Its my Friday!!!! Ready or not Weekend here I come :)

its my Friday today! I'm so happy I do not have to come in Friday! I'm going to wake up and head over to my friend's parent's house for breakfast and for waxing upper lip & tweezing my eyebrows...a great way to wake up and start my day...I'll surely cry... and for the women that have never waxed your upper lip..you should...its worth it in the end. so smooth so smooth. Sondra has already asked Lace to tweeze her eyebrows..lol..lets hope Sondra  & Stuart are spared the dreaded Reffitt Eyebrow..when I look at myself in the mirror that is where my eyes go to first... lol
Jake for the 2ND night in the row has deserted me b.c. he has a wrestling thing going on..so tonight I'm stopping at our friend's house and Sondra will get to play with her best friend Cara:)...then depending on what time Jake is back- I need to run to Walmart for food and other stuff that I can not put off buying anymore!... I've been going to run to town all week..but I just hate going with 2 kids!!.. taking one isn't bad..but 2...I'm ready to blow!... so hopefully Jake gets home earlier than last night..and I can go by myself..or maybe Take Stu :)
Me the kids and Lace went out to dinner last night which was nice.. then we went looking for snow boots for Sondra..which stunk. You would think if you would go to Pay less Shoes they would have snow boots...you know ...their specialty is shoes..lol..but no of course not. So I thought lets run into K mart...just because they are a bit slower than Walmart..won't have to fight a crowd...no snow boots there either..so to satisfy Sondra we went toy shopping and she bought a new doll with a outfit..a Grandma doll/Brother doll combo..and then low and behold..I seen this really cute play pizza kit on sale and convinced her she needed it for her kitchen..I wanted to get her "nice" play food this year...so thats a good start...when we got back to my house...she made me and Lace pizza..so nice...then when it was time for her bedtime..she morphed into this scary monster..that had to be carried to bed... lol then it was just us and Jake sitting around...huh..just like the good ole days...but we were playing with my chubby Stuart...
I'm so tempted to go to Marion Harding finals..but I got so much to do...I love and get into wrestling..i complain about sitting all day or being cooped up all day..but its fun to watch and see the guys do good! It makes me excited and wonder what my kids might do in high school someday. Maybe they'll play sports or maybe not. I hope for Sondra to play basketball. She is going to be tall I bet and I like to watch basketball. I wonder what Stuart will do too. Don't count your marbles. His Daddy might be a wrestling coach but that doesn't mean he will wrestle. It would probably break Jake's heart though. Jake's view on it is- if he is around it growing up he will know no better and he will want to do that. So for Jake's sake hopefully that is how it works. I'm on of those ones that I don't mind either way. It wasn't always that way though. She has always liked it but especially this year Sondra took a liking to Cheerleading.. you all know I'm not that type so I was highly discouraged.(but I do note most of my best friends in school were cheerleaders lol I know) .lol..but hey every little girl likes that and if someday I gotta go to hour a way games just to watch my girl cheer...then so be it... Grandma told me one of the days my Sondra was pretending to cheer for us in her living room that someone had to be a cheerleader in the family b.c. she was one in school....the logic there...I'm still trying to understand....So...I played basketball all through school till Jr. High...but in High school I didn't play... I kind of got to the point of I was sick of it.. I sometimes look back and wish I stuck with it..but on the other hand I had a point of this isn't me. It kind of defined me and I didn't like that. I didn't like all the "clickiness" that came with it either...in the long run I am happy I didn't stick with it & also happy my parents didn't force Me...b.c. then I would have never gotten to be a stats girl for wrestling team..and then I would have never met my Mohawk man...my hope for my kids concerning sports and all that  is as A parent don't kill their dreams or burn them out or pressure in that area...if they want to be great help them...if they don't ask leave it alone...I want only to be Positive and encouraging and not putting down or saying the famous "you could do better" line..if they play sports it will be hard to do..but thats what I would like to do.
Well i need to be going... have a great happy new year ....and a Safe one.

Slow Day..Christmas accounts...

