A few weeks ago I started having some tail bone pain..like if I sit on a hard chair/bench/ or long periods of time its a bitch just to stand up..walking up stairs..major pain...it felt like I had fallen and bruised it. But I hadn't fallen at all and hurt it... when I had a check up the nurse asks all those questions and usually I don't say anything b.c. its usually so minor and not worth mentioning... well I did at my last appointment and my doctor tells me its the baby causing that. There isn't no "cures" but told me a few things to try and I'll have relief once the baby is here....WHAT?... that's in 2 months!... lol... Now this week I have started to have pelvic pain... like mostly on the left side at my panty line... I really think its from sitting with my right leg underneath me...but I stopped doing that and it still hurts a couple days after -all the time...I'm walking real slow right now... Please pray for my broken down body...I don't even bother with taking Tylenol seems like it doesn't even touch it so why take it........ pray February 24 comes soon...
I also did survive the 2 day shopping trip with my family: Mom, Deb, Barb, Jessy, Kayla, Melissa, Brittany, and Me went :) oh how could I forget our chauffeur Uncle Dave...it was a fun couple days that resulted into getting Christmas shopping done... a lot of food ate...and a lot of cackling of laughter... We even Met My friend Andrea for dinner the first night at Red Lobster :)..too bad Joel was stuck back at the hospital....
I am so excited for the kids to open up their presents...I'm even more excited for the trampoline Santa is bringing for our family....aka Mommy's trampoline... I've really wanted one and we by chance got one Black Friday... so exciting!!...I can't wait for it to warm up so we can set it up.. I thought Stuart would be super easy to buy for...but he was my "harder" one this year..I had all of Sondra's presents bought even before going on the trip...of course...I bought her more which in turn made me have to buy more for Stuart... Girls are so easy to buy for... Shania even got a few things... all horse related of course... that was my reasoning...but there are horses on it..I just have too... :)....I encouraged Jessy to buy away on clothes too..since you know... Shania is getting her girl's handy me downs... lol....
Stuart today...I'm not looking forward to picking him up today at daycare..I know he probably got in trouble today... It was PJ day and so the only pair of matching ones I had at the moment clean are Power Ranger ones... He asks Mommy what are those..I say they are like Ninjas...instantly his leg flings out and nails me right in the tummy... I said Stuart! No That hurts Mommy/Baby..you can't kick me... instantly he starts to sniffle and have crocodile tears...and he just started to crumble...I pull him in and he just cries... he just got really excited...I felt bad to see him so hurt..I know he didn't mean it...when he left like always he comes gives me a hug and kiss and then hugs my belly and kisses it..and this morning he said Sorry baby... :).. he has such a gentle heart....although.. he don't always show it..but today I'm sure he went wild since he had power ranger pj's on and he is playing ninja!
Here is a funny- Sondra has a hard time getting up in the morning... like..she is her father's daughter... Jake has to dress her...Stuart is better at getting dressed in the morning... I have just had it this week..the girl is 6 years old she should be dressing herself... well- My solution for this... yesterday when she got home I got her clothes for the next day and made her practice getting dressed... Amazing thing this morning...she got herself dressed...lol.... if it continues it will be great if it does not... She will keep practicing!
Welp! I must be going... :)
Thursday, December 19, 2013
Tuesday, December 3, 2013
Best Friends/lotzKIDlove/Endw/FUNNIES
Its been too long- I'm sorry! or maybe you are welcome... not everybody wants to hear my crazed train of thought or my sappy thoughts all the time..or any of the time I'm sure...that is why I blog... its a choice..you want to know what is going on with me...go ahead and follow the link... :)
So first and foremost... pray for Jake & I's friends: Joel & Andrea Schwartz plus their kids Cara and Connor... Joel is currently in the hospital in Columbus... this past week it was touch and go and thankfully he is recovering and will prepare to fight a battle with cancer... a lot has happened that I couldn't possibility be smart enough to detail. Just know Joel is a great guy with such a kind heart- and his wife..well this past week or so she has held that family together like glue..she is a strong women...I'd take her into any struggle battle by my side :)...love that family... although its been a little tough b.c. Jake was friends with both of them before we dated..and me and Andrea have became best friends and through this all- I've been the one to stay home with the kids... I struggle with I really really need to be there..and the other end is..I really really need to be a constant in our kids life's when their Dad is away...and then there is this crazy about me that I just miss my kids...
