BADMOM WEDDINFUN WEEKENDPLANS PEEP TOYS

I feel bad...even worst b.c. I laughed lol

again- I'll feel bad now but yes this can be a memory right????

MAN I AM SOOOO NOT GOING TO WIN THE MOTHER OF THE YEAR AWARD THIS YEAR....hhmmm... sooo... I'm trying to be a good mom and capture their lives...Jake and I even decided after getting a photobook last year of both the kids...we thought we should do it every year... its just important... they are nice to have... so after I got a 60% discount coupon for a online printing place I went at it.... and I have been patiently waiting for them in the mail this week..and lo and behold they are here!~.... I pull sondra's out... DAMN IT!!!!!.... on the cover it reads Sondra Ray Clum 6 Years...SHIT!... I look at the edge of outside..Sondra Ray 5....rrrrrrhhhh... look on her page that says then 5 years old...and her new picture now 6 years old ....holy hell!..how did I mix that up!.... I guess I shouldn't be surpised...when it was Stu's bday I put a status about he was turning 2 and my little girl was going to school and was 6....a friend that has a daughter the same age says...I didn't think Sondra was a whole year older than my girl ...lol shit... nope I had to reply..I'm just a bad mom and messed up her birthday!...crap..that must have been when I was doing these books too...silly me didn't go back and change it.... it caused me to laugh...and will continue to laugh..but does this mean Sondra Ray will hate me someday when she looks back through her books? lol...It is taking all that is within me to not reorder it b.c. we are on this save money kick....lifestyle and that would be wasteful...(see Jake- I am controlling myself).... See the photos... what do you guys think!..

Tonight! I am so excited for tonight~.... My cousin...okay long distance cousin Kari is getting married!.... and its not the traditional kind of wedding...its outside!!!! We are eating FIRST....and its wear Jeans kind of wedding!!!!...this is so my style!!! lol :) ....I love this lady..you know how you just love going to weddings...that was sarcastically speaking... well this one I really am happy and excited to go... This woman deserves to be happy... I'm so excited and happy for her and Tony!!!!...plus..she says she is my stalker on my blog...why wouldn't I mention her now? lol... Yay yay!...

which is weird talking about weddings b.c. I have another one in a few weeks...and again...its not like I don't want to go... it is my cousin on the Reffitt side... I'm not very close with a lot of my Reffitt cousins..not that I don't like them or anything like that..its just we didn't grow up together..like we got together at holidays but beyond that not a whole lot of seeing each other... but as we get older and Facebook helps too...but b4 FB I always look forward seeing her at family holiday get togethers ..we stay in touch more... but my Cousin Ashley is getting married... its exciting..I'm happy for her to finally settle down... plus I'd like to see her with a little baby bump too..she is dreadfully skinny she would be such a cute prego lady (that's a positive Ashley if you are reading)....

this weekend is packed full as usual weekends are during the summer... lets see lets see..tonight wedding...Saturday..I have to go shopping and start preparing some of the food for the kid's birthday dinners on Sunday.... then Saturday night is: Summerfest Fireworks in Spencerville....Sunday... HIS Home carry in dinner after church... then after church... I gotta get everything ready for the kid's birthday dinners!... Jake's parents and siblings are coming over to my parents for Sunday night dinner... instead of big parties for their bdays I just do a dinner... b.c. by the time I invite my parents and siblings and his parents and siblings we are up to 20...so I'm pretty sure this is the last year it will be for Sondra..b.c. I bet next year she will want to have a "real" party with her friends.... lol..wow..scary... I once upon a time ago was hoping to have their dinner at our "new" house...but still it has not been up on the market yet..but when it does I'll let you know.... anyways... here is the menu for their dinners:

Salisbury Steak
Corn on the Cob
Salad
fuit(tropical)
Mac & Cheese

Dessert:
Rachel's Cupcakes!