Christmas has come and gone...the tree is down..and the toys are being slowly put away in their new spots...
Sondra could not understand why I wanted to take the tree down...on our way home she told me it was just snowing it still wasn't Christmas...but then when we got home and I wanted the tree down she tells me Christmas isn't over just yet... lol
I love the holidays..and had a great time with family... Christmas eve was great with the family...we thought we would make it for Christmas eve services @ church..but Sondra's attitude sent us home...she needed to be in bed...but there is always next year :)... Christmas morning was a lot of fun...Sondra was funny...she opened presents like a crazy women...
After we finished we went to Spencerville and had a great Lunch and present time too. Such a happy joyous time:)... when we finished there we went straight to my parents..we had a great meal..and  present time was crazy..with 20 in a room opening up presents...it gets crazy... lol..then the following day we wrapped up Christmas in Greenville w/the Clum's...which was a great time....Sondra ran crazy with her cousins...she was shy at first..which was funny...its not really like her to be that...but she warmed up and ran crazy...
I'm happy the rush of it all is over..but I love seeing the family especially in Greenville which we only see on holidays.
So Sondra got her beloved Doll house... Christmas Eve when she got Christmas Money I said...Look Sondra..with this we will buy you a doll house...and she agreed and all was well..Christmas morning she opened up doll house stuff and she says..this can be for my new doll house...everything is solved...so when she got the doll house later that night..she was so happy...she just wanted it open!!!!....I got it put together...and she was happy...she has not stopped playing with it..its a sickness. She waited a while for it..so I'm happy she got that satisfaction...
We all got everything we wanted...it was crazy...Jake was planning on saving his Christmas money and buying a muzzle loader..well his parents got him one..so now he will use the money to buy a scope...Sondra and Stuart's Christmas money..I'm not sure..I'll let Sondra spend some of hers on what she wants...but some of it will be spend on something she needs like snow boots or something..Stuart...I'm still thinking..I'll either save it or i know soon there will be something big he needs that we won't have..so it will most likely go to that...Now me...at first I wanted a new GPS b.c. mine is slowly dying I think...but after Seeing pictures of myself during Christmas I need better attire..I need some shirts and blouses...i look like I'm carrying Sondra's baby sister she really wants...
I'm hoping New Year's isn't so crazy..which I know it won't be....but I'm looking forward to a peaceful weekend..we will be at my Grandpa's Garage playing board games and kids swimming. well not sure If you
A good thing about this week is tomorrow I'm having supper with my long lost best friend Lace and my kids and maybe her husband...then... Thursday I am going to visit the Schwartz and Sondra will get to play with her friend Cara..she is excited for that!..
I hate this week of work every year from Christmas Eve to New Year's Eve....it is always pretty slow... last Friday..I no joke watched Babes in Toy-land on the internet..which that is a kid's movie for anyone who thinks otherwise...b.c. I do.. lol..the last 2 days have been really slow too..fun fun.. well I'll get back to you again when I actually have something interesting to say!...sorry today was so boring
Later
:)
Sondra and her Doll House

And the Festivities Begin tonight at Grandpa Lawrence's! Happy Bday to Jesus :)

