Fascination/PoxOutBreak/InfectBuildABear/Tell/State

I often wondered growing up who would I become? What would I be? What will I do? Who will I meet? I'd think about my life and how it would look years down the road. And now I don't. I have lived in the moment since the day i got married. Even more so when I became a mother. I sometimes fault myself because I don't like to look into the future. I just try to enjoy each little moment I have with whoever I may be with. Usually my kids; I love to just stare at them and watch how they hold themselves. Maybe its a look into their future. I love when Stu lays in Jake's spot in the bed. He will lay his head back and have his arms behind his head and he will have this stern serious face as he watches tv....what is going on his that boy's head I wonder to myself?.... Or Sondra...I love to listen to her singing..it is so funny and so sweet. She is into the music from tangled. So much I made her a CD tonight b.c. I want to hear her sing all the time. I hope she is in choir someday and sings like her uncles did. That would make me proud. I love how every night before bed I tell Stu to tell Jake & Sondra goodnight..He goes around kissing and hugging...so cute :) My children truly fascinate me. I May live a small life..but my children make me feel 10 feet tall...they make me believe I'm doing something great. They may be down right monsters- but my goodness- they are perfect.

So....Stu all of a sudden has these red splotches/bumps on his thigh....I was thinking goodness no- not another skin infection..what was it going to be this time: impateigo, hand foot and mouth, 5ths diease...what else could it be this time..I swear... if it is out there..Stu gets it... I don't get it...Sondra had maybe one or 2 skin infections..this kid..oh nope.. so I take him to the doctor b.c. it was close to the weekend and if anything concerning him always progressively gets worse at about friday around 6ish..so I was going to get a head of the game... I had good results with the uti drama the week before..I take him tell the nurse and doctor what was going on...and he looks at me and says... it's chicken pox...lol..whooa wait a second? Kids still get chicken pox lol.... are you sure???...and he pulls up pictures on his laptop of early stages..and sure enough they were but still I asked are you sure?? He says; Joie I'm almost positive..we'll know in 24 hours but I'm positive... lol..wow..ok?... sooooo.... that means as the world stopped for a second..all the family that would watch my kids are in Columbus...shit... soooo..that meant... I really wasn't going to work tomorrow...and there are piles of work on my desk that I would really like to finish...SHIT i hate this... how is it...I don't like bringing my job home with me but yet..I'm stressed b.c. I am not going to get what i wanted to get done tomorrow at work... so after the doc we went to walmart and got the essentials for chicken pox..got a few things to do tomorrow... hmm... stuck in a house with my kids tonight, tomorrow..and possible Saturday...shit...

well we have had planned for a few weeks doing something special while Daddy was at State... we decided on gong to build a bear b.c. its so much more fun with the kids there ...but stu having Chicken pox would probably derail that b.c. Kayla was going to drive us b.c. me I'm too scared to drive that far...so I texted her and after a call we decided who cares... we are going anyway... ya my infectious son may infect some unsuspecting kids..but who cares.. .lol... did you know kids that get the chicken pox vaccine that 15-20% of people end up getting chicken pox..Stuart why did you have to be in that 15-20...rrrr.... anyways... our reasoning though is all kids are vaccinated for them..so its not really a big deal...plus..the doctor said since he has had the vaccine his pox will be less severe.... as long as his face isn't covered in pox...the plan will be in action... and also if you are one of those people that don't believe in vaccinating your children all together b.c. it causes autism... just listen to yourself...that just doesn't make sense at least to me...

So the prayer list today/tonight when you have a minute...Quinntel Jr (son of a foster kid parents had a long time ago and we have became a surrogate family to him) was burnt badly in a grease fire...please pray for his recovery... its going to be a very long painful journey... pray for his father and his mother... pray they are what they need to be. I don't like questioning God..or getting mad at him..but this week I did...Why the innocent little kid has to go through this... its not like he was being a irresponsible doing something stupid..he is 4 years old..innocent hasn't ever lived a normal life to begin with..why this too?...anyways..after much thought- I'm done...and I just want you to pray for this little guy...he is a sweet heart :)

also..I'm dying at home while Colt & John are wrestling in State...I'm not going to miss another year if one of our guys are down there... I hate this...I'm here waiting on texts....people better be texting me details! :)