Drinks

Okay.. so after the past 2 weeks of having to have cake..I have been dessert ed out and looking at the menu its no small undertaking...and when I got a text from her saying is there anything I can bring.my first response was nope! its okay I can do this...then I told myself..why am I putting myself through so much when she went out of her way to ask me if she could help.... its not hard to help someone...for me its hard to accept help from someone...so I stopped and messaged her again..You convinced me could you make those cupcakes you are so good at making!lol....seriously they are like gourmet cupcakes..so good so good...sooo..either Rach will be happy that she is able to help me or...she just won't ever ask again if there is something she can do! lol

What else has been happening... I started on FB my new fancy smanshey page; "Jonelle Layne Images"...lol makes me laugh...I never wanted to start one b.c. I'm not a "professional" photographer..and I still am not..but I do consider it my hobby... I do consider it serious when I have a few people ask me or email asking if I can take their kid's or family's pictures and they offer to pay me...so heck ya...I'll put myself out there and see where I go....on question though is this: "What makes you a PROFESSIONAL photographer?"...

what else???... I JOINED TWITTER LOL....i've always been curious..but its just one more thing for me to check..but its intriguing.... I'm still learning but I'll let you know more when I know more...

here is my last sunday:

HCC Sanctuary 

SO as most of you know me...I don't do too much work...but a lot people worked while I avoided and hid..but it did turn out nice! lol :) 

so I did it too.. I finally got Stu a Buz Lightyear... look at his face... after seeing his reaction...that 40 bucks was worth it... probably still not to Jake..but man..look how proud and happy he is at the same time...now a lot lately he has been playing with his woody the cowboy too..maybe that was Stu's problem..not that he don't love Woody the cowboy..he just knew Buz was missing... :) ..Sondra I have yet to get her anything... I have asked Sondra what she wants and she goes on and on about stuff... I've asked her if she wants us to give her birthday money and we take her shopping... she likes that idea...I guess it just actually has to be decided upon...welp..I gotta get going! I gotta finish "editing" ( my photog lingo lol) My sister's in law's 17 week prego picture... I'll talk to you guys soon and really sorry about  the much long gap between posts... here is one parting gift... he may kill me someday for posting this:

Attitude

Okay seriously lol... he looks so girly here! lol..i sent this to his uncle Jordan..his reply..he looks gay! lol.. (I thought the same thing but wasn't going to say it out loud..he is 2 yr old little boy) But  apparently this pose he has seen from his sister...I call this the "ghetto Girl pose"...don't laugh lie or deny... every ghetto girl poses like this..I i may have some pictures like this..no one is to blame... lol :) have a wonderful weekend!

Take away my mother licence b4 its revoked

DISCLAIMER: THIS IS MY WEAK MOMENT- I DON'T NEED SOMEONE TELLING ME I SHOULD BE THANKFUL I HAVE CHILDREN OR ANY OF THAT- TRUST ME I AM SO THANKFUL TO BE ABLE TO BE THEIR MOTHER I JUST AM SHARING A WEAK MOMENT I'M THINKING/GUESSING EVERY WORKING BUSY MOTHER HAS HAD.

so people just days after I said I try and live the best I can and I take it day by day..I had a total melt down moment...I laugh now..but man was I upset... So as many hay makes know its been hay making season...so for Jake & my brother they have been busy...all last week Jake did not get home till after 11pm except for Wednesday night he got home 20 till 10. That means= I'm with our kiddos. Thursday morning he took our kids to their Aunt Mel's for the day then he went to work for a little while- and then left with his boss and some salesmen to go to a reds game to sit in the Diamond Seats(another story in itself)...and he would return home sometime Friday afternoon but had more hay duties to do after work..so another night with my wonderful angels lol :). so- Thursday at about 3pm..it just all came down on me...I had father Son banquet looming down on me- tons of running I needed to do..and I hadn't heard from Jake all day..and he calls me on his way home and I ask him  a few things...and when I got off the phone... lol..wait for it....I cried because i had to go pick my kids up and not have Jake there... I just..man...I was just upset...we hadn't seen him all week really.. the kids were really missing him...especially Stu.. He cries almost every morning when he sees his Dad leave to go to work... and Friday..just felt like they don't want to see me..they want their Daddy! They have a wonderful Daddy that they love to be around..he is fun..silly...adventurous...To Sondra Daddy does the fun stuff like helps her ride her pony plays with the sheep..all the farm stuff..while Mommy is usually watching her brother... anyways..you get it...I'm the constant boring one..Daddy is the shiny object that is like a vacation to them..

