Wednesday, October 20, 2010

All is invited to Jonelle's Pity Party...Its my Party...I'll Cry if I want too...

I have had a lot on my mind... one...i hate one uppers...i may even be guilty of this..but I'm really going to be self conscious about this... and a one upper is a when you tell somebody something and they have to respond tell you how they did that better or how something all together better... IDK..you get it though right... or you get my annoyance with it...
So Jake has open mats tonight which I'm starting to dread this time of year... this time of year when wrestling starts to begin... don't get me wrong Wrestling fans...I love my AE Mustang's wrestling team just as much as the next one...i love the boys know which weight class they wrestle...what they are good at and what not...love the parents.....but my husband is a assistant coach and what that means to me is... he don't get home anytime before 6pm ?..not sure exactly like a pregnant woman forgets the pain from delivery I do the same with wrestling so I am excited for it to start again......And our weekends are full of wrestling tourneys w/now 2 small kids but you know the weekends isn't bad b.c. we can leave whenever we want and It gives me time to spend time with friends and stuff..but it sucks through out the week b.c. Sondra goes to bed at 8pm..so it don't leave much room for them 2 and Sondra more than ever needs her Daddy Me time..and for a family as a whole...when shall we ever have dinner together..I always joke that during wrestling season I'm a single Mom.....and I know there are single moms out there that will disagree and think how dare she make that comparison but your not writing this blog...and thats my little Ole opinion of my situation.....one good thing is...we have our family day on Sundays..which is solely devoted to being together...and nothing will get in the way of that...and if so... beware of my heaping fire of wrath.. lol.. but I would beware....its one thing for me to fight for his attention...but not for my darlings...

Also.. its just the time of year...I have started to make my Christmas budget...and look at it and wonder...how will it ever work... lol.. some way some how..it can work.. Stuart really won't need anything but I'll have to get him one gift..he isn't going to remember it..and his Aunts & Uncles..are there to spoil him... :)...but with Sondra.I've gotta up my game...she is into Opening up presents!...so volume is what counts...but I don't want to get her all kinds of cheap chintzy stuff...so I'm starting a list..and really going to shop around...last year after thanks giving me and Melissa went to ToysRus to watch the craziness...well I might have to be apart of that craziness.. lol.. this year though...I'm taking my video camera.. haha..hopefully we do go..

I've also gotta get some creative ideas for this weekend...Jess has been wanting me to take pics of colt..and while we are doing that all 3 of them are gonna get pics together..and then I'm gonna try and get a quick family pic of me Jake and kids...we don't have a new since Stuart was born..and I really don't want to spend money to have someone take a bad one..lol..not that mine will be good..b.c. I have 2 kids...that already I know teachers will be begging me to get them heavily medicated to sit still in school...and a husband that his version of a smile....I won't even describe it...lets just say teeth are never involved... and then me... I see myself in pictures and go... who is that girl..where have I ever gone.... we were looking at old pictures over the weekend...and so many people said look at you and Jake... you guys were so young and skinny.... after about the 2nd one...I thought I'm not old..that was just a what maybe 4 or 5 years ago...so I'm just over weight and young... thanks :).....sniff sniff ..pity party for me ..
which leads to another topic....dieting... we are supposed to be "wanting" to start a diet...well I am..but seriously- I don't need one more thing to worry about doing...i see old pics of me and think man I looked good...and want to look that way...but.. I must not care about myself enough..b.c. I haven't followed through with losing weight in a long time..i didn't keep any weight on from Stuart..my legs are actually smaller but my midsection is another story...to be my weight before I had Sondra....I need to lose 18 pounds... and with Sondra..I took it off..and then got happy and didn't bother to continue what I was doing... I need to find a happy medium...I wanna be that girl again...but is it worth forfeiting the time? I will promise though I'll be doing a lot of swimming this winter...being in a house with 2 kids won't work...so we'll be swimming and spending time w/Grandpa Kenny..plus Stuart has to be a fish just like his big sister Sondra...and Sondra this year needs to give up her floaties and swim like a big girl.....  
I think I have rambled on enough...and pitied partied myself out..sometimes it just feels good too... you'll hear from me again..maybe this week...and also pray for my Grandpa Kenny he is in the hospital for a few days...he has bronchitis...which is making it hard for him to breathe..He will get out in a few days docs have said..
much love
Joie

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