I have an incredible urge to just blurt out everything that is running through my mind... hmm..where to start...
I'm not complaining but Mother's day came and went... pretty much like any other Sunday of mine...except I was able to get my yearling Bella out with the help of Jake and Mom..she is still lively but calms down when you get your hands on her...still disappoints me a bit.. I look at her and miss my own horse... Bella just doesn't seem like mine yet.. Jake will start training her to drive this summer... I made ribs for the first time for Sunday dinner...they were good...had yeast rolls that you leave out and they rise too..yum!.....and this is why I will always be over weight..damn...
I put Sondra to bed that night and gave her a extra long head and thanked her for making me a Momma..and she said "What!?"..I explained to her the day she was born I was a officially Momma!..and she replies Your welcome Mommy..your the best Mommy even when your mean too... which was a awe moment b.c. I deserved that b.c. she commented to me how fat I was getting Saturday... :)...and I asked further and she says well you gotta get fat b.c. your going to have my baby sister..and my reply was no matter how bad you want a baby sister in my belly its not going to be there for a very long time..and she says well your giving me one whether you like it or not... lol :) Happy Mothers day Joie :)
I feel a bit I don't know..I feel more negative than positive for some reason... I just can't snap out of it...
For Sondra & Stuart's Grandma's we made a special treat and dropped them off...I had a recipe for "cake pops"...but we got lazy and made them to big so we couldn't get them to stay on the sucker sticks..so then they became cake balls..so good..little bites of cake...heaven :)...
On Sunday I went back and forth about whether to take some for my Sunday school class b.c. I had a "mother's day activity"..but Sondra is usually the only one there... and I have already had enough of them..so like every week I planned like I had the 3 potential kids I know for sure that could or should be there..sure enough...I had 2 kids in my class!..very happy!
Here is a Sondra story that all will laugh at but I was genuinely concerned about.. heh..
So Friday I met my Mom at Walmart..she took Sondra shopping while I did my shopping with Stuart...its just so much easier to go shopping with one kid..anyways...so I am pushing my cart across to the grocery side when I come up on a little girl saying she wanted a bra and she needed it and blah blah blah..I quickly realize it is my daughter trying to reason with my Mom... I had a moment of blank blinking and a smirk... then my Mom says Sondra one I am not buying you a padded bra you don't have nothing to fill it with yet and 2 its up to what your mom says...aw thanks Mom!.. so she is staring at me...and I'm thinking dang this!.. She has moved up in sizes so she hasn't been to "big" girls side and spotted the Bras...so I ask her Sondra why do you want a bra???.. her reply is b.c. she doesn't want nobody to see her Boobs...and she just really wants one...and she has big boobs and she needs to cover them... lol.. so I made it very clear to her if she doesn't wear her them right and tries showing them off- I'm taking them from her!....and then telling Jake about our shopping trip he was a bit tongue tied too..lol..he says don't you deal with this stuff when she is like 13 or 14?...lol OH Jake..you have much to learn about girls.....Sondra just really shocked us!..She'll be 4 in June... I am really big on not making little girls grow up to fast or I hate the fact little girls are "sexualized" so young..and so I just thought why does she want a bra??.. What am I doing to make her want one...and then thinking and thinking... I come to a conclusion..she knows what they are. she has always been curious of them she she sees mine in the laundry basket.. She knows you are supposed to wear them... so if she behaves right with one on can it really be a awful thing..it makes her feel like a "big girl"... and also some of it comes from our baby sitter's daughters who are older..so she wants to be like them...so really this could help in the idea of private parts stay covered and all that..b..c this girl has no shame!..at night she'll get out of her bed and go potty and she'll come out to living room to ask one of us to shut her door and she is standing there without a stitch of clothing on and not even trying to cover anything up..and I say Sondra where are your clothes?..her reply..I don't need them when I sleep....so..the whole "bra-Gate" situation is under control so far...please don't make a big deal about bras to her..I thought twice before telling this story but in the end I thought it was too funny...and I'm sure everyone will be considerate and not say anything to her about it b.c. to her bras are private and we don't talk or show them to anyone....well that is at least I am trying to instill in her
Stuart has been walking more and more..I caught him a few times choosing to walk instead of crawl this weekend..my heart flutters...I like it when he walks to find me and has his arms lifted up..and he is pretty proud of himself too..its quite cute!... he is such a lovable baby I can't stand it... he is growing up way too fast and I hate that part...
I have a exciting night tonight..we are going over to Kari's to sheer goats..thats who I babysat for a little while so Sondra will be able to play with the kids and she is going to love that...
I must be going :)
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