Retreatmania....Mz. Bella your about to get to know me even better :)

WOW...what a weekend... after a year of planning the retreat went really great. Week leading up to retreat I just kept saying..I just want it to be over... and I didn't mean that in  a negative way but I had been planning for so long- and I just wanted to see it in action. I was crazy nervous night before hoping I had not forgotten anything. But once we got there and got it all set up...all tension was released. I was so happy Jess, Mel, Sam, and Kayla..they all did their parts and extra special thanks to Ms. Sam..awesome crafts. We had a Mary Kay demonstration that we got makeovers and then the opportunity to buy make up and Tracy was so kindly to share a % of her profit... Thank you We didn't even expect that and she didn't have to do that...our speaker was so wonderful Sunday morning.. She really made me think about a lot of stuff and I'm afraid I'm really going to work on changing how I'm doing things...I just may really freak some people out.. ! :)... the only down fall was our hotel rooms...the set up was so great..the patio room "our meeting room" was joined with sliding glass doors...so nice...but the rooms aren't no 5 star hotels you know...and one room wasn't vacuumed b.c. there was crap left under the bed and also lol... a pot seed left on the box spring...so I guess the cleaning lady doesn't get a pat on the back!.. I liked on people's surveys where they were trying to be nice and one comment was about hotels ..."I've stayed in Haiti before so hotels were fine!"...besides that...everything was great....also on the surveys there were a few just plan on planning it next year!.... which I could do that if no one else wants too...or maybe someone else take the lead and I help..anything works...after all these baby showers and wedding showers and retreats I could be a professional planner...maybe I just found my true calling lol...

Life I'm hoping since retreat is over should be slowing down... well not really... its just about Horse weather. and Jake's Hay season will start up..which has me out to the ying yang...I have a yearling that needs trained...I have such mixed emotions about her... I know if I don't get attached to a horse soon then I may never ride much again. She is a beauty. born on Valentine's day..Her name is Bella... she is a nervous horse...but once you catch her and get your hands on her..she calms down..its that whole catching part...when we got her she was a few months old..but My Myst was still a live and nobody worked with her... and I was big and pregnant...so in July when Myst died... immediately my Mom and Jake were like well that Colt is yours... I get it what they were doing..so yesterday at TSC I thought I should probably get Bella a new halter and lead rope to start messing with her... she won't be able to ride for a while but she needs a lot of ground work experience...I need to 1st fall in love me and 2nd teach her to respect me... thats what I loved about Mystery..she knew I loved her and she loved me...she never needed reminded when I got on her back..she instantly did what I wanted and what I asked...

so this training thing is going to be..tricky and not so tricky...I on one hand have absolutely confidence in myself.. I know what to do. I know how to do it..I just need the time. I have never really trained a horse from scratch...but I'm confident in myself... on the other hand I look at Bella and see and think of Mystery...I question..will I ever be able to put Sondra on her back?.. W/Myst we just started letting Sondra ride her by herself b4 she died... I just don't know... I got Myst when she just turned 2...she was a green broke horse that just needed hours on her back..but she was so quiet so putting the hours on her back were quite easy. I had her for over 10 years... we knew each other very well.  So once it dries up some I'm going to try to make it 2 to 3 times a week. With 2 kids...getting there will be tough.. but I gotta do it if I want to have my dream horses again..  

Well I must be going!..Thanks for reading..and I'll update again soon :) 

Flooring...Encourage!....back to house...and Grandkids

I have had a really great week...wood floors are in or almost finished..we are getting things back to where they belong and this is a shocker...then we will be MOVED back in our house...the famous line of last night.."whats one more night?"... lol..i do got to admit...it has been nice living with a house full of people..its always fun and something is always going on...but now I'm ready for some peace and quiet...I think I will do better on my diet once I get home..I haven't been tracking for the past 2 weeks..I always make a good attempt during the day but always forget to track my suppers! Tonight hopefully I don't gain~!