SO I have been pretty ambitious this week and this is my 3rd blog... but its Christmas Eve and I am at work...its 10am and I have nothing to do and I'm here till Noon..I don't want to start something that I won't get finished today...  so Here i am ...
I have been so excited for Christmas this year...Sondra is so excited when she sees presents under the tree. I can't wait to see her open up presents and just be down right happy...I'm just a bit nervous b.c. I didn't get her one baby....and well..I'm really tempted to pick one up tonight say its from "Santa". My only problem is... she is getting this doll house that she really wants...after we gave her old one to the church we looked at doll houses at Walmart...and she picked this certain one out...well seeing it was 65 dollars....she wasn't going to have a real big Christmas...but my parents offered to buy it so we could buy her more presents. Here is the dilemma...I know she is getting stuff for her doll house from me/Jake...and also on Jake's side...and she'll get her doll house Christmas night at my parents...I'm thinking it will go over her head you know...or I'll just say...hmmm Maybe someone is getting you a doll house...we should save these for when you get your doll house... she'll totally buy that... or when she gets Christmas Money tonight I'll say...now we can buy your doll house...hopefully people will get you stuff for your doll house...I'm a genius! lol
One great thing I am happy for is Sondra knowing this week is Jesus's birthday..I love the whole Santa crap..but it is really all about Jesus's birth...if you ask her whose birthday is this week..she'll reply...it's Jesus's. She loves the  Little People nativity set we have at home... she has a set place where everyone has to be...
I have realized I have grown up... I am past the gift excitement and so much more excited to see my kids' faces when they open up their presents...I think Stuart will be fun b.c. he has been getting into the presents since we put them under the tree...every present has been partially opened this year courtesy of Stu..I bought some special preemie diapers for Sondra's babies and he got those open and Sondra is like "Stuart you opened your only present and its diapers for your butt!!!"...lol..so funny I went with it...I wrapped them up the best I could...
So Merry Christmas everyone :) have a great day and rememberer Jesus is the Reason..i know it sounds corny but it is such a true statement. I hate getting caught up in the gift buying and holidays that I forget to thank the Lord for sending His Son to save us all from sin..it began in the manger....thats the Story of Christmas! ... love you all..

Sondra Delle Lawrence

when I think about cancer...i hate it..My Grandma wasn't an old woman when she died...she wasn't exactly young..but not old..yet she was at peace...she'd said that she was living on borrowed time...she got so many more years than they said she would...:)...she was always trying to be positive... I was surprised she didn't make it to Christmas just b.c she loved Christmas...She was just done..
today don't so much bother me..but it started last night... I went to bible study..so we didn't have to sit at home thinking..but even at bible study..I sat there and thought to myself...one year ago right now..we were at Grandma's saying goodbye... one year ago I was sitting a long side her bed knowing..this was surely the last time I would see her alive...It was hard...it was sad...that was my 1st time ever experiencing a death in my life..that I could really understand loss. I remember seeing her younger Grand-babies laying in bed beside her- holding on to her so different then what they knew b.c. it was always Grandma that held them... explaining to my Sondra why Grandma was sleeping so much and why she wasn't awake to open her goodies..that she knew she could get away with if she sat with Grandma to eat...or the thoughts in my head of wondering how the baby inside I carried would ever know really who she was...I've had this messed up sense of understanding when you carry a baby that the more your happy the more the baby will be happy..that even before they are born..they sense trouble and happiness...so I was convinced that I needed to try to be happy so is he or she wouldn't be a unhappy baby...  well seeing Stuart..I still beleive that notion...
Today..or this time a year i'm not sad..but I am thankful for the memories I have of this woman.. I love seeing photos of Grandma and home videos of Grandma..she was this truly amazing woman..took care of the home when Grandpa was on the road when he drove trucks...raised 6 kids. She loved her family so much and loved so many that she treated as her own...
the most vivid or heart wrenching moment would have to be at Grandma's church service and it was before it started were sitting behind my Mom and Dad...in the second row..Sondra could see Grandma's open casket and how we explained it to her was Grandma was "sleeping" during the viewing....but.. so as we sat waiting for the service began..Sondra says I want Grandma..I want Grandma up..and my Mom turns around to get her...and she says no I want that Grandma and points to Grandma Sondra... I think that was really her first time understanding that she couldn't have her...it didn't stick with her..b.c. there are times we have to remind her Grandma isn't coming back..or she'll look at me and just out of no where say Mommy- Grandma Sondra died...or Grandma Sondra is riding Mystery right now..she can talk about Grandma with ease like matter of fact...whenever we pray she usually always mentions Grandma... so to my delight..I think Sondra does have a memory of Grandma...
I always liked hearing Grandma talk about Sondra and how she acts a lot like how my Mom did...not really a bad baby..but just very curious and wanted to know/see everything...she said my Mom spent the first 2 years of her life in the center of the kitchen table...Grandma would make her sit there while she cooked so she knew she wasn't getting into anything...and also..Grandma swore she had baby pictures of her and her sister where Sondra kind of looked like them with the blonde curly hair...she would always say she wished she had 1/4 of Sondra's energy..b.c. she is always going 100 mph...
whenever I think about what Grandma may be doing in Heaven I always think she is holding the Grand babies that she was never able to hold..where they were lost before they were born..or holding Baby Ali that we lost at mere months old... my Sondra likes to think that she is riding Mystery at the Mall shopping... and I like to think she is right too..
So today I don't mourn but rejoice that I had this wonderful woman in my life that has and still inspires me to a better person and Christian everyday. Grandma Sondra was a beautiful woman that I wish I can be like...she was truly the "Wife of Noble Character"...Thank you Lord for blessing me with the opportunity of being her Grand-Daughter... Gram- I love you....