So then that night...I get the kids in bed after much drama with a biting incident that left a mark on my poor Stuart. I get a bath started... I lay back and I immediately cry because I realize what horrible mother I am to cry because I had to pick my children up. What mother does that? ...  that is all I got... I do want to add...My husband totally deserved to go on a little "manacation" but like I told him..I was just a bit jealous and had a very weak moment

I am very much stress free today with father Son banquet over but just wanted to share this funny/sad story with you real quick...stay tuned :)

My Lovelys 

Utter Joy/Am I really Living/WF/KillinMommy/Photo/Cows/Dash/funny

I'M GOING TO APOLOGIZE NOW..THIS BLOG REALLY JUMPS AROUND..ITS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN YOU SIT IN FRONT OF A TV WHILE WRITING....

Man  where have I been for almost a month? Sorry people.

Life lately has been utter joy not 24/7 but my life is at ease. It is amazing what happens when you are totally honest with yourself & with Life in general. When I said I was making some changes a few weeks ago I wasn’t kidding. It hasn’t been a overnight experience but little by little I’m getting better & better.

My children- my children… what can I say about them…their birthday photos are coming up!..I have a few ideas I hope to do but I also I need to get outfits picked out and all that fun stuff.

Life has been pretty busy lately. I feel like I try so hard to live with a purpose and at the end of the day I wonder what have I accomplished? These things that I am busying myself with...what am I doing? Am I really living? Living? Am I being authentic? Am I being a great person? When I reach the age when I know my days are dwindling down will I feel like I didn’t let it pass me by? Because that is how I have been feeling. I want to live a good life. Not making a whole bunch of money but I want to be the best honest person. I want to be a great wife to my husband and a good mother to my children. I want to be the best possible Christian that I can possibility be. How do I do that? I try to live each day passing day to my best ability. It’s the day to day that gets me. Its hard but somehow I have to try my hardest.  Does anyone know what I am feeling? 

So what has been happening. With women’s fellowship I have been planning the father son banquet which I took a big undertaking instead of doing a boring supper at the church I thought this year we should have a fish fry! Man it is a lot of work. I think I have most of everything covered but just need the hands to finish the plans. I’m also planning for this Women’s fellowship year concerning the meetings. We thought it would be fun for each month to have themes at our meetings. The first month will be: “Tops, Tea, and Tubs” = Big Hats, Tea Party, and also a Tupperware party. It should be fun right? For Christmas it will be “Ugly Christmas Sweater” Meeting and so on. Each month will be a fun night of dressing up and having fun with the ladies.  I am excited!

Stu spends a lot of time here

My kids! I swear their mission is to break me. As much as I try or think I am doing things right they beat me down. When I reread that last sentence I see these 2 big bad kids beating on a weak little lady but really they are just kids being kids....I try and be consistant but I’m falling short. Sometimes it is just easier to give in. Sometiems I yell- I hate that. I am trying to control my cool and act slowly. I am thankful just to have these kids its amazing miracle. A lot lately I just look at my Sondra and think to myself: who is this creature? How did this beautiful strong willed child come from? Is she really half of me? And Stuart..oh my. He is a boy wonder. He never stops and fears nothing it seems. Last weekend at the Clum get away my Sister in law made it all make sense. He is a baby Jack Ass. Lol… you know that show Jack Ass where they do all kinds of stupid things being dared or just doing things that can hurt them. That is Stuart. By each passing day he climbs higher stuff and jumps farther down for enjoyment. He will have a broken bone soon I’m sure.

My camera before my Nikon ...started it all :) 

My photography life is growing. To think it started with a cheap purple Kodak camera that a cheap Mom thought she would take her kids photos so that she wouldn’t have to pay the big bucks for memories. It grew and is growing now. From taking Sondra & Stu’s photos now to my neice and nephews and even my Sister In law Kayla I am capturing her growing 4 babies in her belly. I am so happy that I have the tools to take nicer photos. Next week I am going to take photos of some of my cousins and their Mom offered to pay me. My 1^st Paying customer? Neat huh? Hopefully I won’t let me down. 

these 2 are pure trouble

Does anybody remember seeing pictures of those 2 cute calfs we were going to feed out and butcher for meat...well thank you Jesus its finally time and we dropped them off at Keystone Tuesday. I am such a horrible person and when we were looking at them Monday before we took them I told them to live their live to the fullest and laughed lol...and then Sondra yesterday morning asked where her Dad was dropping off TightRope and Chip at? After telling her Keystone to be slaughtered and cut up into meat so we can eat- she said I don't like meat I want hamburgers Mom... lol... yes hamburger too... this morning she asked where is all the meat at that daddy butchered the cows at... lol...I thought she was my fast one..I explained the whole process and that someone else does it. She seems to be getting it... I am so happy though we have finally finished feeding them out- and I won't have to worry about getting meat at the store and I know where this meat is coming from. I am thankful that my husband was smart enough to see the need and pushed for us to get these b.c. I wasn't too cracked up on the whole idea!...but now we have a couple pigs we are raising for meat and some laying  chickens that we are going to butcher some of those too b.c. we ended up getting so many chicks. I'm so thankful Mom & Dad are letting us keep everything at their farm...

