Here we go!

At a crossroads right now… Stu heads off to school in Fall… should I get a part time job? I know the family could really use it. Do I go back to school? Do I stay home and *think/consider* having my 4^th last baby? I have feelings of obligation- I very much love being at home- but I don’t think I will ever have a full time job again unless it was financially right… I like the idea the wife stays home with the kids and home and the husband comes home at night. but also the idea of school is really awesome- its just I have a few ideas of what I want to do but they are not panning out. My FASA should come back by the end of the week so we will see how that works out. When I was working I liked that I had no idea what I truly was missing. I worked because financially it was the best choice. Now- it would be a good choice but what number value do you put on time with your kids? I mean does Jake feel better that he knows I am home with the kids? Does he like having supper waiting on him when he arrives home? Does he enjoy having a cleaa….bahahaha… I don’t have a tidy home… but is he happy with me home?... hmm… decisions decisions..

My weeks have been good…it was really nice when the weather started warming up but its stagnant right now and has been chilly we have been starting our corn burner at night…I’m a newly super fan of walking dead…I know right?? Jake says I’m just 5-6 years late. Seeing how we do not have cable so our show watching is less than interesting…Walking Dead started playing on 8.2 at 10:30pm  on Wednesday nights and naturally I watched it some and was disgusted with it and so I would just watch late night…well- that kind of wore off of being disgusted or I just became desensitized and grew curious.. WELL we got a hold of the first few seasons and quickly got through them…Like..I cried in a couple episodes- I have a major crush on Darrel J I like to think if we actually had a zombie apocalypse Jake would be Darrel…plus… he kind of reminds me of Stuart …Darrel could be Stuart too.. lol… anyways..I’m crazy I know.

Sondra & Stuart have started tball… lol.. it is actually quite funny… this year marks Sondra’s 3^rd year and Stuart is just beginning. Sondra from the very beginning has always been a wonderful student. Wants to please and do her best. Stuart is a different story. He wants to do well but he and the other boys already goof off and just can’t keep their hands off each other. Boys and Girls are just so different! I very much appreciate seeing the difference. I’m happy and blessed to have both son & daughters. I’m looking forward to the games this year. Sondra will be our all star (that sounds like “that parent” doesn’t it?)… I’m just saying Sondra will be good this year being it her last year and truly she is a testament to good coaches and a good daddy playing catch with her anytime she asks… Stuart I’m excited to see his progress from first practice to last game and years following…I can see Sondra to continue the softball thing…I’m curious to see if Stuart will continue…I’m sure his Daddy wouldn’t mind…  

Shania has been my problem. She has a milk allergy. I lately have been putting a little milk into her Soymilk bottles. I just am annoyed with the fact she has this milk allergy. I hate having to get separate milk. Planning ahead when we go places knowing they wouldn’t keep soymilk in fridge. Just annoying! So Friday night I finally got up to 4oz milk and 4 oz soymilk. She had done okay with 3oz milk and 5oz soy. (sure you could tell in her diaper but nothing explosive or runny) Well she woke up with a horrible nasty diaper Saturday morning. I was gone all morning at a mom 2 mom sale and Jake was just figuring she had a bug or something. I feel horrible because he was just doing what I was telling him and he continued the soy/regular milk all day until we talked. By Saturday night he butt was flaming and was so uncomfortable we started Tylenol/Motrin to try keep her comfortable. By Sunday Jake stayed home with her while we went to church. It got worse and I was thinking I am not taking my baby to the ER for stinking DIAPER RASH. lol….so we suffered through Sunday (b.c. I was making supper and I wanted my Sister to see her diaper rash wanting to know if she thought I should take her to doc next day) and then leaving Sunday dinner early because she was just too uncomfortable. I have a lump in my throat writing about Nia’s pain. Nothing is worse then changing your babe’s diaper and her legs are trembling and she just keeps shaking her head back and forth screaming. ALL because of damn milk. Was happy I went to doctor. She gave me some nystatin that has steroids in it also. Her diaper rash is looking better but still feels like its taking forever to heal. Once this is cleared up I’m going to get her blood work done and her special order to test for Jake’s selective IGA blood deficiency. I’ve had the first 2 tested thinking they had the IGA thing but was surprised it came back negative. Hopefully Nia will surprise me and not have it..but my sis thinks she is my difficult one and will have it. So please I’m asking prayers for my little Shania for healing and comfort. She does have more good phases right now..but still is pretty sore. Please pray J thank you

 

As always keep me in your prayers please and I'll do the same for you... I'll be back soon :)