BLISS

Much Better Mood than last update! :) I'm almost Blissful

Holy Crap its fair time!!! Jake & Sondra will be staying at fair all week and me & Stu will go home at night..so he can sleep in his own bed...and me too lol... I'd rather much have it that way....oh and to take care of the dog...

so... I AM SO HAPPY TO TELL YOU we closed on the house  last Tuesday. SO so happy... I'm glad to really start seeing ideas and getting stuff fixed. Last night  we met with a window company to quote us to replace windows... this Tuesday we will meet with 2 more.  I've already got ideas and colors for each room. Jake & I's bedroom: Brown & Turquoise/ Kitchen: Pumpkin Fall Bathroom:..Hmmmm/ Sondra's Bedroom: Purple & Beach Sparkle (extra paint from work from my cubby) /Stuart's Bedroom- On the fence still (Sports or Farm/Tractors) Living Room: Something Neutral... My most excited room...the Kitchen! I always thought it was nutty when I seen people have their whole kitchen decorated in Apples...but it dawned on me why!>..I love pumpkins lol... Forealz... lol... and even you look on my pinterest boards..I got all kinds of different pumpkin stuff...I love fall..and all the colors..the leaves...so..there we go..I get why people decorate their kitchens in Apples...I just have that same affection but towards pumpkins lol... :) ... I'm excited to find stuff here and there...and piece it together.. the only room I'm not sure on color is the living room.... I'll think though...I'm really excited about getting a china cabinet from a friend...I'm very elated to see how much support my family has... so many people have messaged me saying how happy they are or excited to see what we do..and offer help or furniture they were getting rid of and thought of us....I'm just thankful they are thinking of us!....I can't wait till we move..but one thing is... I'm a little clueless on how to move...I'm seriously thinking where is Lacey...she knows this stuff...I remember before or right after  I got married we went shopping to get my kitchen in order and fill my cabinets..I was a little bit flabbergasted or lost and she took control...we got back to the house.....and she rearranged my kitchen lol.... :).... surely though I'm a big girl..and I can learn to move and set up house by myself... just a very daunting task...I've packed 2 boxes and they are still sitting out...man I need to get some motivation...its just what do you start with first? lol...

Also another exciting thing!... I took Rick & Kayla's Maternity Pictures...all a long we have been taking progression photos...but we actually had pictures with Rick too... I think they turned out really cute...there were a few poses that I really wanted to try...and they turned out lovely...My all time favorite:

Love it! 

on Wednesday when I was printing off pictures of poses that I had to do..b.c. there are certain set of poses picture peeps always do or customers want and I somehow came across this one..and thought well that is different... I love it... Definitely a keeper.. which also.. my sister came along and she commented you really need to start a binder with all your photos... which...why yes that is a good Idear! ....I'm going to work on that too...

This next week will be so nice! I'm off work all week! :)... Its much needed time away..hopefully we enjoy the fair and get stuff done at the house! :).....So many great things ahead!

Once school starts and things get into a schedule..I want to take pictures for more people..so hopefully I can bank a little money and buy extra things..like my dream coffee maker: A keurig...I don't even care what kind it is..I just want one... b.c. it all would make sense for me...When I first thought about this house... the first thing popped into my mind... Coffee Dates...not with my husband..but my gals..sitting around enjoying coffee and gossiping(fact sharing)...First order of business once we get  moved in and settled... A 31 Party!..you let me know if you want invited! :) ... 

Well I must be going! :) I Shall Return :) 

Love, 

Me 

Closing...

As it seems...not closing on the house this week...dang I'm disappointed... I just want to start our future there... I want to get it livable... so I can get moved in...I can't wait to move...

So I'm asking! Please pray for all documents to get through and whatever is holding them up- Please pray everything goes through quickly...

Thank you
Love
Me

IndifferenceINsharing/Surprise3rdBaby/schoolnewbeginings/MyGirl

I can not tell you how many unpublished blogs I have started these last few weeks....many countless ones that begin with Why? What is wrong with me? Why wouldn't you trust me? Or God is this really for us? You are not going to present this and then let us fail... Can I do this..Can We? What am I doing? Am I really making a difference? Why can't she see me for who I am? all these thoughts that I don't know how to share..with really anyone..

as you are going to probably from this blog...I don't exactly have my happy face on... People piss me off in general..I don't always show it or you don't always here my commentary about it but. when people I love hurt me..pisses me off even more... I have these big dilemmas and games of what ifs..and talk extensively about it to Jake(which he just LOVES..hint hint sarcasm).. or my Mom or Jess...then talk to my best friends and ask for wisdom.. prayer... and then I get to a point where I'm just plain unchristian... I don't give a shit.. there are only a few things that can make me that way...and it feels like people have been pushing those precious buttons a few time here lately..I don't know what to say?... I'm not apologetic....Just maybe Pray for me and my sanity.