if this life doesn't kill me... she surely will! :)

Wow.. Sondra is really really testing me...I'm at the end of my rope as to what to do with her or how to punish her. I have yet to find in niche in what fazes her for discipline. Spanking spoon has lost it's touch. Spanking her butt...does little to be desired. She has started this thing after you tell her something and she makes this noise..HUH..so its like she is getting in the last word...It drives me crazy. It is so ugly! When she talks back or sasses me...I tell her "Little Girls do not talk like that". then if she doesn't stop I'll smack her mouth. I do not like screaming at her so I try to take a cue from Duggar family how you always see the Mom staying calm. I'm really trying that. You know that verse in the bible that talks about Love is patient love is kind..and so forth....whenever I catch myself losing it with her those words just pop up in my head and then I feel guilty... LOVE IS PATIENT JOIE.... ....Maybe I'll try time out or corner. at Amanda's she goes to the corner. I'll spank when it calls it but the first road to discipline will be a warning..corner..and then spanking!... Now I'll just get Jake on board. We both have been running ideas with each other as to what to do... sometime i just throw my hands up in the air and go..what do I do...either way..I understand she is 3 years old and her world revolves around her...and how dare I to not cater to her or give her everything she wants....that is how she thinks and sometime I need to stop and understand that..and ask myself..which battles mean the most...you have to pick your battles with this age..and I am having hard time doing so..
the funny thing with Sondra she can be in such a mood..and then 2 minutes later...she is happy and past whatever she didn't get. I love the girl so much. My favorite part of the day with her is before bed. We lay on my bed and I read a book or usually books to her... it always has to be at least one...but usually its 2 or 3. She loves the stories.
Word to the wise. I have learned in the past year or so to not parent other people's kids when they are right there. It is not your job-get their parents. Sondra has given me a very stressful weekend..and as you can imagine I heard low grumblings of people staring and I know what they were thinking- that girl needs her butt beat and what not... I'm their Mom..you better bet your gonna bite your tongue and stay out of it..b.c. Just as bad as I know she is- She is my girl and I know what a lovely she really is...and I'll hurt anyone who tries to say she isn't...i feel like I may just blow up on a unsuspecting rude person... she just has these big emotions and this personality that doesn't align with the obedient personality. and I like hearing the encouragement of people saying someday this will pay off and how she won't be a follower..and that stuff...but raising such a stubborn child...does take it's toll..
the bad words have slowed down... which I am thankful for.. she said one on Saturday..but I have heard her say it before I know where she has got that from. She got a adjustment and a reminder that other kids may say that but "WE" do not..
So..here is another reason why I won't win the mommy of the year award... so with Stuart I hold him a lot more than I did Sondra..if that is even possible.. but I let him play on the floor and stuff...but the other day..I sat him up just to see if he could..and low and behold.. he can sit up pretty good..which makes me wonder...how long he has been able to do that... lol... i hate that he is growing and doing new things...I want him to stay small forever he is such a good little boy..I'm hoping he is a mellow quiet kid unlike his sister...I need a break...
Sondra had her Christmas program at church on Sunday..she was very funny..she knew her part so well..but when the time came...she couldn't say it..mom told her to stand behind the other sheep and then she said it... my little lady is growing up!...
well Keep me and my family in your prayers... I'll update again this week ;)..
  

Shopping w/the Girls:)Modern Day family of Ms.WillyWonkas,GrouchyPoo& Nightmares on Elm St

Oh What a Long Weekend...