I don't know how Andrea has held up or Joel not being able to be with their kids.... We went and visited them in the hospital in Columbus 2 days in a row and the first night they ended up staying the night with Jake's Sister and husband..."unexpectedly" but was glad they could b.c. we wouldn't be home till midnight..and then the second night I said Yea just have them stay..but as soon as Grandpa Clum left with the kids- I cried... lol...I know... Jake came home and probably thought what the hell is the matter now???....She is upset that she isn't at the hospital and "stuck" with the kids...and Now she is upset that she isn't with her kids....I'm crazy...I am certifiably crazy... I am... self aware...
next order of business..."My Girls".... ahh.. I love saying that... I am so excited and will gush right now for the love of Miss. Shania...and for the love of being able to say "My Girls".... all you mothers of boys and don't want girls-- go ahead reassure your self that...there is nothing like taking a little lady shopping... or doing the princess stuff...or the tomboy stuff... Sondra is a lot like me when I was young...I loved babies and dresses...but I'd be riding my horse in a dress covered in dirt...me and Kristin invading my brother Jordan's fort... the life of a tomboy.. how could I help it?. I just can't help it... I always wanted Sondra to be a girl..I wanted a girl first..after I got at least one..I was at peace!... but then Stuart came along..someone or rather a gender I really wasn't interested in having..he has melted my heart even though he isn't the "traditional" Momma's boy...just in the privacy at our home...now if we are anywhere else..its Daddy, Uncle& and Grandpa...not Mommy....
When Sondra came along I had this big "job" to raise a young lady or perfect lady or so I thought.. but Stuart gives me much different goals and ambitions for him- I want him to be strong but gentle- not just respectful to everyone but especially to women..I want him to take care of his wife and be a awesome Dad.. so many things..I want him to be the "perfect husband"..which I know he won't be but I hope he strives to be that for some special lady someday... and especially all my kids- I don't want them to be like their Momma and follow the crowd as a teenager or at times lead the crowd into some stupid things..but be different...I think its very possible to be different and not be socially awkward.......many things that I need to instill now so hopefully they decide later on their own to follow their upbringing..... big job big job.. its daunting...
My family took a little road trip last night and after the kids went to sleep I explained to Jake that after him being gone like he has been lately I have realized that you know what is is going to matter if My kid doesn't finish his plate or has dessert for dinner?... What is it going to matter if they are running wild and having so much fun and really its just hurting my ears?..more or less- I just needed Jake to listen to me talk- b.c. I don't have the authority like he does to my kids..I'm their Momma..they test me much more or really more often... maybe needed him to just listen and not so much "disagree" with me...he was wise and kept quiet :)
we have been lax parents..somethings are non-negotiable..but especially to me..I don't look for ways to tell my kids no...I'm not all about "sensitivity to their self esteem shit" & trophies for all..I meant kid's self esteem is a important part but not the only part...but I'm not a hard core parent that its my way or the highway..line in the sand...But there are times I struggle with am I too lax.. or when I'm trying to be firm about something- and I second guess myself and say- are we doing the right thing here... Will I look back in 15-20 years and think... why would I do that??.. just thoughts I guess
I wonder how Shania will be... I'm afraid a wild women like Sondra- but Shania is much more wild here lately..she kicks up a storm.. to the point i wake up at night and just feel her craziness..I can't imagine much more... one thing I liked hearing Jake say..the other day..he says hopefully Shania comes our with a head of dark hair!... I think I'm converting him to my dark ways..lol.. I was a bit disappointed when Sondra was born..Sondra had dark hair for about a day or 2 and then it was gone and then for the 1st year I had a blue eyed blonde hair baby..that I could not come to terms with..lol..thankfully her eyes darkened and her hair some too...but Sondra is Sondra...Dark eyed light hair little gal... she is a beautiful little girl that has a lot more of me in her than I ever knew...