I hate how life can be cruel..that people that you always knew are not who they really are. I hate how jealously changes relationships that were so strong. I hate to see people that I love hurt like that. I'm making a commitment to really to always try and encourage not only everyone but all the women in my life. Will I always do it...no..but its worth a try. I don't know why we as women always have to tear each other down. Is it all really worth it?

Since wrestling being over... Jake has finished the laminate wood flooring or close too... next on our list is the back room...it needs shelves up...then also We need our siding up the pieces that fell over and we had to order new... then for me..I want to redo our bedroom..Jake wants to repaint it..well yesterday he did but today he has changed his mind..but I really want to..He hates the color that he so politely painted for me to surprise me one weekend... my favorite color..purple!... but he don't like it! lol.. either way it got me a bit excited..and I think I want to paint it and do a new bedspread..and repaint this really old book shelve that came from my Great Grandma's house...   I think for the 1st time in a long time I am really excited about my house!... the floors look really great..so happy the carpet is gone..what else can I come up with to get Jake to learn how to do or just plain do!!.....lol .pray for Jake's good health..I have been working him hard on the house... :)

My parents have 2 little "grandkids" visiting and they are the sweetest! They are the most behaved little darlings. last Saturday I had to run to town so that meant taking a 9mo old, 2 yr old, 3 yr old, and 4 yr old...I can not tell you how many compliments I got about how well behaved they were...so good I even took them to toys R us..and not one melt down... very proud of the kiddies!... so we all have been enjoying this extra time with them but Sondra will be heart broken Wednesday when they go!...

Well I need to be going..I'll update more at the end of the week!..I've been up to my nose in Retreat planning...wish me luck and pray that I get all this finished!