The shopping trip was great..I got some really cute things for Sondra...both kids got build a bears... Stuart a soft puppy... and Sondra a deer from that Rudolph cartoon..her name is Clarice. I can already see it now...Sondra will be setting Clarice around places and pretend to hunt her...the lady that made her asked if she was supposed to be soft or stuffed firm and I said well probably firm b.c she will be hunted by my 3 yr old daughter... lol...its going to be funny..my goal for the shopping trip was to find a new stroller for Sondra's babies..she really wanted one of those mini Graco strollers..the real one where the car seat hooks into like at Kari's... but I couldn't find it and on E bay and those places it was way too expensive..they must not make them no more...anyways..it was a big dilemma...she plays with her umbrella ones but she says she wants a "real" one..hmm... I finally settled for one I found at Target... its a pram one...decent on the price and looks "sturdy"... hopefully... I was able to get Sondra done..and most of my people done..It was such a fun time...my Sister and Sister in Laws are always a great time...and a new addition to the trip was my brother's girlfriend..which I loved..it was a great way of getting to know her :)... when my Mom said we were picking her up at her Dorm I thought this girl is insane..who would want to go shopping w/your boyfriends Sisters, and in laws, and his mother....no pressure or anything lol..---my favorite purchases from the trip would have to be the kid's hats...Stuart got a Mohawk hat..and Sondra got a Donkey hat! :) Both are too precious.>!

Saturday Morning..i woke up late..which I was mad at myself for b.c. I had Candy making... I got the kids their baths and dressed and then up to the church..I had to keep the kids contained while I helped make over 100 pounds of candy...fun :)..to my surprise...when I showed up at the church 15mins. late I find My Aunt Barb and Aunt Deb and My Mom there to make candy...lol.. I had moment of doubt of are we going to get this done...and then instantly I started texting people...my sis in law said she would be up there after she got home from town and my Aunt Denise was working but said she would be up too... and thats it... no one else... as we put in long hours..I thought to myself if everyone just came up for a few hours it wouldn't take so long...and what not..and then I thought maybe we shouldn't do this next year or if we do..people will sign up to be there or maybe groups will be in charge of the different candies b.c. its not fair or right that 6 people put in all the work..its disappointing that people just assume the candy will just make itself

While we were at the church my MIL came over from JR Wrestling meet to pick Sondra up and Sondra wasn't having it...i didn't think it would bother her to leave me but it did... Friday night she came and slept w/me and all day Saturday and Sunday..she was close by my side...so my MIL stayed for a little while and kept the kids entertained..and while she was there Sondra was playing with a toy and she looks up and was like "What the Hell is that??"... I snapped my head and pulled her to the bathroom and got some Vanilla...I put it into her mouth she spit it out..I didn't it again and made her drink it...she bauled...heh..I told her you don't say that..and asked where you said that..and she seriously says..Momma..You say that....I was about to commit murder in the house of God!!!..lol.. it just makes me so mad!...Not that I have never cussed or don't cuss...but I certainly do not do it in front of her...or at her or around her..I know she picks it up..ever since Oct..I don't even say Piss...we don't listen to the radio...we really try to keep her away from regular Tv...I just want to scream...and those funny questions of "where did she hear that Joie & Jake"...really we don't hardly ever talk like that...around her to boot!...so I think I may be sticking with Vanilla..she really didn't like that...i just thought...thanks Sondra use "what the hell is that" so naturally in front of My Mom and Jake's Mom...great!.. and then accuse me of saying it!...and people who think Vanilla would be sweet its not...it smells really sweet but actually is very bitter to taste!