I'm thinking all these parenting thoughts and wants and desires for them amount to Shania's impeding arrival... and impeding isn't till February lol... but I worry or anticipate for our family dynamic to change..I stressed or over thought Stuart's arrival..I wanted Sondra to meet her brother first..and very much the same when Shania arrives..my SIL will be picking the kids up and bringing them up to the hospital...its just... small matters to other people but to me I think its important...but yes..all these thoughts here today..have inadvertently ran together in my mind these past few weeks since I have last wrote...
funny Sondra story: our Sunday school is going to the nursing home to sing to Christmas songs...Sondra asks me in the car "Mom when am I going to the funeral home to Christmas carol?"...lol..no its nursing home Sondra...No mom its the funeral home... lol...no the funeral home is where they take people that have died...OHHHH okay Mom....
Stuart story:...on Sunday I was telling Mom about how Stu never seen teenage mutant ninja turtles but was obsessed with them... finally I downloaded a season on my kindle and he has been in love... but as Stu walks through and Mom goes so Stu are you a ninja turtle man?...which what came out sounding was: "Nope I a titty man"..... which he was saying "Nope I a kitty Man"... which we both agreed we knew some other "Kitty/Titty men" too...lol.... funny business and please don't ask him if he is a titty man...he doesn't know what that means..
I'll be writing again "soon"....not knowing the true meaning of soon... :)
Love,
Me
So first and foremost... pray for Jake & I's friends: Joel & Andrea Schwartz plus their kids Cara and Connor... Joel is currently in the hospital in Columbus... this past week it was touch and go and thankfully he is recovering and will prepare to fight a battle with cancer... a lot has happened that I couldn't possibility be smart enough to detail. Just know Joel is a great guy with such a kind heart- and his wife..well this past week or so she has held that family together like glue..she is a strong women...I'd take her into any struggle battle by my side :)...love that family... although its been a little tough b.c. Jake was friends with both of them before we dated..and me and Andrea have became best friends and through this all- I've been the one to stay home with the kids... I struggle with I really really need to be there..and the other end is..I really really need to be a constant in our kids life's when their Dad is away...and then there is this crazy about me that I just miss my kids...
I don't know how Andrea has held up or Joel not being able to be with their kids.... We went and visited them in the hospital in Columbus 2 days in a row and the first night they ended up staying the night with Jake's Sister and husband..."unexpectedly" but was glad they could b.c. we wouldn't be home till midnight..and then the second night I said Yea just have them stay..but as soon as Grandpa Clum left with the kids- I cried... lol...I know... Jake came home and probably thought what the hell is the matter now???....She is upset that she isn't at the hospital and "stuck" with the kids...and Now she is upset that she isn't with her kids....I'm crazy...I am certifiably crazy... I am... self aware...
next order of business..."My Girls".... ahh.. I love saying that... I am so excited and will gush right now for the love of Miss. Shania...and for the love of being able to say "My Girls".... all you mothers of boys and don't want girls-- go ahead reassure your self that...there is nothing like taking a little lady shopping... or doing the princess stuff...or the tomboy stuff... Sondra is a lot like me when I was young...I loved babies and dresses...but I'd be riding my horse in a dress covered in dirt...me and Kristin invading my brother Jordan's fort... the life of a tomboy.. how could I help it?. I just can't help it... I always wanted Sondra to be a girl..I wanted a girl first..after I got at least one..I was at peace!... but then Stuart came along..someone or rather a gender I really wasn't interested in having..he has melted my heart even though he isn't the "traditional" Momma's boy...just in the privacy at our home...now if we are anywhere else..its Daddy, Uncle& and Grandpa...not Mommy....