Stu Earned his 1st erTeddy! House Makeover and ending w/WW 5%

So I have had a pretty crazy few days lately... its 830 in the morning and I am yet not at work (which call me a bad Mom but I'd rather be at work under these circumstances)  for the second day in a row and am at my parents house at home with the kids... Stuart had a cough the earlier week but there isn't anything you can do for a cough...feeling fine...no fever..eating great...well Friday it started getting worse...his cough...and he started to sound congested which he sounds like that half the time already..I didn't worry much.... well... Saturday I thought he seemed warm ....nope its 100..nothing in Doc's eyes to be worried about..but still coughing really bad..and started wheezing.... But no Fever... so I didn't worry...I would get him into the doctor Monday as soon as I could get a appt..So Sunday...his breathing was better..he was breathing very heavy..but no wheezing if hardly any...then that next morning... he woke up and was wheezing...when I picked them up from Amanda's to go to doc..he sounded even worse.... on my way to my appointment I knew this wasn't going to be good..I wasn't going to Tran but to a PA in his office....as soon as she seen him she says they wanted to start a breathing treatment now...did that no change...she checked his ears and she said they were fine...then she tells me that I need to take him to the hospital immediately b.c. she thinks and is pretty sure he has RSV....awww Great!... so...as I am gathering my things..I get in Car call Jake... tell him I am bringing Sondra to him and then have to go to hospital..trying to explain what RSV even is..I wasn't sure I just knew he would be admitted if that was really what it was... call my Mom and ask her to meet me there...bc 1. If me and Jake go..neither one of us knows what is going on... 2. She has a lot of experience with it b.c. both my brothers were in the hospital when babies w/respiratory issues.. So we are in Car and I turned off Sondra's Music so I can always hear Stuart breathing b.c. the lady I seen told me he looked blue and that I needed to rush him to ER...so I was assuming if he was turning blue he could go unconscious... Sondra is complaining about her music and I try to explain and I said is your brother awake b.c. he was being quiet and I knew he hadn't had his full nap... and she says his eyes are closed... and I ask her is he Blue Sondra??.. and she says No Momma he is green..I asked no is he blue..and then she tells me I don't know ...lol.. thank you..then I thought to myself..quit worry God has this..so we continue...then all I thought about how we had to take Sondra to the ER when she was about 12-15months when she fell and cut open her eyebrow...I just cried b.c I felt so horrible b.c. I was watching her and felt like it was my fault...of course Mommy guilt sets in and I just start to cry softly trying to stop my self..and Sondra says...Whats wrong Momma???..and I say I am just really Sad..Stuart is really sick and I am his Mommy and I shouldn't let this happen to him....and she tells me "Momma don't worry..Stuart is  really busy baby and that is why he is sick but he loves you"...lol... that helped me. So I get Sondra dropped off...and I prepare myself...and Start to pray... "God- Make me the strong Mother that I need to be so I can be there for him and comfort him"...I just kept repeating that..I kept talking to him and saying that a crying woman won't do nothing to keep Stuart happy!"... and if you know me..I hate to cry... I hate it b.c. well...it shows your weakness..and I don't like to appear weak..only since I have had kids have I really allowed myself to show Sondra weakness b.c. ultimately if I can't show her how will she ever think it is OK to show how she feels...and that would "cripple" or handicap her as a individual someday...
So I get into the ER..remarkable God gave me my courage and I held it together..My Mom got there and helped explain what was going on since we had been staying with my parents she knew what was going on too..she talked "medical" with them... and they were much calmer at hospital which helped ease my emotions...we had a awesome nurse and really great ER Doc..he loved Stuart and both of them said you wouldn't he know he was sick by the way he is acting and eating! lol... exactly..and all the guilt started to ease away... I was thankful that his RSV and Flu test came back Negative...they did a Chest Xray and if any parents have had babies that needed that no need to explain but for people who haven't..they have to put your baby in this contraption seat and strap them up with their arms up in the air and the kids just scream bloody murder...the lady said to me..now its ok to get upset at this most parents do..and I just reply- I know it won't hurt him a bit and it needs to be done and this will help so we can find out what is wrong...I might even laugh so don't hold it against me...lol..and of course...I laughed... he just got so pissed off..he kept staring at her  and would whimper when she walked us back to our room...so doc came in and told us that he had early  pneumonia in his lungs and a ear infection in his right ear (which that was out of left field b.c. I have dealt with ear infections and he had not been acting like that at all)...that he was prescribing him a strong antibiotic and breathing treatments which 1st 2 days would be around the clock....(and that is why I feel deadbeat and wish I was at work) lol.. so that meant..he wasn't admitting him...thank you Jesus..b.c. if its preventable I have been told you don't want your baby admitted b.c. there are so many germs they can get in a hospital and 2... I would do if I had too without a second thought..but staying at the hospital is very expensive... thinking about makes me feel like a bad Mom..but I am human I guess...
 and also we were going to move home Monday and with everything we decided we would rather have a nurse on hand just in case... respiratory issues are very serious..I didn't want to trust my own judgement if he started to get worse...
So Stuart has been doing better this second day... yesterday he was still continuing still wheezing..but this morning...he has been sounding a little better..and it stinks in the morning b.c. at 4am yesterday he wouldn't go back to sleep...so then he fell asleep at like 630 or so I was wide a wake for a while...and then this morning at 5 am I gave him his breathing treatment and still didn't want to fall asleep...he just laid down right before I started writing this...
so through all this house stuff and then Stuart I have decided I have been doing something right b.c. the Devil is trying to reek havoc on our family's life...all day Monday at work I was trying to get my stuff done and then also trying to figure out what I still needed to do for the women's retreat but couldn't think straight b.c. I was worrying about Stuart..i really believe the Devil is trying to get in the way..and its just not going to happen!...