Sunday she behaved so badly!...all day she was very moody..and ready to spar... she was ticked at the world. She was probably spanked multiple times..she even peed her pants..well really didn't get to the potty in time and I put a diaper on her and she tells me to get it off and that her butt was too big for the diaper.... on the way home from my parents she told us her old parents didn't spank her and she liked them better. We said we are her only parents and she says she wants to go live with her old parents...lol...my is my Angel...what can I say...people tell me that it only gets worse...lol.. great...
I know God would never give me something I can't handle..but sometimes I wonder out loud to God and ask why he trusts me so much with this little girl with such a big personality...and although Sondra makes me questions myself as a mother...I know being a Mom isn't supposed to be easy....if it was..everyone would be a great mother...

another thing that has been happening is Sondra has been having Night Terrors..not nightmares... She don't even wake up but she just screams....I can't get her woke up and all I think about is Nightmare on Elm St (thats my most scary movie to me) ...and when she talks it doesn't make sense. It makes me sick...I just pick her up and take her to my bed..and she doesn't sleep well for the rest of the night...she'll sit there and just moan or whimper...or the worst of all..she grinds her teeth..I absolutely don't know what to do...everyone says you can't do anything...but lord...I don't sleep when she has them..and to hear her..it breaks my heart...the only thing I have found out about them online...is it may be caused from not getting enough sleep... or a break in a routine...(me leaving for 2 days)..but she has had them before my trip also...

Also.. I talked about Sondra the whole time Stuart has been a little Angel...He is my Mellow Baby Chill.. he is energetic but mellow if that makes sense..when I walked into the door friday night he was in his vibrating chair and he sees me...gives me a big smile and starts moving and bouncing for me to pick him up out of his seat...that melted my heart!...I love it when he just smiles at me..I know he loves me:)...

So there you have it. this is me :)

Passing Notes-Funny Talk-The Road to Columbus:)

"I hate technology and the witchcraft that is the internet." - My BF Lace---and that is why I love her.. 
we have had some interesting and entertaining messages lately...i wonder what friends can talk like we do..so serious profound thoughts lol..and then make light of it all...if i ever murdered someone or hit the lotto...she'd be the first person I'd call to tell.. lol..she just gets me...
So I took the kids to McDonald's last night since it was my last night watching them...they were very funny and when I told them we were going- Medjina goes oh no Joie- its always a lot of money...or I started asking where we wanted to go...one says I love Texas Road House...I say..I was thinking a little more drive through..and Micheal goes there is Red Lobster lol... These kids must know me well...and my Favorite...Felineta says...I wanna go to China buffet..and with a Sad face says My Dad always took us there- she pulled the sympathy card?!...but after I explained I'm not a rich lady...we all agreed on McDonald's... with Me, Sondra, Madi, Berline, Medjina, Micheal, and Felinta total came to 28.28...holy heck!!!>.. almost 30 at McDonald's!...I have a new found appreciation for Their Mom/Sister Kari...I only spent a few hours a week with these kids..I'm not sure how she keeps her sanity with all the chaos that surrounds 5 kid's daily lives. My favorite from the past 12 weeks is they made fun of my accent...I would say things and they'd repeat them and laugh...and come to think about it I laughed at them and their accent...
I want to praise God for answered prayers this week... its so funny how he works...although it is not the all positive news- but we are happy! There is power in prayer and in numbers of people praying..so Pray for me over for Thursday and Friday..I'm going Christmas shopping!!! Safe travels to Columbus and great deals :)... I am my Grandma's Grand-daughter... this time of year reminds me of her so much..she loved Christmas. I am ready for a 2 day break from it all...yet.. I'm going to be a little IDK how to explain it... I'll be leaving Stuart for 2 days...all those Non-mothers its just silly I know to think..but oh man...when its your baby with Sondra too..I just miss them...I miss their smell their smiles..I miss Sondra's antics. Have I let my kids & husband define who I am...how couldn't I...I don't know who to be without them...or Jake either...Like I'll enjoy myself these 2 days...but at night..I'll think to myself and stay awake thinking how I wish I was home in my own bed..I was never like that till after I got married...I don't like sleeping other places nor do I like to sleep in my bed without Jake...
also mentioning praying for people - Pray for Jake..pray that Stuart will go to bed easily or pray that he don't fall out of our bed b.c. more than likely that is where he will end up...
Well I got to get going!!!!... I'll update...probably next week... until next time :) 

Short but an update!

