Wow… a lot has been going on…one of the most exciting
things:
Rick & Kayla had their babies! J
Saying that is somewhat of a bittersweet line…
Last Thursday I received a text from my Mom saying that Baby
D(Trenna Faith) had died and that the doctors would keep close watch on the
other three and Mom would let me know if they decide to deliver the other
three. As soon as I read it I shed a few
tears. Why? Why after 29 weeks she wouldn’t make it. Having 2 nurses in my immediate
family I have been told and reminded that Baby D might not make it. Or Baby D
could have some health problems with the recent problems she was having. But
still you don’t believe that. You believe everything will just work out. You do
that- b.c. if you think about the “bad” stuff then…its actually true….But in
this case it didn’t work. My second thought was: its probably for the best.
There had to be reasons that God chose to take her early. Reasons I don’t know
what they are but I know I necessarily don’t like them…BUT I don’t know God’s
reasoning and I will never understand God’s reasoning. But it is HIS perfect
will that is done and not mine. And when I get to heaven- I’ll surely know my
Little Niece that left us before she even really got to be her and before I got
to spoil her rotten.
One thing though- I’m really proud of Rick & Kayla. In
the beginning it was suggested they eliminate baby D ….(BABY KILLIN’
ABORTION)…but they refused. And being a ProLife supporter I’m proud that they
put Trenna in God’s hands and not man’s.
On Sunday I was FINALLY able to go see the Babies!...I was
so excited…Jake had to keep telling me and Sondra to slow down when we were
walking in. I just wanted to see them!!!...as we met Rick in the hallway he
said Trenna was in the room… hmm.. My first response was that’s okay!...Not
thinking about Sondra’s questions but just thought when she questions we will
answer. I know she doesn’t absolutely comprehend death- maybe she could learn
something. She wasn’t one bit shy. After I held her for a few minutes Sondra
came over and wanted to hold her and she did… Sondra held her a lot. She asked
me a few questions..some I could answer..Others I asked her to ask Kayla..Which
Kayla answered when she came back from the nicu. I was very surprised at how
open and accepting Sondra was to hold her. It was though very hard to explain
the whole- this is just her body she is dead- Trenna is in Heaven. Which
Thursday when I told Sondra Trenna had died her first response was: Grandma
Sondra is probably holding Trenna right now! And burping her! So I know she
gets the concept you go to heaven- but on Sunday holding her was a bit
confusing but by the end of the day- I think she had a better understanding of
it.
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| Sondra holding Miss. Trenna Faith Reffitt :) |
I’m honestly not sure how exactly I would handle losing a
baby. Whether it breathed 1000 breaths or not a single one- I know it would
hurt me. I meant I often cry or get teary eyed probably once a month over a horse that I never actually had a conversation with. Mystery was a stinking animal but I still get sad every now and then so I'm not really sure how I would take losing a child.....I think Trenna’s parents
are doing fine and they are holding on to 3 precious little babies right now
and I feel like they are helping them get through it.
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| Miss. Braylee Layne Reffitt |
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| Mr. Cohyn Edward Reffitt |
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| Miss. Mataya Kathleen Reffitt |
It was so fun going back to the Nicu and seeing the
triplets. Touching each one and almost feeling important having Kayla saying
you want to touch such and such or take a few pictures first. Hearing each one’s
progress and what is going on with them….I just can’t till we get to hold
them..and pose them to take pictures lol... Please keep Rick & Kayla and the babies on your prayer list...this will be a long journey of getting them home!
On too more exciting news but not as exciting as the Reffitt Triplets....the house
Jake and I are to be blessed with generous jobs... Jake was able to take off Tuesday through Friday off. When he came up to work on Tuesday he said you should think about taking a few days off this week to help get work done at house...So I asked my boss and was able to use 3 days of my vacation. and Let me tell you what...man!...we got a lot done!... I got the Kitchen wood paneling painted..decided upon wallpaper for top part (I am not ripping and chipping of the layers of wallpaper that I tried to paint over and failed b.c. it bubbled up really bad)..Living room- got painted..new windows framed & Stained..I STILL need to paint the trim in the room & carpet still needs to be installed...I'm really putting it off I hate to paint trim... Our bedroom: was painted the closet slash lookey out to living room hole has been covered with paneling..the new window framed and stained..and the second window repainted..I STILL need to paint the trim in that room too and new carpet installed... Upstairs: Stuart's room is painted..I still need to paint his ceiling and his window will need trimed and stained and new carpet installed... Sondra's room- got the painting done plus ceiling too.. Got her chalkboard wall done too..I'm thinking it will need a 3rd coat..and her window and chalkboard will need stained and trimmed..carpet needs installed also.. The bathroom has the most work to be done it in..they are replumbing everything and replacing everything..that is really our biggest hold up as of right now!... Please pray this moves faster..I'm ready to live there..
welp I have a lot to do!..I must get going! Until next time!
Love,
Me..