With our house over the weekend we bought that laminate flooring to replace all of our carpet..I am so excited to get that NASTY ASS white but now tan brown carpet out!..and I don't take back the bad word just don't tell my little lady..if you seen it you would agree its nasty ass carpet... what genius redid our house and put all WHITE carpet it in...a cheap one!!!!... so now before we move back in Jake is going to put that flooring in starting Friday..My cousin so generously offered to show Jake how to do it and what we hear it is really easy you just have to learn how but once you start its a cinch!...so that means..we will be at my parents till Sunday at the latest my hubby says... and I don't care!!..if that means carpet gone..I would stay in a cardboard box in the street if I had too!... I am so excited about fixing up our house and happy Jake is willing to learn how to do it himself makes him more and more valuable..don't worry babe if you continue this I won't trade you in..lol JK ..not that our house needs a lot of fixing up but we have neglected to make it our "own" b.c. we don't want to stay there..but with economy and everything I don't see us selling it with any profit right now and when the economy gets better I'm afraid we will lose money..which we will just have to do it...My Mom has all these ideas and I am so excited about it...after the flooring we are going to put up shelving in our back room b.c. we are not going to store anything in the back room again and our back room is just piled with things that were supposed to be taken down there but b.c. of my husbands extra curricular activities not a bunch got done in the last few months...so its a blessing in disguise! lol... but it will be nice to get shelves up and some organization back there...probably my favorite thing we purchased for house besides the flooring... a new deadbolt for our front door... lol... I broke my key off in it during the winter so we hadn't been locking our house...and so I have always told Jake even before..I want one of those doors I don't need a key for bc. a lot of times I forget my keys at work and then have no way to get in house which really pisses me off b.c. I don't like locking the door and so I either wait till he gets home in the car or go to somebody's house till he is off work......so he actually broke down and agreed to get one... he wasn't very happy but after putting it in and realizing it wasn't that hard to do...I think he is slowly ok with it..and one good thing is..its not all electronic there is a key override... it was worth the money I don't care what anybody says!.. also..if anyone has keys to our house...they don't work no more!!
Also..WW was yesterday...I have had  a hard 2 weeks and knew it wasn't going to be good..probably a gain but one surprise I didn't gain..but lost .8 of a pound lol..a loss is a loss I hear..lol but hey I reached my 5% goal... which Jake informs I shouldn't put how much I have lost b.c. any person can easily figure out how much I weigh and he knows I am very insecure with my weight..which yes I am..but can't anybody know how much they weigh and can about guess by their weight how much other people are close too ....so ya its not a secret but he is right I don't want to proclaim my weight maybe once I get to my overall goal weight I will scream it from the mountain tops...this week I am getting back on track...Its time to get serious again..and it helps a lot wrestling is over!
so..I have went on for far too long...I must be going and probably won't write till next week..

State Bound... Mohawk Man...lovin' food...busy night~!

So.. Finally getting back to you... My week is going much better than last week...still some high emotion..but its all working...

State was a blast..it was much needed time away. Glad to report not once did I get upset with Jake...Its usually a high tense weekend and we sometimes surprisingly get into it! lol..never not us. I sometimes think he likes to make me mad. Anyways...Stuart was so well behaved it was crazy!.. so many compliments of how he is so good! Our mustangs did awesome!...The 2 Lovejoy boys paced. Cody 6th and Colt 7th...John went 0 and 2 but ultimately we were just glad to get him there...its overwhelming the 1st time you get there so hopefully this helped to get the jitters out but I am SO proud of him!....I always get all sentimental and retrospective b.c. this year marks 7 years since I went to state to go talk to the "mohawk" man... which eventually became my Husband Jake... I remember Beej on the way down there saying..Joie if you talk to him..you can't call him the "mohawk man!"..really like I would really call him that to his face??? lol...... .. 7 years later... 5 years of Marriage this July and 2 kids too.. been exciting.

Its funny how things work out. I love reading letters we wrote back and forth I'm not sure what it was for but something I ended up giving him was a picture frame with a photo of us in and a letter I wrote and stuck it in the back.. I reread it the other day and it just amazed me...talked about how I couldn't wait to start our next chapter in life together and how I know we won't have everything in life but we will have each other and how I couldn't wait to start a family and all that...it gave me a tears of joy b.c. it is not very often a person is aware of what she has in front of her. I never use to choose the right things for me and for once in my life I did just that... I like to look at how our love has grown...infatuation, puppy love, ect... right now..I can say when I look at him I see everything we have together...everything that keeps us together..when there have been times when we fight or think what are we going to do...its quite easy to decide when you look at those 2 perfect kids and say.. our love will change and we will work on this- I never imagined a marriage would be "work" and its silly for people to beleive it is not. When Sondra shows us how compassionate she is..or shows her temper we sometimes just look at each other and just smile..like yup- thats OUR girl...or when Stuart does something new or just too see his smile- I can't help but think..Look at OUR little boy... we are beyond blessed by Jesus...