Stuart did not want to go to sleep lastnight...so I finally got him out of bed b.c. I feared he may wake the sleeping giant (Sondra- you do not want to be around her when she wakes)...so I'm patting his back and started singing You are My Sunshine to him..and no joke he looks up at me and starts laughing..lol...I thought Stu I know I'm now American Idol but come on.. lol.. he is such a sweet heart..I finally gave up and just put him in his bed and listened to him talk for a while...
I'm excited for Thursday and Friday..My Mom and us girls are going on a shopping trip to Columbus... this year though I am going to pace myself and not worry about getting it all done in those 2 days...I know I won't be able to get it all done and I am just going to have to gradually get stuff still Christmas...
Tonight is my last night of babysitting! Its a love hate thing... I don't like the late night for my kids...but it has been so nice and fun getting to know my cousins...They have always been fun & entertaining. I have to say I'm going to miss seeing them on a regular basis.
So Friday night my Cousin Taylor couldn't go and get that movie... I was a bit bummed...I had originally planned on running to town that night...and by the time we got home Friday from friends it was so late that I thought why the heck not??.. lol..So I call up my Sister in Law Kayla...and she says she'll be ready and she'll pick me up...it was such a funny night... at first we thought we were the only two that were going to be in line but sure enough there was a lot of people... lol..I had such a great time! it just got us ready for this week! I will update again!... I am pressed for time! much more to talk about

when It All Falls down

My Body aches... I have been cleaning at work today...working in tank wash gets gross..I won't touch the bathroom..thats a No No. for me...I cleaned up the office and swept and organized some stuff..my boss was cleaning so I felt obligated lol...which made me think of the funniest story ever about working here... I hear a driver walk in and its this big big probably close to 400 pound man in bibs with no shirt underneath dancing in front of our counter with his own personal can of air freshener in his front pocket...and I look at him and get this..he goes where is bathroom darling... and that i why I don't clean the bathroom! being a secretary at the tank wash has many funny stories... we once had a regular transvestite driver come through ever few weeks...it was defiantly a him going to  a her... she had long purple hair and I'm guessing she had her boobs done...as far as everything else..I'm not too sure...but the guys couldn't keep a straight face in front of her so whenever they seen her coming They'd be "busy" ... Shim wore women's clothing..the tight flare jeans and all.. Shim told me purple was my color and that she can't wear purple b.c. of her hair ...lol.. recently we had our first hooker on tape come through...that was a bit exciting to watch the security camera... b.c. she came on 3rds and the lady took my lotion on my desk and used it... eeehh... when I seen that I covered it with antibacterial soap and cleaned it....
My Favorite drivers are the ones that come through every few weeks or months that aren't too comfortable to sit and talk 30minutes...
My job is never dull that is for sure. Being a secretary is very un-fulfilling but that is what I like. when I leave work- I don't bring it home with me... My real job is being a Mom and why I stay working is b.c. they offer retirement and I don't want to rely on only Jake's retirement..I want us to be able to retire and not have to work again although I don't see Jake ever sitting still... its not in his blood..Stuart acts just like him...constantly moving and always talking about something...Sondra..she acts a lot like her Dad too..
This week has been so long and tiring... getting no help in the morning makes me really really appreciate having Jake there but makes me really realize I work from the time I get up till the time my little ones are asleep...thats the difference from Men to Women.. When Men get off work they sit around and "help out" their wives..but its us who go to work..take care of the kids..try to keep the house clean..and laundry and all that...not that Jake doesn't help a lot..I just think its women who feel like they are responsible for it. Like when I sit down at night and look at our living room and its dirty..I just think this needs done that needs moved blah blah blah.. Jake.. he sits down and falls asleep watching his show... lol.. I wish I could have that ability...
 I don't know why I have been thinking about college lately..its not like I'm unhappy at work right now... I get in depressed moods about work..but things are good...I sometimes think what if I had gone to college?... I think some people are not made for college and some are..me.. I'm made to go to college...I like to be given a task and I like to complete it in a "orderly" fashion. That is just me.. So why didn't I go? I wanted a family really. Will I ever go? I can't say yes or no. Financially right now- we could not afford it. and I'm afraid by the time we ever could- we'll just have another thing to worry about and it will feel like its too late..ultimately it all boils down to priorities.. and my education is not one of them and that don't upset me..I always say me and Jake did it the wrong way...we should not have got married..but lived together and had Sondra & Stuart...then I could have gone to school for free..and qualified for WIC and all that great stuff...that may sound petty or bitter but how can someone not feel like that when you see so many do that...thats an attitude I do need to work on...its just sometimes hard...
I'm ready for this weekend... the new twilight comes out tonight..and I might go and take my cousin Tate..we have gone for the first 2 so it only seems right and who am I kidding..I want to see the movie too... and it would be good just to go b.c. I got stuff I need to get and I won't have time tomorrow to do it b.c. I got a pancake breakfast and a birthday party.. so I'll have stuff to report Monday if we do go..its always entertaining! :)...there are some people that dress up and everything...its so funny! welp I'll update later!

