The count down is on for this Mommy- I am so ready for Shania's arrival.....yet- emotionally I'm not... Make sense? I have hugged, loved, cuddled, held even when it hurts Mr. Stu just to soak up his last days of "the baby"... Sondra seemed so much more mature or independent when Stu was coming...not so much Stu... its odd... I'm sure I have said it before but I'm interested...fearful...ready for our family dynamic to change...things change when you add family members...I wonder how it will be... I'm excited to deliver Shania and to have those first precious moments of a little family together...then introduce her to her Big Sister & Big Brother...I know Sondra will be a MommaBear...And Stuart..I'm not sure...I ask him how he will hold his sister and he shows me but then says I will throw her too....yet he gives his baby hugs and kisses (on my belly) every time we depart it seems.... lol...his reaction to all this or his settling in will be interesting...
I have been having Braxton hicks but last weekend and this week they are actually starting to not feel so good...which is kind of exciting because I never was able to experience "true" labor so it's cool to actually identify what was going on...
When I found out I was pregnant I put a count down on my phone... Each time I looked at it I thought man that is so far away but now each time I look at it ... I get scared! lol not that I can't handle a baby but it seems so long ago since Stu... I'm not sure how it is to have a newborn in the house again..
In true fashion when something important is about to happen one of my children get some type of infection.. A few weeks ago Stu had fifths disease and Monday when I picked him up from daycare I notice some spots on his face.. We take him to doc Tuesday night sure enough the doc prescribed a tube of Bactroban to treat his impetigo ... Deep breaths deep breaths... At least I have a big new tube of Bactroban to supply to my dirty adventurous children and the AE wrestling team... :)
My last week of work is going slowish then fast.. I think in ready to deal with a crying newborn then some overgrown children... Does that make sense? I feel like I got some more stuff to get done but yet my fill in aunt misty will do just fine... I feel like this time around I have "bigger" responsibilities for a job and want her to be prepared.
At times I feel like I'm going to die... Each time I stand up I feel like I gotta pee or I feel like this babe is about to pop out but yet my doc says she is head down but I'm "closed" whhhaat closed? I can't be which makes me wonder how much she will weigh just bc I have so much pressure .... Sondra was a 9 pounder .... Stu was a 7lb 8ozer ... I wonder if my babies will get smaller with each one of maybe I'll just have "big" girls which would make no stinkin sense at all...
Sondra has been especially excited for Monday...The other night when I said Brittany will pick you up from school and bring you up to the hospital... she says Mom..Can I hold her first before Stuart?..lol... Of course hunny.... (b.c. Stuart isn't as jazzed as you are about a sister).....so that's the plan... My C/S is scheduled for Noon.... My SIL is bringing the kids up about a hour and half later..and they are meeting their Baby Shania. Then let the visitors come :)...
Sondra is growing up..I mean growing up... this week she wanted to tell me something but we were in front of Jake & Stu..and I say what?? and she says- I'll wait..I need to tell you in private...my brain starts racing.. Oh my goodness what could it be... then once she tells me it was out of the blue...she says Mom: what if people make fun of me when I get a adopted brother?..... I'm not sure what it brought it up..we have talked we hope to adopt in a few years after Miss. Shania..maybe her impending arrival has made her think of this..but why??? and why did she need to ask me this privately? so grown..also yesterday we are doing laundry at my parents and she changes into a tank top and shorts and tennis shoes and begins making laps around the house running jumping everywhere... when asked what all of it was about she replied she needs to exercise b.c. she is so big and tall....also she says some of her friends are a lot skinnier than her..even their Mom is skinnier than her... gggrr...so if your related...or see Miss regularly..please don't mention or anything about her attributes... lol... I'm thinking about how to approach this skillfully... We insisted she was just right and everyone is different and it doesn't matter... but this "discussion" isn't over between Mother & Daughter...
One thing though..I am not looking forward to the whole C/Section part...I don't even know how to explain it...its so...uncomfortable..not painful..but just awkward... I'm ready to get it over with...I don't look forward to the recovery either...its a painful first few days..but I'll get through it!...its all worth it in the end..
My weekend???.. Friday I have my 10 year Anniversary...lol...Saturday actually marks 10 years...but its been 10 years since I so boldly talked to Mr. Clum and advised him he should call me to hang out sometime... this time of year is always sentimental and gooey for me :)...at the time my math teach/Wrestling coach gave me the paper to jot my number down..which turns into my brother in law which makes me laugh.. I asked for it and he says WHO??..I said Jake Clum..then he goes oh okay!... a few years later.. Jake comes over to Allen East to help coach...whose the greatest matmaid of all time...this girl in my opinion lol :)....SO!...how are we celebrating our 10 year meeting?...lol..Well Jake will be at districts all weekend while I go out to a nice dinner with My Sister & best friend Andrea on Friday... lol... :)...no kids nothing..I'm excited...and then Jake will get home late Saturday night and on Sunday we will be doing "last" minute things ending with Sunday Dinner..then..Shania comes Monday..wow... its kinda of funny... on our wedding anniversary in June we got to have our first ultrasound and Shania's arrival is right after our "10 year"....
So Please if you could send prayers up for a safe delivery a fast recovery...and a pleasant "acceptance" from my kids for Shania's arrival in the family.. :) - see you on the other side!