We indulged on food but I didn't worry too much b.c. we did so much walking! My new favorite place to eat Cane's Chicken Fingers..wow..I ate all my food there!...great bread, fries, and chicken! I weighed myself last night and I dad not gained nor lost any weight...and I didn't go to WW b.c. I didn't have anyone to watch the kiddies and Mom is in the Amish and Jess had something going on also..so I thought its probably best I didn't go with my 2 crazy kids lol...

A Funny from the weekend!
So us Reffitt girls love Krispy Kreme lol..surprise surprise..whenever we are in Columbus we have to go and get some... Well..All weekend we made comments of going..but never did..kept saying if we get close to Sawmill road there is a krispy kreme close to there...but never did...well on Saturday night after finals me and Mom are trying to find a gas station.. my GPS had us get off some exit and drive 1.5 miles..wasn't really sure where we were at..so then we found something to eat..so then we program the GPS to take us home... all weekend we knew where we were going...as long as we listened to the GPS lol... so we turning turn by turn listening to the GPS all of a sudden it says turn right on Sawmill road!... SAWMILL RD????  My Mom's next words would make any person laugh... "Well if that isn't the a act of God- I don't know what is!" lol.. Much Agreed Mom Amen!!! lol so we in fact did end up having our Krispy Kreme! So funny..b.c. we were so happy!

I'm excited and happy to report the 31 bags are supposed to be in today or tomorrow and I will be able to pick them up and start delivering them to people! I never once had so much having a party..lots of fun and the products rock! They literally sell themselves..I can't even begin to tell you how many people called me wanting to buy this stuff...It was easy having a $500 party. I could see myself selling this stuff for extra cash. I have always been wanting something like this. I'm going to do more research and really think hard..but I already beleive in this product.. .I wonder how many 31 consultants are in our area... anybody have any feedback??

So I have a busy night tonight... I have to meet some insurance person at the house to look at our basement..b..c we didn't have flood coverage or sump pump back up coverage but they are coming to look at some water line but maybe just maybe they will find something and say well we can cover this or some of this lol... I am by no means expecting anything..but for some odd reason please Pray! anything always helps!
Then we will be on our way to the All Star Meet and hopefully somewhere I the bags will be in and I can pick them up today~!!!

The Rains Came Down-The Floods Came Up!

Wow Have I got a lot to Say..Prepare for High Emotion....
So Sunday night we are home vegging out from the long weekend of wrestling.... I hear the loudest crack of lighting I have never heard before... maybe the was foreshadowing but I didn't think of anything about it then..
Monday morning we sleep in as usual and I go to make Stuart a bottle..I turn on the water...NO Water???..hmm.. go to the bathroom to try that faucet..(IDK why I tried a different one) ...NO WATER... Tell Jake that he needs to go to basement to check and see if he needs to flip the brakers...b.c. I see the stove's clock blinking..power must of switched on off maybe the water could do that too??...I check the fridge..still  all good..so I go to get Stuart out of bed while Jake moves slowly out of bed...I start to wake Sondra up...and look out the kid's window....