Christmas Crap- Sunday School, Nutty Walmart Trip

Oh week can't you move just a little bit faster!.. today has gone fast enough but man... I need the weekend... Jake has been hunting this week... I have gotten up with the kids and gotten them dress everyday this week. Last night Stuart was not sleepy so he didn't go to sleep till midnight.. so today has been a bit long..
I got the motivation to put up the Christmas tree at work..so that means..I'll be obligated to put mine up at home.. my little tree...I probably wouldn't even have a tree but my mom made me..lol.. that sounds sad...its not that I don't like Christmas..but getting it all decorated and all that makes me think..wow..in just a few weeks I'm going to have to clean this all up..
I'm really excited for Sunday School this week.. I made those salt dough ornaments and I'm going to have the kids paint and decorate them..and then they will be able to take them home to put on their tree. Lets hope more than just my kid is there. I want our Sunday School to grow... I want every Sunday kids and their parents to become a part of our church.  
This Saturday I am skipping wrestling and going to a pancake breakfast with friends and their kids... much needed time together....
I have got a lot of the Women's Fellowship Retreat planning done... got the majors done and I'll be meeting with our guest speaker tomorrow... I'm excited to talk with her and hear some ideas..and I'm excited to share my ideas... I'm praying all this comes together and everything turns out great... I am trying to finalize the schedule...
 so i take Stuart to the doctor and I tell her what is going on..and she tells me I'm sorry you brought him in and  all but I think he is just teething...why would someone apologize to me for not having a sick kid?? ...lol.. I said no problem..I already met my deductible this year! :)...Which thinking about it- I guess he could be even if there isn't any teeth coming through yet...it just seems odd to me... I know every baby is different but Sondra had 2 teeth come through without me even knowing it..and this kid is a fuss butt and no teeth are close to coming through... who knows..I busted out the teether and baby Tylenol and my little man is a drugged up happy little man lol.. lets hope he don't get hooked...Sondra already will need braces..I can't afford rehab too..
So Jake insisted yesterday that he would need throat spray and it couldn't wait..so I thought then I need to go to town..I was baby sitting the cousins and had it all planned out... I would drop Madi off at Bball..and then Me, Berline, Medjina, Michael, Felineta, Sondra, And Stuart would head to Walmart... at first thought I say to myself is.. am I nuts?..but really then I thought- people do it all the time... So Berline pushed Stuart in a cart..I had Sondra & Felineta in  a cart.. and Medjina & Michael held on to the sides of the carts...we looked a little chaotic..but it was doable...I remember getting what I needed and nothing else registered..we had a few near Shopping Cart Crashes but nothing too bad i would like to see the Walmart security systems and let me say I have never said no so many times in my life...Joie I want this..I want that.will you buy me this..why won't you..a nice baby sitter would buy me this..and Sondra's- My Grandma would buy me this..blah blah blah..... If I had to do it again..I could... But totally makes me rethink the whole 6 kids thing... In a simple world..I would have 6...in this world with these people and whatnots... I don't know..we'll see what God has in store for us..
Also today is December 1st and its snowing... it sucks I hate snow..but that is not what I was saying... where has the year went??? Its crazy that this year is just about gone.. its sad :(
Also the radio ban in the car is getting old... we have been listening to Sondra's Sunday School music... not that I don't like it but this girl can only sing a long with pre adolescent kids for so long. I do love to hear my little girl sing the songs though...its precious and makes me smile :)