TightRope & Chip(Sondra's Names) or what everyone else liked to call them: steak & hamburger

House News- Well we should be able to see the house on the 15th. Please pray.  Its kinda crazy to get money around for a down payment and put all your chips on a property when you haven't even looked inside it or know it is livable. and I don't care if it is or not... I would like for it to be livable and then build on what we need. If it isn't livable we may start from scratch and build a pool barn house thing kind of like my parents but much smaller. Of the 2 I'd rather build on to a house...I'm not really sure what Jake would prefer we have just discussed those are the options... i'm one of those people I don't even want to think about it or talk about it and make plans and get excited..b.c. I don't' want to be let down..but really why? when I drive up my parents lane I'm already looking at it and thinking that's my "forever" Home, I'm going to do this and that...I'll be honest..I'm going to be crushed if that property don't work out... its perfect I envision many cook outs and children running around. SO please keep us and the opportunity on your prayer list. Our goal was to be there by school..well that isn't happening since it has taken so long for it to be ready to be put on market...but we will see the 15 what we are dealing with and hopefully make a offer that day when we walk through it...  hopefully they accept and then we can tell the kids- we are moving!!!!... then you know what comes next... a dog! That is one thing I have promised Sondra...after Stu was born we got rid of Piper the puppy Jake not so smartly thought we needed and brought home..Sondra was heart broken..but ever since then- I have promised her the day we move we will get you a puppy... (I'm kinda excited about that too!) 

Tonight is the first night of my church's bible study over James... I'm pretty excited! I've done my reading and filled out my book. I'm liking the new direction the bible study is going.. we are back into the bible instead of the purpose driven book but we still have a book(http://www.christianbook.com/life-lessons-the-book-of-james/max-lucado/9781418509569/pd/509566) to accompany the book of James...so If you are interested in  coming go ahead...Free Babysitter, great company, and a great teacher Jim Harrod. 

Sondra, Bryce, & Ainsley

White Trash Class Clum Klan Before the Warrior Dash

This past weekend was such a great weekend...Jake, His parents, brother, Brother in law, Sister and assorted uncles and cousins and spouses ran the warrior dash... its a 3.8 mile obstacle course...their outfits was white trash which was funny :)... besides that we all stayed at a "lodge"...=a house that had room for all of us. It was so much fun...I loved Sondra and Stu running wild with their cousin Bryce... memories.. and loved passing Ainsley around from person to person.. she has grown in leaps and bounds and won't be surprised if the next time i see her she is walking..she is already couch surfing.. she is so rolly pooly I love it... she reminds me of Sondra...it was nice to actually feel like I was getting "away" for the weekend..which is great b.c. we all decided we are getting together again in September like we did this weekend...

Mr. Knoxville doing something not so smart!

I'll leave you with this last funny which anybody I have told has laughed out loud about....So me and Sondra are in the car... I am letting her ride in the front seat... a little preface: I have broken out on my chin which every month hint hint I tend to get a zit here or there...anyways..so she looks at me and goes Momma...I say ya Sondra... you know you need some proactive... (what did she just say to me?..in my mind)...what hunny? ...she points to her chin making a circular motion... you need some proactive ...I innocently say..well why Sondra? ...continues her chin pointing circular motion on her face.. because mom you got something going on....what Sondra what do I have going on... you have a outbreak on your chin mom.... lol...  I reply how do you know about proactive (she has a aunt or 2 that swear by it maybe she has seen them use it)...her reply- well MOM I'VE SEEN THE COMMERCIALS!.... my reply..Sondra that isn't very nice that hurt my feelings you shouldn't say things like that sometimes people don't like to have other people point out their imperfections (you little sometimes bed wetting bitch in my head of course I don't mean it LOL)....

So there it is ...Hopefully it won't be so long before I update! 

Love you guys and seriously- keep my family and house situation in your prayers..I would really appreciate it...