I was shocked..Wow... that is a lot of water..As I am looking at this..Jake says HUH Joie..I can't  go down in the basement...Great Why not... and then I go back there and see this...

and my first thought was...."What in the Hell Happened????"... immediately.. I begin to cry..I just do..I buckle under pressure at first...with my Kid's I can react the right way and then cry later when they get hurt...but other situations..wow..I got to cry first and then think... as I stand there and look at this...I think.. Wow..what is all down there... Does insurance cover this??...and then..oh shit my house is a mess...Jake just the night before said one more week hunny and then you have me to help you...for the past few weeks I haven't even cared as long as the dishes are clean and have clean laundry I couldn't care less.. lol...so I just thought great..people are going to be walking through here..in my dirty ass house...and to top things off... Saturday night Sondra took a whole thing of baby powder to me and Jake's room..
I got Sondra up made her look out the window...she couldn't beleive her eyes... I then took her back to the back room and she says....How did this water get in here???? We need to get it out!... then she Tells Jake: Daddy you need to get this water out.... lol... I wasn't laughing then... so I say what are we going to do..can you go down there and turn the sump pump back on..and he just looks at me like I'm an idiot..he says Joie we can't do anything until this water goes down... OMG... we are going to let this water just sit here till it goes down... all our neighbors are pretty much outside because everyone on our side of the road their basement is flooded...just crazy... So I get in the car with kids and cry all the way to the sitters... cry pretty much all the way to work... cry off and on at work...heard the news insurance isn't covering we don't have flood insurance... awesome...cry when Jake says we are going to have to stay somewhere else for the time being...love it...cry at the realization that our Furnace, water heater, Pressure Tank, Water Softener, deep freezer is down there.. really ticked off..b.c. we just replaced our water softener just a few months ago... the deep freezer had food in it... and then I have saved all of Sondra's baby clothes... kept all the nice ones so that when we do have another girl... I was being financially smart so I didn't have to rebuy... they are gone (Jake confirmed that night when he went through the stuff).... then I realized... after we moved out of our parents house we had a few boxes of things that we didn't have room upstairs for so we kept them in basement... ruined...and really I know I can live without that stuff...but I have already lost all my stuff before..but I have since then been more conscious to hold on to special stuff and save it and really treasure it...gone... no I didn't lose all my stuff this time..but I lost some of that important stuff... that I wanted saved..and you may ask yourself why is she the idiot that kept it in the basement... well this idiot lives in a 665 sq foot house and we had never had a problem with our basement flooding in the past 6 years...so ya.. I kept it down there..we have no storage upstairs..when our house is spotless it looks messy b.c we have stuff everywhere..we would be a good candidate for a home organizing show or just total makeover for our house... seriously..lol
Jake tells me JOIE don't worry about this..don't sit at work and worry all day its going to be fine...So I was at work all day Monday..Jake calls and says his Dad his getting a pump and bringing over tonight...Thank you Thank you Thank you!... then after work I cry all the way to pick up kids..sitter probably thinks I am a emotional mess... but start to head to the house..I cry all the way there..Sondra wants her songs..turn those on..I can hear her singing.. "he is lord"..I cry more..Sondra screams Mommy turn my  Music down..I turn it down and she says..Mommy don't be sad...and I tell her I am just sad because of the water in our basement and how it will take a lot of money to fix... and she says.."Don't worry Mommy...Daddy is going to fix it..He fixes everything that don't work and you do everything else"...lol.. that is what Jake tells Sondra.... I don't know whether to compliment me or just so she won't ask him to do anything except fix her toys...I say your right Sondra..Daddy is going to fix this... she continues her singing of he is lord..... she is a amazing little girl... Such faith in her Daddy.. :)
we get home and Jake is there...his good news was that the water had gone down and there is about 2 foot of water left in Basement...bad news is that a water line is broke and there is some plumbing work he is going to have to do... but first is getting the water out so he can go down there b.c. we kept our electricity the whole time..strange... so I tell him I can't stay here... and I get all of our stuff and go to my parents...Then a friend from Church and her husband and their daughter stop over with a whole bunch of food..so thoughtful and nice... she said it was the least she could do... cheered us up... nothing is better then home cooked food... but not good for weight watchers the next day ;)... I also received a Text from my cousin about how the night before I popped up in her head and she wasn't sure why so she prayed for me and seeing now she knows why and told me that I was a awesome mom and wife and hoped I had a great week...made me cry..but a good cry.. with a smile.. we have such awesome family and church family... see I know we are going to get through this.. I know that.. financially I know we could get money to repair everything... but thank goodness this happened right before we are to get our refund back from Taxes... yeah I really don't want to spend it on that..we had planned to pay a few things off..and keep a good chunk of it just in case car or something was to break down...but ya.. push come to shove.. we will probably have enough money to fix our car's A/C and the window like originally planned and now repair the stuff in the basement...and all day Monday when I texted Jake questions and all that..and each one at the end he would tell me ..Don't Worry Joie God will get us through it...  he is a good Hubby...so right now we are living at my parents which Sondra is loving running the show.. lol..

