves so much...she played with the thing till the faces were almost worn off....well we decided to donate it to our church nursery so everyone can play with it on the condition that Santa brings her a new doll house... So I'm excited to buy her one and she is going to love it!...thats my only MVP gift I know to get her..there are other little things...but thats the biggie.. also..any suggestions what kind of doll house to get her??...
Also this week.. Sondra has really showed me who is in control...lol.. or reminded me what needs done...she just has this huge big personality inside this little body and she has such big and strong emotions...its quite endearing...I look at her and wonder who she'll be...but she has been so stubborn and we have really had to get on her.. just when you think you have control ....they do something different and flip the game on you...:)...
I was at Kari's last night..and it seems easier and easier to have a bunch of kids....I like that chaos... but I'm happy...they seem to be so comfortable with me now...I was sitting on the couch and the older girls were upstairs and the two youngest were sitting on the couch with me...both on each side... scooted all the way by me... Micheal's head on my shoulder and Flinta's feet sitting on my legs... they are a fun bunch of kids...seriously..never a dull moment...
One very funny thing tho...when I got home from Kari's last night Sondra was already in bed..so when I woke her up this morning and was getting her ready I noticed her nails were painted...I said oh pretty Did Amanda painted your nails? and she says No Daddy did... lol.
and my favorite little tidbit My daughter Told the baby sitter yesterday: My Mommy puts beer in my cereal!...thanks Sondra you are such a sweetheart!