When Sondra came along I had this big "job" to raise a young lady or perfect lady or so I thought.. but Stuart gives me much different goals and ambitions for him- I want him to be strong but gentle- not just respectful to everyone but especially to women..I want him to take care of his wife and be a awesome Dad.. so many things..I want him to be the "perfect husband"..which I know he won't be but I hope he strives to be that for some special lady someday... and especially all my kids- I don't want them to be like their Momma and follow the crowd as a teenager or at times lead the crowd into some stupid things..but be different...I think its very possible to be different and not be socially awkward.......many things that I need to instill now so hopefully they decide later on their own to follow their upbringing..... big job big job.. its daunting...
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| I pinned this a while ago but came across it and this is what I want... |
My family took a little road trip last night and after the kids went to sleep I explained to Jake that after him being gone like he has been lately I have realized that you know what is is going to matter if My kid doesn't finish his plate or has dessert for dinner?... What is it going to matter if they are running wild and having so much fun and really its just hurting my ears?..more or less- I just needed Jake to listen to me talk- b.c. I don't have the authority like he does to my kids..I'm their Momma..they test me much more or really more often... maybe needed him to just listen and not so much "disagree" with me...he was wise and kept quiet :)
we have been lax parents..somethings are non-negotiable..but especially to me..I don't look for ways to tell my kids no...I'm not all about "sensitivity to their self esteem shit" & trophies for all..I meant kid's self esteem is a important part but not the only part...but I'm not a hard core parent that its my way or the highway..line in the sand...But there are times I struggle with am I too lax.. or when I'm trying to be firm about something- and I second guess myself and say- are we doing the right thing here... Will I look back in 15-20 years and think... why would I do that??.. just thoughts I guess
I wonder how Shania will be... I'm afraid a wild women like Sondra- but Shania is much more wild here lately..she kicks up a storm.. to the point i wake up at night and just feel her craziness..I can't imagine much more... one thing I liked hearing Jake say..the other day..he says hopefully Shania comes our with a head of dark hair!... I think I'm converting him to my dark ways..lol.. I was a bit disappointed when Sondra was born..Sondra had dark hair for about a day or 2 and then it was gone and then for the 1st year I had a blue eyed blonde hair baby..that I could not come to terms with..lol..thankfully her eyes darkened and her hair some too...but Sondra is Sondra...Dark eyed light hair little gal... she is a beautiful little girl that has a lot more of me in her than I ever knew...
I'm thinking all these parenting thoughts and wants and desires for them amount to Shania's impeding arrival... and impeding isn't till February lol... but I worry or anticipate for our family dynamic to change..I stressed or over thought Stuart's arrival..I wanted Sondra to meet her brother first..and very much the same when Shania arrives..my SIL will be picking the kids up and bringing them up to the hospital...its just... small matters to other people but to me I think its important...but yes..all these thoughts here today..have inadvertently ran together in my mind these past few weeks since I have last wrote...
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| I felt loved Sondra at school picked me to be thankful for- but loved she gave me a perky rack and rockin' gray hair w/purple highlights...even she knows her Momma will age gracefully or is this how she sees me now..I'm 26 yrs old kid..I don't have gray hair!!!!!! lol..I should have asked |
funny Sondra story: our Sunday school is going to the nursing home to sing to Christmas songs...Sondra asks me in the car "Mom when am I going to the funeral home to Christmas carol?"...lol..no its nursing home Sondra...No mom its the funeral home... lol...no the funeral home is where they take people that have died...OHHHH okay Mom....
Stuart story:...on Sunday I was telling Mom about how Stu never seen teenage mutant ninja turtles but was obsessed with them... finally I downloaded a season on my kindle and he has been in love... but as Stu walks through and Mom goes so Stu are you a ninja turtle man?...which what came out sounding was: "Nope I a titty man"..... which he was saying "Nope I a kitty Man"... which we both agreed we knew some other "Kitty/Titty men" too...lol.... funny business and please don't ask him if he is a titty man...he doesn't know what that means..
I'll be writing again "soon"....not knowing the true meaning of soon... :)
Love,
Me
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