So After my Monday...I pretty much confirmed- I needed to get away... State Wrestling is this weekend..and boy did I want to go... got it figured out at work... my original baby sitter sister in law Kayla couldn't babysit b.c. sadly she is going through the same basement trouble..which is just as upsetting...she still had just as much water in her basement the second day...I thought to myself she is going through enough b.c. Rick is out of town all week and she is alone on this... so I couldn't possibly let her worry about taking Sondra...so my Sister in law Melissa and brother Jonas will watch Sondra Thursday night and Friday and then thankfully..they will drop her off to Andrea so Sondra can have some girl fun with Cara... Sorry Joel.. Andrea told me she had to work Saturday and she is leaving the kids with you..I'm thankful I have great and family and friends that are so willing to help...
So this weekend It will be Me & Stuart..some quality time...and we get to watch my brother Wrestle his little heart out...I am so proud of him!.. He has seriously been wrestling for 3 years..no prior experience..none what so ever...and his Jr. year he is going to State... he placed 3rd at districts... I want all of our people in our conference to do good and all of our Mustangs to do Best..but Man John's story is pretty freaking awesome..and I sometimes can't contain my excitement for his future..he is going into the service after high school and plans to make it a career!.. What a honorable future ahead of him.. but this weekend.. will be good....nothing can get worse right now with me..so.. I'm going to State!

As I conclude this big mumbo jumbo of thoughts I want to say I lost 1.4 pounds this week at WW..and I have lost 9.2 pounds so far and my 5% goal is 9.5..so I am so close..that made my day brighter yesterday...

As a disclaimer I know I am not the first  person in the history of the world to have a flooded basement and lose stuff or to not have flood insurance and all that... I get that and understand that... this is a place I share what is going on with my life; whiney or not...you chose to read this..so please don't think to yourself..wow she needs to get over it b.c. this is what is going on in my life right now....as a young family..we just don't have thousands of dollars laying around waiting to be spent..we have a mortgage and bills and such and 2 young kids...that only keep getting more expensive..so spare me the words of saying "everything will be fine"..b.c. I know it will be fine...I've lost stuff before but this time financially I'm gonna foot the bill b.c we are grown ups now and we chose it :).. so ya..I'm a little bit stressing..but its going to be taken care of... and Someday..me and Jake are gonna say...remember in 2011 when we got so much rain and melting snow we had water clear up to the top of our steps in that little house in Lafayette and how Sondra just couldn't beleive it but said "Her Daddy will fix it"... yup its going to be a memory..

In all circumstances I am praising God.. it could have been a lot worse.. it could have came up into our house...and really ruined a lot of stuff..and then we would have been in a lot of trouble...thank God we had someone praying for us that night just b.c. I had popped up in her head...I really think that helped..I thank God we didn't have to be evacuated or anything and none of our kid's special memories were ruined b.c. thankfully we kept them upstairs...I thank God I have family that has helped already in these past few days...and are still willing to do more...I am thankful I have family calling and friends to just checking in and praying for us...I appreciate that and please continue..

I'm hoping when I come back from state most of the damp moisture is gone and the whole house don't still smell like a basement and the Carbon Monoxide thing quits beeping.....I pray that there isn't bad mold I'm sure it is unpreventable but I have one kid with allergies and Stuart shows signs of allergies too...so that would be bad to have..  keep that on your list..

I will update next week ;)