What is New??? Hmm...

Welll I'm not lying to you this post or nor was I trying to my last post..but We SHOULD be closing on our house this week! :) Makes me happy excited and ready! I wanna see what needs fixing and get it done and get to moving... Moving to this house will be so much better!

Our Yago

With all this moving we had been looking for a puppy... much to our dismay any pups we wanted was far too much... We want a pup I wanted a Australian shepherd Jake wanted a border Collie... and from all the breeders you are looking at least 500 for either breed....wow? SO then we expanded our serach on the county classifieds..which some how I got to Petfinder.com...We found this Border Collie/Aussie Shep Mix...it was a female and looked just like a Collie..We called and she already had a few applications...  She sugguested we come and see what puppies are left and which ones have less applications...so I found all the puppies on line...and wrote down a few of the names I liked...there were 7 in the litter...when we got to the shelter last saturday..the one we had chance of getting..Yago!...which we was my first pick...lol.... which after filling out the application and putting references lol..I know right... very intruding...but for the price...I was willing to do it..and this place wasn't as bad as some places..some places required home visits lol... bahahahahaha.... for a freaking dog!!! lol..I'm all about making sure they are okay people..but a home visit??? wow...anyways...the following week on Wednesday we got news we were approved!!!! How great!...so that night we planned on to go get him... well on the way there we decided if we were going to change his name we had to figure it out now.... Jake wanted Shadow and Sondra wanted Spot...how original..they are so much a like.. its scary...they wouldn't go for any of my names...which at one point Sondra says: "Mom- none of your ideas are making sense to me"..with Jake's reply"Sondra I think that all the time"...lol..so we all agreed just to leave his name.. Yago!...lol..Its up to debate how to pronounce it..but I say "Yay-go"...where Sondra says "Yey GO"...lol... my family has jokes he is a liberal dog since he comes from a Privately Owned Shelter in Columbus... lol... I've quickly realized I've missed having a dog... I talk about him constantly and the funny things he has done... I find myself while I"m outside taking pictures..>I snap of few of him lol..how sad...I'm that crazy Dog Lady... He is so cute... and seriously...minds better than my kids..and has been a breeze to potty train..he isn't fully trained but very minimal mistakes..and rather its been my fault! .... so who knows... I've come to the realization...this is my 3rd child for now :) and I'm a little surprised how much I like him


School is fast approaching...Sondra first full day is September 4th..but the prior week there are 2 days that we have to go there...with School starting a very significant change will be happening... The kids will be going to the Learning Tree Daycare... wow.. it frightens me but in a good way...I'm glad there are a whole bunch of Allen east people that work there so its not like I"m leaving Stu or Sondra with Strangers...it will be just so nice... Sondra will be in the latch key program where they take her to and from School and any delays cancellations she is able to stay there... Stuart will be with a whole bunch of kids which I suspect he may talk more... I'm excited to hear what he is doing who he is making friends with..and the trouble he is making... :)... Even though we will be paying more than what we do now..it will be worth it..I drop them off in morning pick them up after work...perfect location... a business relationship....  Its something Jake & I have been talking about for some time...what started it all was... by chance when I was testifying for a good friend in a custody hearing started talking to one of the directors(she was there to testify for her too) and she was just telling me a little about the place.. and how much it would be..what that included...and just everything..and I thought man I can do that...... so..I'm so excited....scared nervous...but hey...if I find I'm not comfortable with this place...I can find a alternative... Finding childcare is a hard thing...so much factors into it...I hate that someone else spends 8 plus hours a day with my kid- when I am at work..but you know what... I want more... and in order to get the things Jake & I want for our life and family..I"m going to have to work... and sometimes..as little time I have with them..I think that is why I take pictures and smile at the small things they do... I may kid and joke about how much trouble or a bother they are..but I do cherish them and their smiles and the joy they have brought to me and Jake... sometimes we can be in the shittest moods toward each other..but one of the kids just does something or Sondra says something and we just look at each other with a big ole smile and I think to myself...yup .. that's our love right there...

So- with the house was supposed to be closing this week....of all weeks.. Wagon Train Week...we decided to stay home... one to help not spend money..and 2 hopefully we would be closing...well- Sondra talks about Wagon Train year round..so I asked my parents if she could come for the week with them and they said of course...my plans were to send her and see her when she came back...with the house not closing on Wednesday... I am jumping ship and riding with my sister to pick Colt on "funday".... where they stay in camp and plan games and have a catered meal... I just couldn't resist...I've missed that little snot....Its been so funny seeing Stu entertain himself..I put him to bed last night and he puts his hands up and goes "SIS? SIS?" looking over to her bed....aww...he misses her..how cute...I miss her too... especially when Yago wants to potty...lol...

well I must be going!!! Talk to you later!~
Love- ME